my heart is breaking for you and DH! i am in shock after reading your post! its not fair, and it sucks! i am so so so sorry. the thought of you having to go through this again is killing me! please know you are in my thoughts. please let me know what the RE says. i am totally in shock!
i dont think i'm in crazytown. after over 3 years of TTC, and all those months of thinking i might be pregnant to end up not being pregnant made me get to know my body and its symptoms very very well. and well..this feels just like all the other months and months of BFN's. the spotting continues. i did decide to up my PIO shot a little bit today just to see what happened. i didnt call me RE. i called the the last 2 cycles i was spotting and they told me the same ol thing "its normal..dont worry" well look where that got me...2 BFN's. i dont think its normal...i think its just AF coming, but cant because of the PIO. i bawled my eyes out all day and night yesterday..i thought this cycle wasnt supposed to bother me...it was my "what the hell..might as well be doing something before going to a new RE" cycle. i wasnt supposed to get upset. you would think after 4 bad cycles the 5th one wouldnt hurt so badly...i guess i was wrong.
i have no intention of POAS. why waste my money? i just wish i didnt have to wait until thursday for my beta. its going to be a long week.
i wont be around tomorrow because a bunch of our friends from NYC rented this HUGE 9 bedroom log cabin on lake winnipesakee here in NH, and invited us up for the day! (wish we could stay longer but DH is teaching summer school!)
this place is amazing though...it has its own private beach, and the views off the 3rd floor are to die for!! (they rented it last year too!) it will be nice to be away from the computer and tv and just sit on a rocking chair and listen to the waves of the lake. the only bad thing is that all of our friends all have kids and babies (between 5 and newborns) so that always sucks...and running away to do my butt shot will be interesting too!!
anyway thank you all for your thoughts. i'm already wondering if i should call the new RE next week, and get my next cycle going so when AF shows up i will be all set....
***much love always***