O becky - I just dont know what to say to you. You poor poor thing.<br>You musnt rush yourself - it WILL take a while for you to feel anything like your old self again - and you CANNOT beat yourself up by thinking you HAVE to feel good again quickly. It would be odd if you did feel normal again so soon. Am no expert - but I do think humans (especially women!) are amazingly resilient and you WILL feel better again. And when you get your strength back you will be abe to think so clearly about the future. On the positive side - you did get SO far.... If you DO decide to try again ever(and it really to early to talk about this) the docs will be totally set up to look after you. You WILL have what you want. I know it. <br><br>But I know that doesnt make up for what you have lost and how lost you must be feeling now - <br>Becky, just KEEP talking. To us, your
dh, coucellor, family, friends, priest...whatever , just keep talking and crying. Dont try and be brave - why do that? You just have to focus on healing yourself. If you feel guilty about off loading on others , DONT. Offloading will help you to get better and therefore make people around you happier. Am I making ANY SENSE?!<br><br>Are you talking to anyone at home, a coucellor perhaps? Let us know how youy are doing please.<br><br>All love<br><br>Cazx