Oh Susan...You're such a sweetie...I miss you all too, and I am doing okay...Dh and I are trying to conceive the old fashioned way in the meantime, but hopefully in 2008 we'll be able to give it another go if we have no luck...We gave up on the IUI game early, because my regular OB/GYN said dh's sperm were really in bad shape, and we didn't want to dwindle our coverage away on treatments that may not get us to our ultimate goal of a baby. However, when we went for our first IVF, the RE said his sample wasn't bad at all...A little sub-normal in a few categories, but nothing they couldn't work with...So, now I've been mulling over the idea of going back to the IUI's through the clinic where I had my IVF done...Still thinking, but at least there's hope to look towards in the short-term...
Susan...I so understand what you mean about the hormones and weight gain...I know it sounds weird, but I was a bit relieved when my cycle was canceled. That's not to say that I was at all happy about it either, but I think it's only natural to be apprehensive when going through such a life-altering event. There is so much pain and stress with this whole IF thing, and it's so unfair that we have to go through this additional hurdle. I know people try to rationalize it as being something a higher power is putting us through to make us appreciate that baby even more than we would have if it came easier. I personally think that's hog-wash. I think these are medical events completely unrelated to any higher power. I need only to go to a Wally-World on the first Saturday of the month to know that there's no higher power that would do this to us. We're obviously intelligent, financially stable (or at least were before treatments), loving, and entitled men and women trying to conceive a child to bring them into a healthy relationship and home. There's no higher power that I know of that would deny us that blessing. So, while I can't explain why we're having to go through this and others don't, I can say that we're obviously the most determined, strong, and focused women that are not to be messed with. So, our moods with the hormones might be hard to deal with, they are just a sign of our strength and determination. Anyone to deny you a little crankiness in having to go through what we have, to make this baby, just better step off, cause we are a force to be reckoned with.
You stay strong Susan, and just get through the next few weeks...They'll be so worth it in the end...And this ordeal will be a faint memory. The experience will never leave us, but the moods, weight, and medical poking and proding certainly will...And on to a bigger and better experience to mold us and change us forever...Motherhood...Take care dear, and keep us posted on your progress...One step at a time...One hurdle at a time...Don't overwhelm yourself...All my best...
Me 37, DH 34
1st ICSI Oct-06 - No Fert
1st IUI w/Inj Jun-07 - BFPX2/MC
2nd IUI w/ Inj Mar-08 - BFN
3rd IUI w/Inj May-08 - Chem
4th IUI w/Inj Jul-08 - BFN
Dx Homo C677T MTHFR Mutation - Aug-08
New Hope W/New Dx & New RE For Feb-08 IUI