Hey Rhonda- After 2 days of moping and feeling sorry for myself I realized I'm wasting time. Call me crazy but i just thought ok get up and do something anything that will get me to my goal...A BABY!! i can't sit around when time is running out. I'm reading this book called "a Few Good Eggs" and they tell it like it is. Your clock doesn't stop ticking until time has run out. Well mine hasn't. Is it hard extremely do I have to swallow hard to get the lump out YES, but i'm going to try again.
I had my consult w/ my
RE and he was very frank and yet honest w/ us.
He said I will get pregnant it's just a matter of when. He told me to not do another FET because if I want 2-3kids to do a fresh IVF so that if I get
pg from that in a couple yrs when I come back for another child it will be young eggs used not older of that time. It made sense. He also told me
RE's look for 12-16 eggs at retrieval!! I had 26-he said studies show when too stimulated the outcome is not great for
pg. When controlled just right it is 50-60% greater
pg. He knows what to tweek and he made us feel confident. He also said this time of year is the worst for him or any
RE to go thru. The holidays and negatives are even more harder and more depressing. He told me to take 3months come back in January and start again. He's giving us a discount for the amt of times we have tried.
Am I getting to excited? Maybe-but you know I want to be, it's better than stress. I'm going to try acupuncture-my
RE feels it helps in stress not so much egg quality or implantation but de stressing can help definately.
I asked if I'm running out of time because I will turn 35 and read where mid thirties egg quality is extremly poor and odds are against you rather than for you. He told me if I took a yr off he would feel it's too long but 3-6months is not that bad he definatley feels a break can be good too. the stress and relationships sometimes need to step back get a cool head and it works the next time around.
Don't give up rhonda its so easy to want to but you know you really never will. The regret and "what if" will play with your head if you don't try again. Take a little time off then get up and get going. The rollercoaster is just slowing down again get ready for another ride!!!