- kudos on staying so positive! I always have crazy oscillating thoughts while cycling - bouncing crazily from "of course I'll get pregnant/have a baby" to "this will never work and I hate it". Staying focused on the positive is something I try very hard to do - but often fail. I really hope you can keep the optimism up. Pessimism and despair are never helpful. "Living in the moment" and "taking each day as it comes" is the advice my therapist keeps telling me. I've done Follistim (called Puregon here) and Menopur - only Follistim my first cycle and then combinations of Follistim + Menopur for the other 2 fresh cycles. The Menopur was scary at the begining, because I had only ever used injection pens (Follistim) and pre-filled syringes (Ganirelix). The Menopur came as two seperate vials - one powder, one liquid - that I had to mix, then draw up, then inject. Seemed really complicated when the nurse explained it, but was actually really easy to figure out. There are some great clips on YouTube if you get confused about it ! Looks like we'll be transferring around the same time --
-- YAYAYAYAY! That's so amazing! I can't wait for your u/s - just 3 weeks away! Will you have more beta draws? (don't worry if you don't. My clinic only ever does a single beta test and if it's positive (and a good number, like mine has always been) they just schedule the u/s) ---- at least your family cleans instead of making a mess!
- my mom always cleans my house when she comes. I don't know what the compulsion is! The last two visits, I hadn't cleaned at all before she came (she came immediately after both sets of twins were born), so there was plenty to clean. This most recent visit, I had plenty of time to clean before - and I did! But she found an old toothbrush and scrubbed the tile behind the toilet -- she always needs something to clean! UGH - how does your RE clinic have such old u/s machines? My OB's office has a crappy u/s, but he just uses to quickly check baby heartbeats, never to measure or anything (there is a seperate u/s clinic for that) and my RE's u/s machine is brand new and super awesome! I hate hate hate when they push on you to look at something better - OUCH! ---------- wow, that IUI seems really fast - I hope that's a good thing! Maybe find a 'convincing' way to have DH 'release' soon so that all his little swimmers will be 'fresher' for the IUI --
- I don't have my notes on all my cycles, but I've also had lead follicles - and things have always worked out (although I've worried about it!)
- I'm sorry you are fighting with your husband. This whole thing is so stressful... good luck at your SnS - hopefully good news about a ER soon!
- both me and my mom HATE flying (short trips are okay - but it's a 12 hour flight to the USA and then another 1.5 hours flight from NYC to Pittsburgh --- uuuggghhhh) so we always try to get the other one to come visit. Once we met in Paris - only 5 hour flight for each - which was awesome, but pricier than just visiting each other.
- YAY! So exciting! Fingers crossed for heartbeats at the next u/s! Have you ever gotten this far with your mc?
- I must have missed your Skype idea - what was it? A Skype 'meet-up' for us? I'm game!
- I know this is a really difficult time. Hugs - and keep writing to us. Did you get to find out what sex the baby you lost was? That would be one advantage of genetic testing, in my opinion. It always bothers me that I know I've lost 1 girl and 3 boys, but I'll never know what my miscarried baby was. Knowing the sex sometimes makes it easier to picture 'the baby that never was'. Finding out the baby was chromosonally normal must be so hard. Four of the five babies I've lost have been proven chromosonally normal (we never did testing on the singleton miscarriage) - which makes it harder since it feels like it's "my fault" (even though it really isn't). I hope the additional testing brings some answers (and some solutions).
- ugh. Spotting sucks - almost at any time. I have SOOOOO many friends having babies. I'm sooooo jealous.
- 14 sounds great for a lining measurement!
- no BCP this morning and I'm already crampy/bloaty and feel AF coming on! Hopefully she'll come on schedule (usually 4 days after stopping BCP - so aprox Saturday). My clinic is closed Friday and Saturday, so I either need AF to show today - or Saturday as planned. (I would need to know tonight if I'm going in tomorrow, because I would have to wake up earlier.) Although, I guess if I start on CD2 or 3 instead of CD1 - it really won't mess things up at all.
Move me down to "Waiting for AF" --- here we go!
(other big news today - we submitted our paperwork for a foster-to-adopt agency. Adoption of a healthy baby is incredibly difficult and rare here - most kids are not healthy (ie, Down's syndrome or other disabilites) or older (usually 5y+) - and foster-to-adopt might be a different way to adopt a healthy baby. I'm TERRIFIED of fostering a baby and then having that baby taken back to the family of origin later, but they tell us that babies placed for foster-to-adopt are rarely not adopted. This is still an incredibly long road -- we could wait years -- but we are starting the process. I do think that we will have a mixed family (some kids biological and others adopted) because I don't know how many more IVFs/pregnancies I can handle.)