Just had to reply. At the end of the day what anyone else thinks about lots of tries is up to them what matters is whether you can take the rollercoaster all over again. Your notes give the sense that you feel strong enough emotionally to go fo it. So if you can then go for it. No regrets is what I say. It is almost impossible to move forward whilst the door is still ajar or at least that is what I found.
I write because you will see my signature. Because of age, we did most cycles in very quick succession. We also had 7 operations (tubal surgery for me plus 3 TESAs for my dh) in a 3 year period. We knew that adoption was not an available option due to my dh's age and me having an auto immune disorder.
Try 7 was very very hard if I am honest. I was totally exhausted. We paid for all tmt and I was sick of spending so much money without any success but just could not stop myself.
But I had to do try 7 to know that I tried everything. I made the clinic(s) throw everything at us. The works. I made myself know that when we stopped I would know that nobody could tell me that we had not tried everything.
When we stopped then I was so very very sad but also relieved that I got my body & life back. I had some counselling which helped. The clinics also said that they could not help us anymore. We were truely at the end of our journey.
By the time my sister stepped forward, I'd say that I spent pushing 6 months coming to terms, even through try 7, with it being just me and dh. It took that long. Stepping on again, even with my amazing sister, was hard. Back at the clinics, seeing my sister on the drugs, being with her in ET etc etc However, once she had offered and the door was ajar, I knew that there would be no way that I could say no. Because I could not live with the fact that it might have worked.
If you want to talk more then PM me. Just felt that there was some similarities in the stories. If there is a chance then grab it if you can and if you feel that the door is still open for you.
All the luck in the world. Let's hope that it is 7th time lucky for you
Me 42, DH 52 IVF #1, #2, #3 ICSI #4 - 10.05.2006, 12.12.2006, 10.03.2007, 27.07.2007 ICSI/DE/TESA #5, #6 PGD/IVIG #7 - 24.11.2007, 27.02.2008, 23.05.2008 - 7 BFNs
Surrogacy/FET #8 - 15.10.2008 - BFP