CORNY: OMG Identical twins, that is so fantastic. You saw their little heartbeats and everything. What was the RE's reaction? I'm sure your entire case is a learning experience for them. I am so happy for you.
JEN: CONGRATS ON YOUR OFFICIAL BFP!!!!!!!!! 608 seems high, but recently there have been lots of high betas with singletons. Either way, that is wonderful. I do see we have a lot of similar symptoms, but I am taking a downward turn in my PMA. When you said it felt like your crotch was falling out, what exactly did you mean?
I am having a horrible day. Along with all of the things going on in my body, I found out that a wonderful beautiful 33 year old woman I know may die today of cancer. I am saying prayers, but she has been fighting hard for a year and her kind of cancer is uncurable. It is just awful. Sometimes I wonder if my worries or heartache are justified when this type of thing happens.
Now, I went to acupuncture last night. Supposed to relax me, well guess what, not this time. When I went to this woman last week just after transfer (because my regular acupuncturist had an emergency in China), she said something like, "I can tell from the pulses (a few different ones in the wrist) whether a patient is pregnant or not, and I have never been wrong. But, when women are on progesterone, most times it feels like they are whether they are or not". Well, last night, she is feeling my pulses and shaking her head no. I asked her why, she said, "I was just losing focus, but I'm glad you asked, so you don't worry". Too late for that. The treatment was short, not near as good as the last one. It just gave me a bad feeling overall, like she knows it didn't work. My DH is upset with her that something that was supposed to relax me has now upset me, but I don't know how to control that.
My mouth is better, but not completely healed, so I am dealing with that. And, now I am having all kids of pains in my abdomen area. I have had some pressure and pains. I don't remember exactly what last time felt like, but at the end of my 2ww, I had similar symptoms. I am worried that this is just my uterus getting tired of this thick lining and wanting to escape. My family keeps telling me that I need to think positive thoughts, but they are not in my body feeling these things. I am almost convinced that this will end the exact same way last time did. I feel like my heart is breaking.
For those of you who have been through this 5,6.7 times, I don't know how you do it, because this is my 2nd and I want to be strong, but if this doesn't work, I don't know if I can do this again. This is so hard!!!!!!!!!
Sorry I unloaded, but I don't know what to think. I am trying to stay positive, but it is not working very well. Sorry for unloading on you all. But, you all know better than anyone how hard this all is.
TTC 3 1/2 YEARS
ME - 41/ DH - 39
First IVF Jan '08: BFN / 2nd IVF: March '08 - BFP!
Katie born 12/4/08