Ok, work week done, cranky toddler in bed, few minutes before dh gets home = time for update and personals!
Alexis- thank you for starting this thread! During my last cycle back in april, I was so excited to come back on the boards and I started my month's thread nice and early and attempted running "the tracker list." Silly me! The thread ended up with 30 plus people and with a full time job, a photography business to run and a toddler at home I could not keep up! I like that this thread will probably be smaller and more intimate. I also agree 100% about the pain of infertility after the first child. The first time I did IVF, I didn't know what I was missing. After having Ella, I long for those euphoric days at the hospital and the joy of becoming a mother. I want that feeling again, worse than ever. I also love Ella to pieces and REALLY want her to have a sibling!
Oh, also, I have only ever done 3 day transfers. My RE feels most of the time, that the embryos do better in their "natural incubator." He only does day five if it is a selection process for quality reasons.
Neffi- Girl! So glad to see you here! We did this together once, we can do it again! Can't believe our bumpin' fall 08 babies are full blown toddlers already! Crazy how time flies!
LYD10- I know we have crossed paths a bunch too! I hope you get baby 2 this time too!
Claud- another familiar face! I think I have been on these boards for too long! LOL It seems I have "met" everyone!
Kerpupples, Sue, brit - so glad to see all of you too! Looking forward to getting through this with all of you!
Ok, so the update. Tried a fresh cycle back in april with the frozen sperm we had from Ella's cycle and they only got 5 eggs b/c they couldn't get to one side to retrieve. They think b/c of scar tissue from c-sec or weight. None of the five fertilized. It was devastating. And retrieval was physically the most painful I have ever had. I was almost on bed rest in pain for 5 days. My RE said at preliminary u/s that he foresees the same problem with that side. I am terrified of it happening again. All of that for not even a glimmer of hope.
DH has been taking HCG injections for about 5 months. Research had shown that it could increase sperm production. While it has naturally increased his testosterone, still no spermies in sample. He is gearing up for what will probably be his 3rd and final TESE. This time it needs be in the OR under anesthesia. He is getting medical clearance/physical this tuesday for that. We are planning a fresh tese the day before retrieval. Very risky. If they find nothing, my cycle is a bust and I don't even make it to egg retreival. DH and I are not ready to say yes to donor backup sperm.
I went this past thursday for u/s and bw to make sure I ovulated so I could start lupron. Of course, I hadn't ovulated. I need to go back for bw monday morning. As long as it shows ovulation, I should be starting lupron. I would be starting meds December 1st, retrieval week is the week of december 12th. My big ol' box of meds came yesterday.
I am scared this time around. I am not sure we are even ready to have another baby considering we just moved and I am mid school year, finances, etc, but I know that I need to just keep trying and everything else will work out. Like someone else said, I wanted my babies close in age, but things didn't work out that way. I am not sure how many more times I can try, physically and emotionally.
Ok, I have a bazillion things to do and I really just want to go to sleep! I will check in again soon!