school

[ogr1]

our twins would have been starting second grade and our son would have been starting first grade.
i just am having a hard time.

[Sara30]

Hi

I am sorry you are feeling so low at the moment, like you I come back to this board time and time again even though I will never go down the IVF road again, it comforts me that people know how I feel. We have communicated before, like you also I foster care and have my beautiful 15 yr old foster dughter sat next to me today, she has never seen this board before and has just read some of the private messages I have put up when I lost my babies. She has just commented there are lots of things I don't know about you, Like you I have lots of children in my life and love them dearly, lots of them come and go, but I can come on here read the poems I wrote and I am in tears straight away. We never stop thinking of those we loved and lost, it is supposed to get easier over time, sometimes it feels that way and other times it feels like yesterday.
I don't know what I am wrting really, but I want you to know people are thinking of you, and we share your pain in our own ways as I know you all on here share mine with me.
Thinking of you,
Lee x

[Arabsrcool]

Hi girls!. Just wanted to chip in and say, its ok to still grieve and have bad days about the little ones we lost and never really got to know. I still thinks of "milestone dates" from my first miscarriage, and that was 10 years ago. My last miscarrige was in June and I am still grappling with it.

My thoughts and prayers are with both of you. I too, am drawn back to this site, I will never go down the IVF road again, but feel compelled to still come back here. Maybe its because this site was so much part of our lives when we cycled and got pregnant....all our hopes and dreams were shared here, its hard to leave it behind.

Ronda

[angelaezra]

our twins would have been starting second grade and our son would have been starting first grade.
i just am having a hard time.

I agree with the other ladies; it ok to think of where your babies would have been. I do the same thing often especially when I see a baby that would have been around the same age as my daughter or around the ages of the three other babies we lost. We will always remember and be forever changed for our IVF/fertility journey. I think that is why I am so drawn to this board also. We have a common bond forever!

Angela

[ogr1]

i am glad to see that hearts havent hardend as we go threw this heart ache. the board as beeen a huge comfort for me. i dont post much any more but as you i do come and read the pomes. and hope that someone elses dream has come true. it warms my heart when one of us makes it. i am very lucky with the life i have. i am doing good. i am now expecting our 6th grandchild. our first grandaughter is still living with us. i still wonder what our children look like and still yearn to hold them.
but iam living for today and in to today.
thank you for posting it still means alot. i do miss everyone.

[Arabsrcool]

ogr1,

Hi! I am glad to hear you have alot of positive going on in you life now. It doesn't take away the ache, wanting to hold your babies, but it does help make it bearable. I am sitting here crying after reading your post, mourning for you, for me and for our babies. As what would have been my EDD approaches, I am struggling more and more each day. I know it will get better, but for now I cry, mourn and dream. I too, am blessed with my life, and thank God each day for everything that I have be given.

Ronda

[Jacky]

Treat your babies equally and make their habit of mutual study then they can be settled in same grade.Proper guidance can change your babies grade.
Hope you satisfy from my suggestions.