Good Morning Girls!
No one was kidding when they said that the IVF journey is an emotional roller coaster!
~I havent even started the process at all yet, but even still.....
Ive been afraid of the "what if's"....
What if we get a BFP & really, it turns out, we are not?
What if we get a BFP & we miscarry?
What if we go through all of this & get a BFN? ~I mean, we have discussed it & already know we will do 2 cycles of IVF.
Part of the reason for the worry is because I havent been to a doctor since I lost my right ovary.
After the surgery, I was told that, if they had taken my dominate ovary, I wouldn't have regular periods. In which, I do.
So, I assume, I didnt lose my dominate ovary in the surgery.
I didnt even know there was such a concept of one ovary being dominate & the other, not.
However, Ive been worried & nervous about the quality of my eggs left in the remaining ovary.
Thinking, perhaps I shouldn't be worried.
AF is pretty regular.
I have had 4 healthy pregnancies in the past that all carried to term.
Only reason for NOT being able to get pregnant now, other than having just one ovary to do it with?
I opted for fissure clamp sterilization (there is a titanium clamp on my fallopian tube) 4 year ago after my daughter was born.
So last night, my "worrisome" attitude regarding my IVF being successful or not, seemed to become more positive and self encouraging than, stressed, anxious, nervous about if we will or wont conceive &/or nervous.
Im in good health. Im only 26 & the dh is the same.
Fingers crossed. The loan we requested comes back today either approved or unapproved.
After calling & speaking with my clinic's financial adviser/counselor yesterday, I felt a lot better.
She said, my IVF procedure would only be $20,000. $14~$15,000 on the IVF procedures itself & the other $5,000 for med's.
I asked if my med's would be covered by the loan & she said yes.
So we called the loan company & requested a smaller loan. One for $20,000.
We get the answer back today as to if we are or are not approved for that loan.
We asked to meet with the financial person at the clinic the day of my appointment afterwards. Since things like blood work, u/s, etc can & will be covered by insurance it will lower to initial $14~$15,000 cost of IVF at least a tiny bit & the dh's insurance covers a % of the cost of pharmaceuticals.
Im holding my breath
Oh & today....
I got pick out my wedding dress.
Dh isn't my offical dh yet. He is only the fiance. We are getting married in Feb of 2011.
So, today, will either be a very good day or.... Ill spend it with a chocolate ensure, under my covers, crying.
Or fighting someone to get a loan to cover this, since now, NOT having a baby isn't a option & I know that there are ways to go about getting the money needed for this. No worries. I wont rob a bank. Lol. I may just ask for a loan & hold my breath on the CC the DH applied for.
Alright, Im done, venting my thoughts & hopes & worries for now.
Can't wait to see some of your responses as I so do enjoy your ladies company!
Ps: If I get the wedding dress now & our embryo transfer is in September/October & is successful, Ill be 4 to 5 months pregnant in Feb. If I suck it in, think I can fit into a wedding dress. Pregnant!? LOL