Su,
Checking in on you, how are you doing? Hope you are still taking care of yourself like you comitted to on your post from 10/15? The way I look at it is work will always be there - these are temporary times that we need to focus on ourselves for our own health (mental, emotional, physical, spiritual). I too think its awesome you are pursuing this, unfortunately for us women there is a certain window of opportunity so its good you are taking advantage of it while the window is still open (and you still have time!) I am praying and hoping for you, maybe those lousy feelings (crampy,nauseuous) are going to mean wonderful things!!
Kery,
One week to go!! Be here before you know it (but I am sure not soon enough), how are you feeling? By the way, you are so right. We are so fortunate to have a child and part of me is anxious to move on past these treatments so I can solely focus on her and enjoying things/life and her more fully without this heartbreak in between. I'd like to move on prerably with a sibling for her, but that's my view maybe not God's. My husband's thought was maybe we were not supposed to have any and God saw fit to send us our daughter as a gift; that thought gives us more gratitude for where we are right now as opposed to putting our hand out saying "God, more please".
Tanya,
I love your blog. You look beautiful by the way - you are carrying well!!! The pictures of the babies are so cool and I love the way you are documenting the process with pictures of the stuff you bought for the babies. I know physically it takes a toll carrying two as I have a friend who had twins that were both around 7lbs!! She described the physical feelings and its not easy on the body, thats for sure. She and babies are healthy and happy!!
Gargy,
I know I should have not torture myself with the hpt. It's that I found it easier to mourn over time then to get hit with the news. Particularily since I will be at work when I get the results. It still not looking good, I've felt this before multiple times and I can tell it's a BFN. Its not over until its over but I am trying to prepare.
I understand the dark thoughts you described too. I think its my way of trying to make sense of something clearly beyond my control, then maybe if I can make sense of it, maybe I can fix it. Which ofcourse is not so beyond doing the right footwork with treatments etc. I am glad your family issues are working out too. Keep us posted on the house hunting!
I go tomorrow for the final word and will let you all know what happens. Then I feel we can start accepting and move on.