Oh my God I am so sorry to hear about your loss i cried when i read it....you and your husband are in my prayers and your little darlings are in a safe place in heaven with God, i know its not what you want but again its the 'big plan' for us all that is so hard to understand. Im told that trust in God does bring miracles, which is hard to do through loss i know! But God is good and he will not let you down i know that, also your gaurdian angel is looking after you now so tell him/her how you feel, those words and cries will be heard.
There is a little prayer that may help you right now and its called Footprints:
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was
walking along the beach with the LORD. Across
the sky flashed scenes of his life. For each scene,
he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one
belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
He looked back at the footprints in the sand. He
noticed that many times along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints. He also
noticed that it happened at the very lowest and
saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the
LORD about it. "LORD, you said that once I
decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the
way. But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life, there is only one set
of footprints; I don't understand why when I
needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you. During
your times of trial and suffering, when you see
only one set of footprints, it was then that I
My mum gave me this prayer the other day and its helped me to have hope again and to feel im not alone, i hope it helps you too. It will take time to grieve and allow yourself that cos you need it. Our hearts are with you both. Take care.
Love and Hugs