We - Congrats, your girls are amazing! This must be the happiest time for you guys and I'm so happy for you. Your road did succeed this time around and you are a true inspiration to success after a previous loss and many, many cycles of heart ache. I wish you and your family the very best, keep in touch!
Jayne - Hi, nice to get to know you too. My status is just as my signature, only now after our 7th cycle (5th fresh) I'm pregnant again - 7 weeks 5 days. I still don't feel it's easy enough for me to write a BFP and add a ticker because we have been so close once before and lost at a very late stage. Right now we are extremely careful and don't even let anyone know. Ppl always mean well but I'm afraid if they hear we are pregnant again I'll start hearing advices with a hint of THIS should have helped you keep the baby also last time. How about you?
Kynlee - Thank you so much for this yummy recipe!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Beets are on my shopping list for this week, can't wait, only talking about it makes me hungry for the 10th time today
LauraN - Congrats on being PUPO! Enjoy this time, and vent to us when the 2WW starts being a pain.
Blue - How are you?
Always - I'm just so thrilled for you. I remember your BFNs, I'm excited and happy for you and so relieved to see again how this process, as hard as it is, can really give us our dreams. Enjoy every minute of it.
Ninde - I am crossing everything for you. I'm going to think of you and pray and send the best vibes ever. Just like Kynlee said, you only need one good one. And right now you have more than that - try to believe in them even if I know the games this process is playing with your mind. Easier to stay optimistic during the stims, and then loose it just a little before ER. Use everything you have to stay calm, and if it helps you - follow every stupid advice you ever heard. I for instance, never wear perfume on ER nor ET day because the smell is said to bother the eggs. I'm sure our RE would laugh if I told him. I also had fresh pineapple every day for at least a week (pieces of, not a whole one because it may get acid and they do cost) after transfer. It helped me get the feeling I was doing everything in my power.
Sunshine – I really understand your feelings about your colleague. I think that your DH surely wants to protect you when he suggests you take another job. But to be totally honest I think that finding ppl who are both immature and insensitive to ours and other types of pain is easy and the safe environment a job you kept for a long time, plus your position you worked hard to get is your safety net in a lot of the insecurity in both your lives at the moment. I am so sorry to hear you worry for your DH, and if you can – do try and convince him to see someone. You two just have a hard period of time and once you cross it he'll look brighter at everything including finding a new job. My hubby had numberless panic attacks at the time after our loss July last year and I used all my love and my preterm labor hormones to take care of him. In retrospect, this has drained me and I wish I'd insisted more he sees someone because it created a build up of anger and took us a while to return to being a rock for each other as well as sharing and being still, a family of two for so long. Hugs.
Tiger – our next U/S is on Wednesday, so we'll know more then. Truly, you shouldn't worry about bleeding, in most cases the vanishing twin happens without pain and most women never even find out they ever did carry a fraternal twin. About your DH, like Kynlee I agree he sounds rather typical to me…they respond very differently than us and him fixing the bathroom without you nagging him? For us that'd be the day.
AFM – My famous SIL. 9 years younger than me, the one who conceived an oops baby against her husband's (DH's middle brother) wish on their honeymoon and has constantly been competing against me even when I was nobody worth competing. I struggled long to at least tolerate her presence even after she said stuff like "women who can't have babies should give up trying when they're 32 max" – knowing what we went/go through. So we went out all four of us on Friday and they told us she's pregnant again. Her little girl is 19 months old and DH's brother had the varicocele repair as a teenage boy so they have no trouble with it. She's 10 days behind me now. I'm so afraid of her competing me now…I already lost so much and the last thing I need during this pregnancy is the vicinity of a family member who I never totally trust. We haven't told anybody we're pregnant yet, they told everyone and she hasn't even seen a HB yet – not that she needs to because everything is so problem free for them in this aspect. I can't totally put my finger on it, but it all bothers me.
It bothers me that I have lovenox lumps and bruises, and I will need a cerclage just in case, and PIO just in case, and will be in bed restfor many moths – just in case when she'll get her second pregnancy of flaunting her big belly around family gatherings and preparing for birth when we will still be worried because for us the worry starts so late into pregnancy. It just took me by surprise, so do excuse me all for venting.