i dont know about where you are at
but my husband and i run a foster home.
my foster parents started this ranch.
i am very thankful that they took me in as a horrid frightened teenager.
and gave me alot of love.
i think every women on this forum would be a wonderful mom and could and would love any child.
threw our foster home we have adopted our children.. yes there has been alot of heart ache and disapointments
but i have had people arugue with me that the children we have that i hadnt given birth to.
we had one that came to us as a beaten up teenager and with in 1 year everyone swore he was ours his mannerisums became just like my husbands.
threw our children we have become grandparents and i think that has been the greatest gift of all..
being infertile i think is the hardest thing to deal with and to get threw it is even harder. and so many people just dont know and how could they.
i never knew until i couldnt have our baby.
i do hope that you can find some peace and please know that the worst thing we could think of iis that it is our fault cause it is not our fault!!!!!
hang in there
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!