It seems like I'm not alone after all. Ever since we started the IVF process I have felt a litte guilty. I felt as though I was not placing enough trust in God'd hands that he can provide a child for my
DH and I if it is His will. At the same time I felt so torn by the knowledge that statistically the number of sperm my husband produces are unlikely to ever impregnate me without intervention. Yet, God could make that happen if he desires......so here I go again, still going back and forth. Does anyone else feel this way? I wonder if I can find peace from this feeling?
Hi IndieBlue, welcome. Sounds like you're struggling a little to figure out your next step. I hope this becomes clear to you so you can move on to whatever God has planned for you.
Hope.....funny how we keep bumping into each other (unless there's another person with a similar name). I'm sure its no accident. Your prayer is beautiful. I so appreciate you sharing that. I am excited that my beta is dropping. I asked my
RE if I could skip waiting a month after AF arrives. He said no, of course, but no biggie, he knows what he is doing and I know its all part of God's plan.
MP, I like your point about poor vision. I definitely feel better about doing IVF when I read that. I have thought about that before, too, how with any other medical problem most of us still go to a doctor and ask for their expert help with our problem. Why should IVF be any different? Its not going to change God's plan and He already knows we are going to do this.
Princess. Glad you could see the humor on my message last night. I am able to step back and realize that this all has to be for some good reason and much worse things could happen. Today I ended up going to the oral surgeon to get my holes checked out. I was in SO much pain again. They flushed out some food. It was so gross, I was so disgusted. They assured me that happens to everyone who has gaping holes in their gum but I still got grossed out and I'm a nurse! So, now I have this syringe deal with a bent tip to squirt in my holes....yuk. Is this your first IVF cycle?? How are you feeling? When is you offical test day?
OK, I feel like my hubbie feels a little neglected as I sit here typing away and not paying him any attention. He so deserves my time, he's so good to me so I gotta go now.
God Bless ALL of you lovely ladies
nikki