Good evening ladies,
I hope everyone is doing well!
~ I'm so sorry about your meds, it's always something, isn't it?
But worse come to worse, you'll start a day later, that should not be any problem. Maybe your RE's office can provide you with meds until you get yours, that way you can start on time. I'm sure they have extras in the office. I understand your frustration
I'm starting BCP on Saturday and stims on Aug 7th. I have to wait for the results of my BW. I'll let you know, I'm hoping for a lower FSH #.
~ Your numbers sound good especially for 3 follies, I'm sure there are some more hiding in there. I can't help you about one ovary not producing since I only have one to begin with. It's only 3 days, I think they will produce more in the meantime. Those 3 are good size already!
I had posted a question about E2 numbers and Ghost said it was very difficult to tell, there just is no set rule, it depends on the #s of follies and how big they were.
~Sounds like something relaxing to have those minute needles in the ear. Hope BW comes out well and you're right behind jharris..that's exciting...the thread is starting to move...I love it!
I went to AP tonight and it was a wonderful experience in a way I did not anticipate. I don't know if I'll be able to put it into words because it so deeply touched me.
After the session, my AP started to talk and she told me that I thought too much, which is true, my mind is constantly going, not that I'm stressed just that my mind thinks all the time.
She said I had to let go and not think so much. She talked about the fact that it's so difficult to teach AP because people don't understand certain things, that you have to feel what you're doing, that it becomes your life and that you have to feel it in your heart. ( I told her that I thought it would be fun to learn AP). To make me understand that, she referred to my job and taking care of orchids, something you can't teach just like that. It takes years to learn, understand and feel what to do. I told her that the orchids spoke to me, that they are like a part of me and that just by looking, I know what they need. She said that that's how she is with her patients. It all became so clear.
My clients put their trust in me that I will do the best job that I can and I will put that same trust in her instead of wondering what every little needle is for, I will just enjoy the process and give my body to her and just relax more. Not that I didn't trust her before, just that I was wondering what every little needle did to my body. I won't think about it anymore and just simply feel it...
She also said that we have no control of what will happen, whether we get pregnant or not, as much as we'd like to control it, we can't. So we try to control the whole process we're going through because it makes us feel better. But actually, I don't think it does.
I think I finally understood today what it means to let go. I nearly cried in her office and I came home and told DH and that's when I just cried, tears of relief, joy, of being so touched. I'm crying again thinking about it!
I'm going to enjoy this journey, not just the outcome because I'm learning so much during this process about myself, other people and life in general.
I feel so much more inner peace, like a weight has been lifted of my chest. I can't wait to speak to her again, there seems to be so much to this little woman, something amazing resides inside her, I just feel it.
I told her that everything in life happens for a reason, I strongly believe that. She said yes, every little thing happens for a reason.
She mentioned that it had been a few years that she wanted to put orchids in her trees but always waited for one reason or another. She said, now I know I've been waiting for you to come into my life.
I think I was waiting to have her come into my life as well.
I don't think she realizes how much she touched me today...
Thanks for letting me talk tonight, I know it's a long post but I wanted to share this with all of you. I hope I expressed myself clearly, it's not always easy. Losing control is a difficult thing to do especially in this case, but once you do, it feels absolutely incredible.
Good night to all ....Lots of baby dust ...