~ I too have told some of my friends about our journey with IVf because I also felt that the more PMA surrounding me, the better.
My Mom, my brother, my cousin, a few close friends know what's going on and it has been very good for me to share that with the others. With my family it has brought me closer to my Mom because before we never talked about children although she knew I adore them.
With my cousin I felt that I had to tell her about my endometriosis and warn her of what it could do...so silently for me. She's a few years younger than me and I didn't want her to have to deal with that, if I could make her aware of those dangers. She went to the OB/GYN after that and found out everything was ok. At the same time I told her we were trying to get pregnant with IVF. She than told me that they were TTC naturally at the same time. While I was doing my first cycle, she got pregnant but she did not tell me, she was waiting for me to have my betas and than we could share that together. Well, the first beta came around and somehow I just knew something was not quite right and miscarried a week later.
After my cousin found out about my chemical, she was dying to talk to me but I was not in the mood. Coming to find out, she had a miscarriage the day of my transfer and didn't want to worry me about my own pregnancy.
Before we started all this, we said to each other that we were going to be pregnant together and we did but also miscarried together. I was extremely sad for her and even more sad because she needed somebody to talk to and I was not available.
So here we are trying again and so is she and I have a good feeling that this time we'll be preggo together, it would be awesome.
As far as the egg donor, it has crossed my mind as well but for now I feel that my eggs are just fine. I do understand about your feelings of not wanting the eggs of certain women, I've caught myself doing the same thing...looking at other women and just saying: no way am I having her children.
How sweet of your friend to offer her eggs, beautiful gesture !!
I also hope that you will find yourself available again for a miracle, that you can let go and feel optimistic about your next pregnancy.
It sounds like you do a lot of soul searching as well and I think you will be just fine, you sound like a strong person!
You're not crazy at all, write to God again if it makes you feel better and tell your friends as well. I think we all handle this situation a bit differently.
I wish I could have surprised my family but there was no way of doing that. And I'm glad they know because it's part of my life, an important part and I want them to know what I live.
jharris, babyloves, hoping
~ How are the stims going? Babyloves, do you have the result of your next US? Any more follies came along?
~ How's it going with Estrace? Did you find out more about that drug?
As for me, this first BCP just made me so nauseous! And I'm not even pregnant yet.
I hope all the other girls are doing terrific and I can't wait to hear from all of you.
Sorry about the long post again! But it's so wonderful to be able to share this with ladies that really understand what I'm going through.
Have a good night !