Starting injections tomorrow

[not hopeless yet]

Hi Hommy-
Good luck with the IUI. We'll have our fingers crossed for you!! But if you have to do another round hopefully the doctor won't decrease the meds just because of your age. You're going to do great! Keep thinking positive thoughts.

[not hopeless yet]

Hi Rainbowmoms-
No, you're not alone in feeling that way... about 6 mths ago when i had a ton of showers to attend I nearly had a breakdown. And I, too, felt "am I a bad friend/person for feeling this way?" but then I gave myself permission because no one in my circle of friends is going thru this. They don't know the toll it takes on yourself and your marriage. And I'm not going to beat myself up.
But atleast with friends/family I can avoid them if I want. Believe me, when one friend told me she was preg I avoided her for like 5 mths. But it's probably good for her that I did, otherwise I wouldn't have been much fun to hang out with. Unfortunately now that all the ladies at work are getting preg, I have to see them everyday. I mean, Wed. when my coworker told me I pretty much sat in my cubicle steaming... and on the verge of tears. I was like "should I quit?" I can't handle this.
But I also know that one day my time will come. I actually had a dream last night that I adopted a baby boy. Actually the dream was that I found an abandoned two week old and was able to keep him. Maybe its a sign.
Well in any case, have a good weekend... my dh and I are going to a folk concert tonight. And if the weather's nice I plan on doing a lot of gardening on Sat.

[hommy]

Not so hopeless,
We are all have the same feelings, feeling of jealousy whenever we saw pregnant ladies. I always feel upset whenever my fren told me she is pregnant.... I will cry "Why not me???" But then my DH always told me to be happy for her. He is right, one day I will have my own kids. I will be holding my babies in my arms. We are not so hopeless, God will answer to our prayers one day. We must believe in that. Try to be positive always.

I just went for my scan, finally ready to face the truth of having to abort IVF and change to IUI. Though we knew the chance of IUI is slim due to my partial blockage tube and my husband low morphology, still I preety positive about it. Coming with my DH this time coz he wants to be there to support me. It is a relieve, Im just glad God has been good to me. This time they are able to scan 10 eggs. 6 eggs with size more than 12mm and with 2 eggs size 18mm. The doc told me to proceed with the IVF since IUI will definitely not advisable. I will continue with my stimulation for another 2 more days. Will have another scan next monday and if everything going on well, I will be having ER on wednesday and ET on friday. My clinic did 2-days transfer rather than 3 days.

But then I know thats not the end of my worries. After ER, I wil have to worry about how many eggs can be fertilized and whether or not I can proceed to ET. If proceed to ET, I will then have to worry whether it is BFP or BFN and so on and on .....its like unending worries for me. At this moment I will just do whatever I can and try not to think too much.

[Kery]

Hommy thats great news that you can continue with ivf!! ivf will give you a better chance of getting that bfp. Let us know how it all goes.

[not hopeless yet]

Hey Rainbowmoms-
I totally forgot to congratulate you on the Mexican IVF for like half the price elsewhere!!! That is great news. So is the 13 days in TX during the 2ww or between ER and ET?

Hommy-
Good luck today with the scan. And try not to worry later this week... you want to give your body the best chances and positivity goes a long way! Can't wait to hear how it goes and how you're feeling.

Hope all the other ladies on this thread are doing well.

[rainbowmoms]

Hi girsl, thank you for making me feel like I am not alone. Hommy, that is good that you are able to continue with IVF like Kery says it will give you a better chance to getting that BFP. Not Hopeless the 13 days in Mexico will include Sitmulation, ER and ET. I will come home for the TWW. I would rather be home for the TWW so I can drive you girls crazy along with me .

[not hopeless yet]

Totally, and you'll be more comfortable at home too. I bet you can't wait. Will you start with your next cycle? If so, when will that be?

[rainbowmoms]

Unfortunately I cannot start unitl January because I would need to take 3 weeks vacation and I have already used all my vacation for this year. I am due 4 weeks vacation for 2009 so I will take it in January. I am ok with that because it will give me some time to save more money so we can at least make a vacation out of it and do some spending over there. I am totally excited. I know January will be here in no time.

[not hopeless yet]

Yes- Jan. will be here in a blink of an eye... imagine that in 3 mths we'll have Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years Eve! It will come so fast and be so exciting.

[rainbowmoms]

Hi Kery and Not Hopeless and Hommy, just checking in to see how everyone is doing. As for me I am doing well, just keeping busy with work and my pool that I am having built. That takes up alot of my time so I am glad for that. I was so tempted to do an IUI this cycle but decided not too. It is so hard to just sit back and watch my eggs go to waste. I always have in the back of my mind "what if one of these months could be the one". Do any of you feel that way? I may try next month just for the heck of it. What can it hurt right? What do you girls think? Kery, how is the baby doing? Oh, do you have a name for the baby picked out? I really missed you girls!

[Kery]

Hi Rainbows
I pool is great in the summer. The house we build has a pool and a spa and we love it! If you do another iui before your ivf is any covered by your insurance or is it out of pocket. Just wondering have you had your tubes checked to see if they are clear? No I don't really have any names picked out I kinda like Jayde for a girl. We have to think of both boy and girl names as we don't know what we are having. Well I'm five months now so half way there!! Hope you are all doing well.

[rainbowmoms]

Hi girls, yes Kary I had my tubes checked and they are fine. My insurance does not cover any of the procedures for infertility. Everything will be coming out of my pocket. I am ok with that. Kery Jayde is such a beautiful name. I like the name Jared for a boy. OMG!! 5 months. Gee how time flys. I am so happy for you. You will enjoy that baby so much. I wonder where Not Hopeless is at? Yes a pool is so nice, can't wait until I can jump in mine. It should be done in the next 3 weeks. They are at the middle stage now. Hope all is well with everyone. Hugs.

[not hopeless yet]

Hi Gals-
Sounds like everyone's summer is going well... I just got back last night at midnight from our vacation. First we visited family in MidWest then onto Vegas for 3 nights. My favorite part was lounging by the pool, sipping margaritas, sunbathing, swimming, sunbathing, swimming, and ordering lunch delivered poolside!!! Plus we saw an awesome Cirque de Soleil show called Mystere. And another one is coming to Boston this Fall and I want to take my brother for his birthday.

Anyhow, I'm with you Rainbow- I always wonder if this is the month it could happen. But now that i've re-cooped for the last few months and my mind is not stressed, I'm ready to start our last round of FSH shots and IUI whenever my next cycle comes. I don't know exactly when AF will arrive because i'm all screwed up from the previous cycles of drugs. I used to be r-e-g-u-l-a-r down to the day & hour. But now I'm late, heavy, longer Ugh! But I'm excited to start trying again.

I'll keep you posted.

[rainbowmoms]

Not Hopeless, Yay!!!!!!! I am so glad to hear that you are ready to jump back on to the TTC wagon. Let us know when you are on cycle day 1 so we can be right here for you and with you. I know it means alot to me when i have support through stuff like this. Your vacation sounds like you just had a great time. I love when I am on vacation to just lay around by the pool and eat and drink. You sound like you are in good spirits and ready to make that baby. Just remember, we are right here for you and with you. Hugs.

[not hopeless yet]

Thanks Rainbow! Actually last night was cycle day 1, so I have to call the clinic this morning and discuss starting shots. But it already crossed my mind if we start shots this week I'll have to take them with us to the Cape on Labor Day weekend and again on a weekend-trip to VT later this month.
That means anticipating refrigeration for the shots and whether or not dh wants to keep the shots a secret from his siblings, who'll also be at the Cape... we're sharing a rental house for the weekend.
So I have to admit for a split second I thought we should postpone this round til next month... but then I decided SOMETHING will always come up. I'll always have an excuse not to do the last round of shots. And i don't want to keep putting it off. So what if we have to refrigerate the shots or his sibs find out... they went thru fertility treatment too. This is our life and I can't keep postponing it! I can't wait to call the clinic this morning.
You know I'll keep you posted along the way. And I want to hear how you're doing. I think you mentioned trying again this month even though you're scheduled for IVF in Jan.