Neffi, I am so sorry to hear your devastating news, my thoughts are with you and I hope time will help, hoping that things will work out for you soon.
We are still waiting, I just looked at when I started this thread and it was last September, we still haven't even started our home study yet, I can't believe things take so long in this country, it makes me so cross and frustrated.
We have applied to adopt our fostered child, back in December, they told us we would have to wait until July before we would be considered and then had a very short notice interview a coule of weeks ago. They told us we would know the following week if we were going to be able to adopt her then to be told they can't decide between us and another family, but they can't come and see us for a second interview for at least 3 weeks beacause the social workers are on annual leave, do they have any idea the emotional turmoil we live in everyday going through this process!!!
What doesn't help is I have a very confused child whom I love dearly and want to be a mummy to but I can't prepare her for what to expect because I don't know my self, so when she asks to call me mummy I have to say that she will have a new mummy and we are waiting for ............. to decide who that may be, but I can't tell her it might be us and we desperately want to keep her incase they decide to go with the other family, which if they do decide that I will have to smile sweetly be very strong and hand her over to a wonderful new family that is going to love her forever whilst my heart breaks!!!! We are now 7 months into this waiting game to see if we are allowed to adopt this little girl who has lived with us for nearly 1o months, we have been living on the edge od our emotions for so long I have forgotton what it feels like to feel emotionally stable!!!
Ok rant over, sorry but sometimes I just have to say it and there is no-one else who will understand what I am saying except you guys,
Thanks for this board, I can have a cry now and carry on containing my unstable emotions for another couple of months I am sure!!!
Finally I am a mummy, we are about to adopt our beautiful little girl xxxxx