by HEATHER S » Sun Apr 24, 2005 2:09 am
HI EVERY ONE, I,VE JUST SEEN YOUR SITE TODAY AND DIDN,T REALISE THERE WERE SO MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE LIKE ME. MY HUBBY AND I HAVE TRIED FOR A BABY FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS, IN THAT TIME WE,VE HAD 14 MISSCARRIAGES , ONE OF THESE WAS AN ECTOPIC, AND ONE WAS A LITTLE GIRL WE LOST AT 14 WEEKS, WE CALLED HER NICOLA -JANE.WHEN WE WERE PREGNANT WITH HER AND GOT AS FAR AS WE DID (THIS WAS THE LONGEST PREGNANCY) WE STARTED TO BELIEVE IT WOULD WORK AND WE WOULD HAVE A BABY. UNFORTUNATELY NICOLA-JANE HAD TRISOMY 13. WE WERE TOLD THAT IF SHE HADN,T DIED WHEN SHE DID ,WE,D HAVE LOST HER AT BIRTH ,AS BABIES WITH THIS CANT MAINTAIN THEIR OWN LIFE FORCE,(THIS WAS OUR DOCTORS WORDS) WE HAD LOTS OF TESTS ,TRIED CLOMID, ASPRIN .EVERYTHING THAT OUR DOC ADVISED AND NOTHING WORKED, WE WERE TOLD IT WAS JUST BAD LUCK. WE,VE NOW GIVEN UP, AS I CANT COPE WITH ANYMORE BAD LUCK. I WAS LOOKING AT SURROGACY A FEW MONTHS AGO AND SOMEONE OFFERED TO BE A SURROGATE, BUT IT SEEMS THIS WAS A VERY CRUEL HOAX. I HAVE CHILDREN FROM MY FIRST MARRIAGE SO I KNOW I,M REALLY LUCKY, BUT TIM AND I JUST WANTED ONE TOGETHER.I,M 43 NOW ,TIMS 38. SO IT SEEMS LIKE TIME HAS RAN OUT. WE LOST NICKY 3 YEARS AGO, AND HAD THE ECTOPIC 2 YEARS AGO, BUT IT STILL FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY, READING ALL THE OTHER POSTS I JUST CRIED AND CRIED,MOST DAYS I,M FINE BUT IF I,M AT ANY HOSPITAL APPOINTMENTS OR DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS AND I,M ASKED ABOUT ALL THE BABIES WE,VE LOST, MY THROAT AND CHEST GETS REALLY TIGHT AND I FIND IT HARD TO TALK,AND I CANT STOP THE TEARS. MY DOCTOR ISN,T SYMPATHETIC, AND TELLS ME I SHOULD BE OVER IT BY NOW, BUT I DONT FEEL LIKE I EVER WILL BE. DOES ANYONE ELSE FEEL LIKE THIS OR DO YOU ALL FEEL THE SAME, THAT I SHOULD BE OVER IT BY NOW, HEATHER