Hi Amanda (and Little P), good to hear from you. Hi to Grace, Lou, Luce, Becky (ogr) and Jen too. I too am still lurking around here, thinking of you all often, but not knowing quite whether or what to write. Having been so pleased to see your post Amanda I think I should have spent less time worrying and just got on and written something!
Anyway, IVF etc. has been back on my mind more recently for several reasons, not least cos I had my (final?!) follow up appointment with Mr T about 3 weeks ago. We finally did our last FET in early January. Having faffed about for 2 months in the autumn trying to do a medicated cycle (including 2 tablets of viagra a day which did nothing for my libido but gave me terrible flushes), and neither time got a decent lining, we did a natural cycle, which all went really well - until the bloody frosties didn't survive the defrost. It was wierd, because it'd been a natural cycle, with few scans and absolutely no drugs (I know, can you believe at the ARGC?!) it didn't feel reel that it was going to happen, so it wasn't too big a disappointment that it didn't at the time, but I got a bit upset a couple of weeks or so after.
So, didn't rush to do a follow up, but saw Mr T in mid March. Unsatisfactory in some ways as he said he hadn't read my notes beforehand (!) and he said that he/ someone would call to let me know what I should do after the appointment, and so far they haven't despite me calling a couple of times. Which I guess makes it very unsatisfactory! Aside from that, he basically said (as he's said before) that he doesn't know why it hasn't worked, and therefore can't suggest anything different so there's no reason why it should work this time. My line is that I've only done one full cycle since having my tubes removed, and if that was the problem then it seems reasonable to give it a second go, particularly as (and this bit is definitely true) I feel in much better shape physically and emotionally than I did 18 months ago when my "last" treatment failed. So I'm sort of thinking I might start something (if only a baseline scan) in the next couple of weeks, but it feels pretty vague.
I still have the odd bad day. One of them was 10 days ago when my best friend from school, who now lives in Oz, phoned me to let me be the first to know that her (first) IVF cycle had been successful. Although she's lived abroad for the last few years we're still very close, and have shared a lot both struggling with being unable to start a family - she'd had an ectopic pregnancy and then been unable to conceive again. And while I'm pleased for her I'm jealous as hell, and there's that question again, "why does it work for her first time and not for me?" Grr!
Generally though I feel I'm dealing with baby-type stuff better. I'm quite looking forward to meeting my latest (3 week old) nephew tomorrow, (as well as seeing my other niece and nephew who I adore).
As for the rest of my life.... well, I've been indulging my passion for holidays. Spent 3 days in Barcelona in February with a good friend of mine and had a great time. If you fancy treating yourself either with DH or one or more girl friends I can thoroughly recommend it. And Julian and I have just got back from skiing in France, which was good although the snow was melting by the minute, which I guess I should expect going this time of year. I think the only other thing that's new is that I've started a painting class on a Saturday morning wihch is good fun. I'm not planning to give up the day job just yet though!
Well that's turned into something of an essay! Anyway Amanda, I'm so glad you posted, and good to hear about your planned course - I do hope you get on to it. Hope it goes well with Mr T this week (and that he's read your notes!) I agree meeting up again would be good. With a bit of advance notice I can usually meet about 5.30 in the week so let me know when would suit.