As many of you will know I got my much wished for 2nd BFP after our 5th IVF?ICSI on the 18th of December. We were over the moon and thought Katelyn was looking down on us making sure her Mummy and Daddy got a fabulous Christmas present. It was not meant to be. Our baby has died - again
Why us God?? Why??
Our first scan was new years eve but it was very early 5wks6d and a sac was detected but not much else. We went away feeling OK as it was too early but I had niggles in the back of my mind. We had seen Katelyn's HB at that stage last time. I had some bloods taken to check hCG levels.
We went back for the next scan 4 days later. My levels had gone up but not doubled - alarm bells rang. We had the scan and the sac had grown but still no HB or fetal pole. A deffinate yolk sac was seen. We went home in a daze feeling really upset and I cried for days.
Next scan 3 days later - we saw a fetal pole and shock horror a heartbeat!! But.......... The heart was very slow. We were told it wasn't a good sign but to go away and come back. By this time all my hopes and dreams were ebbing away. More bloods taken - sick of blood tests!
Next scan 4 days later. My hCG levels had risen to 10,000. The sac had grown but not much and the baby hadn't grown (4mm), the heart was still beating but the doctor said our baby will die in the next week
This was on Tuesday and I am 8 weeks PG today but I don't know if my baby is still alive or dead.
We have to have another scan (I am really starting to hate scans now) one day next week to confirm that the baby has died and to either wait to miscarry naturally or book in for a D&C.
David and I are still in shock and knowing we have another child in heaven is breaking our hearts.
God Bless you our precious Christmas Baby - we love you and miss you. Hope you and your sister Katelyn keep eachother safe until we are reunited again one day.
Love Dagny and David xkx