I have no idea what I am doing

[Tepemc]

Hello. I'm new. Nice to meet you all. I'm 38 and my FH is 39. I say we have been TTC for about 1 1/2 years, but it's probably been longer than that. Our tests came out pretty good, but his morphology was a little low. My TSH was slightly high at 5.6 but it's 1.7 now with Synthroid. We want to do IVF because we want to do PGD testing due to a genetic predisposition to a specific issue.

I am here today because we scheduled IVF for October. Seemed like so long from now, but my nurse called today to tell me she put an order in for my injections. Ahh! The time has come. I'm so nervous.

The financial piece to this is freaking me out, because my FH is between jobs right now :/ I am supporting us for the time being and it has been ok, because I have health insurance for the both of us and recently I was promoted into a good job. But it's been slightly stressfully (understatement) on our relationship. I worry about the medical bills from IVF as well as when the baby comes. I just don't know what the future holds for us and if having a baby is going to be too much. I want to be a mom and my clock is ticking... I need someone to tell me it's going to be ok. I need to let go of the fear.