Thank you so much for starting this...I have been feeling uneasy about continuing with the other thread with all my negative news and folks becoming PUPO, and getting betas, growing follies, etc. I am curious and want to check on everyone and am of course sending prayers and positive messages to all, but don't feel comfortable airing my sadness amongst their messages.
Jessica, Jamila and Summit: You are all such strong women. I am proud to know you all and hope that I am able to provide some support to you all through your journeys. I have gotten such strength and support from writing here...something I never would have thought was possible.
I am really stressed about my appointment tomorrow--because, as I expected, my nurse was not happy that I went to my OBGYN to get an u/s. I wrote about it on the "June Buddies" thread, but my nurse is less than nurturing--in fact, causing me great distress with her condescension and frustration when I ask a question. She didn't even want to tell me my 3rd beta level...lecturing me about how I am not trained to interpret the meaning of the levels, etc. Anyway, you get the picture. So my OBGYN confirmed that for me on Tuesday that there is nothing in my sac. They were very compassionate and my doctor called the next day to check on me. My fertility nurse, however, reamed me out for getting care outside of their office and told me I just should have waited until my appointment on Friday with them (mind you last Friday they told me there was 99% chance it wasn’t viable). She also told me on Tuesday not to stop my medication--which I was wanting to do because I didn’t want to just prolong the inevitable. I hate that I still “feel” pregnant--sore breasts, etc from the medication when I know it isn’t viable.
I am going to try to stay positive because I really want to see if there are any options this practice would be willing to pursue with us that we could afford--although I am quite doubtful. They are my only option in town.
Sorry, my thoughts are a bit scattered--lots of confusing feelings, disappointments and fears right now. I also just started spotting this evening and despite my poor outcomes the last 2 IVF cycles I have never experienced a m/c so I am apprehensive about what to expect.
Thanks for letting me vent ladies.
Me: 44, endo. & 1 tube due to rupture
DH 36 fine
IVF#1 double ectopic/severe OHSS 12/08
IUI#1, #2, and #3, 2010 BFN
IVF#4-2/11 HPT=BFP 11dpo; 13dpo=240! 15dpo=653, 20dpo=5522,3/29=u/s-1sac1yolk 4/4=2 HBs!