Odd I posted - but didn't get uploaded . . . err luckily as my " AFM" included lots of verbs and descriptors like "devestated" "unbearable lonliness" accompanied by "desperate" "no hope" and I think even a tasty morsel of a phrase that ran "can't bear my broken loathesome body that can't even conceive". Jeepers. Well yes I'll reverse up and get my revised AFM out of the way first. Negative. Negative. (but beta will confirm in a few hours). totally sucks. am totally totally bummed, p*ssed -in fact going to say it loudly and with no bleat outs I AM SOOOOOOOO PISSSSSED. Feigning humour because I am really really bummed beyond words. But what can I do. Suck it up. Start planning cake bakes and garage sales. ARGH! It isn't even easy to adopt an orphan in Russia as people would have you believe - and if I hear one more story of "I have a friend . . . who like tried about 50 times, then finally gave up and got pregnant natrually" (ala beta nurse this morning) "why am gonna . . . "
I am getting the vent out of the way - not to rain on anyones parade - but so that I can clear my bad vibes and then say a really heartfelt and genuine *****wow kizmet - that is soooooo awesome.***
* Yay you - you really deserve it and am really happy for you
Melmar - am sorry for your BFN. It sucks. No matter what your situation. So I don't doubt the pain is any less.
Jersey, Blair, Yarnista - hang in there. Good things are happening for you too. Every thread needs a few bummer BFN's to even out the odds on the card turning - so this means I'm takin one for the team - and your odds just went up girls!!
You ladies have been a strength. I'm privaleged to have been lucky and found a thread with a really genuine group of caring and sharing and warm hearted (and damn it pretty good lookin
) peeps to get through the last month. It isn't always that way! Wish I was going a bit further with some of you on the pregnancy journey - will still be checking in. . . .(ahem . . .probably in a few hours). Till then Hugs (not in a sappy way) and B dust to you all