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[WJAwad]

Hello Everyone!
I am excited to have joined this forum. I have been reading over different boards for the past few weeks and am amazed by the support that everyone provides. It is so great to see people going through their own personal difficulties extend their heart and "ears" out to others.

My little about myself and my history. I am 31 years old and live in Michigan with my husband who is 30. We have been married 5 years this coming August and been together for 10+ years and our second attempt trying to get pregnant. We started trying within a year of being married because I had several sugeries on my ovaries and we were concerned it might take us a while to get pregnant. My surgeries include:
- Right ovarian cyst and left ovarian tumor at age 15 via laparotomy
- Left ovarian cyst at age 19 via laparotomy
- Right ovarian cyst at age 24 via laparoscope
- Cervical LEEP to remove cancer at 25

After never getting my cycle in control and no reason as to why my OB-GYN placed me on the Ortho Evra Patch. Not quite a moving forward step, but not knowing what else to do, we followed her suggestion. Since then I've had the following surgical procedures:
- Adhesion removal at age 26 via laparoscope
- Laser ablation of cervix to remove addition cancer cells at age 29

We are now 1.5+ years into our second attempt. Like Liberty, we had and still have people telling us "don't worry about, you are just tyring to hard", "it will happen if it is suppose to be", and my favorite "just get drunk, that is what I did." I was even put on Paxil to help me relax (but there were other reasons creating stress as well). However, we've done just about everything: BBT, Ovulation Kit testing, HSG, Sonic HSG, and U/S which all looked great. I also had another surgery to remove what was thought to be endometriosis in 10/04, but were more adhesions. Also, I just completed a 3rd cycle of Clomid.

Just this week, we met with an RE who informed my husband and I that per my 10/04 operative report, I have severe tubal damage and our only hope was to consider IVF. So, on that day we signed up to start with IVF. Within the next week I am to get my physical and my first series of blood work. I am both excited and scared. Excited at the prospect of being pregnant within the next 8 weeks and scared because though familar with the procedure I do not know what to expect from the drugs + the idea of a miscarriage.

What has made this really hard is being around people that even though they try to understand, they really can't because they already have kids or are pregnant. I had one friend tell me she was having difficulties getting pregnant "too". Then explained it was because she did not know for the first 6 months when she was ovulating. However, once she started using the OV kits she got pregnant the 2nd month. Though she is a dear friend, I don't think she can truly relate. However, it is great to find a place where there are women who can TRULY understand and relate to me.

Thanks to all of you for sharing your story to learn, motive and inspire the rest of us. Each of you are in my thoughts.