One thing that I forgot to mention... yesterday, I had a BIG headache.. and it's still here today! Not as bad, but I still feel it even with a double dose of Tylenol Extra Strength! Sure didn't have that last time!
Shantala: great news!
Glad our jigging worked! WOOHOO you're on your way to your BFP sweetie! It's amazing! The others are right; you'll be there before you know it. I'm amazed about how long they keep you downregging, though. At my clinic, it's never over 16 days, and from the look of it, you'll be downregging for almost a month!
Anyway, since it's not the hardest part, I guess you'll be just fine! What do you want me to do with the dates? I'll add them to the list, and of course you're welcome to stay here during your cycle, however I don't know now many people will be left in July.
mommytobe: as I see, your emotional side involves spikes and claws!
Hehehe in my case it's just being moved by everything and going AWWWWWWWWWW all the time. LOL! Geez, I'm cuddling DH all the time and I must tell him I love him 10 times more than usual! He sure isn't complaining, he's the cuddly type, too! Cramping, bloating and tender breasts are pretty standard for a 2ww. Get them too... it's really a shame that we can't have ONE symptom that couldn't be caused by progesterone! It's not silly at all to want to see a positive HTP! Geez, you can be sure I'd keep it if I had one!
I know that technically, it sounds like a win-win situation: you're happy sooner if you get a BFP, or you start the grieving process sooner if you have a BFN, which softens the blow. Weeeeellllllll.... though it's exactly what made me do that HTP, it sure didn't work that way for me last time. The thing is, when you get a BFP, you're absolutely thrilled, but still cautious because you want a reliable result and it's the blood test. Until then, you're cautious, but happy. I could take that for sure. If you get a BFN, that's when things get tricky. Sure, it hits hard at first and you get all depressed. But soon enough, you remember all the countless comments you heard here, especially by Aunty, about all those women who tested negative on an HPT even the morning of their beta and still got a BFP with the blood test... and there you go, you start hoping again because you tell yourself that HPTs are not that reliable and maybe it's just because you tested too soon. Then you start spotting and it's devastating, but you start hoping again because many pregnant women do harmless spotting... then you get the blood test and if it's negative, it's still a blow. To me, that kind of roller coaster between HPT and beta is worse than just not knowing. At least you don't have these conflicting infos (BFN, but not reliable... and so on). So that's why to me, it's not really a win-win situation. Gbnut is absolutely right: getting a negative on an HPT does harm your PMA big time.
Jul1e: LOL love the pizza sleepy!
I know it's surprising that I'm considering an HTP, but you'll probably be less surprised when you hear what I've finally settled for. It's super that your hen night was fun; that temporary tattoo seems lovely! I totally get you about your friends being pregnant before you. I sure took it as a slap on my face when it happened to others around me. It's silly, but you just want to be the next one to give the good news... and bang, someone else becomes pregnant and you still have no belly to show off. Last time it happened, it was a colleague/friend of my husband. She was about 6 months along when she came to our house for brunch and it was the first time I saw her since she became pregnant. I had managed to avoid seeing her before even if I knew it was silly. Well, when she rang at the door, I ran downstairs to get more glasses and I made sure I stayed there for a couple minutes just to get used to her being in my house. I felt completely silly, but I was scared I might react and be cold with her and that would have been unfair to her. When I went upstairs, it went just fine and I had a great time and we talked about the baby of course, eventually. But even if it doesn't last... I do understand your reaction. *hugs*
gbnut: thanks for saying that hunny! Who knows?
So! The HTP decision is the following! I'll buy a First Response kit just because it's more sensitive, but I won't tell DH and I'll keep it hidden. And I'll wait until Wednesday afternoon when I come back from work. I'll be alone in the house. I'll probably have to go the bathroom right away after travelling back from work, so I'll do the test right away, as I'll be alone with the dog and the cat and the house will be all quiet. If it's negative, I won't panic for two reasons. It might still be a false negative and, as my DH said, we still have 3 comfy FET cycles ahead of us to become pregnant. I'll probably cry and I'll tell my DH about the test when he comes back home.
If it's positive, then I'll have the incomparable joy to be the one who'll break the news to him. I have prepared a card that I'll print in advance (so I'm not in a rush on Wednesday) with two cute teddy bears on it and a word from the babies inside wishing him a happy Father's Day in advance, plus a note from me of course... I'll make dinner and as we sit at the table and start eating, I'll give him the card.
The reason why I've settled for Wednesday afternoon is that, like Jul1e said, it would not be good for me to learn the news just before having to face a day at work. Our apt is on Thursday at 8:00am... so we'll go there, have my blood drawn, then wait for 30 minutes at the clinic and the nurse will come and tell us the news. Then we'll both already be late for work; I'll have to take the subway, and him the car. So basically, if I want to cry and vent, I'll do it in the car in the parking lot and in a hurry because I won't want to miss too much work and I won't want my DH to miss too much either, even if of course neither of us would want to push the other in the back. Then we'd have to wait till the evening to see each other again. Awful.
So I figured that it was best to do it that way. The thing I didn't like about my last HPT is that I did it too early before beta day. If I do it the night before, there won't be much room to roller coaster for nothing if the news is different the next day. Last time, we did the blood test on a Sunday, it was a different situation.
What do you guys think?
Okay, so take care ladies, and I'll see you around!