Not so hopeless,
We are all have the same feelings, feeling of jealousy whenever we saw pregnant ladies. I always feel upset whenever my fren told me she is pregnant.... I will cry "Why not me???" But then my
DH always told me to be happy for her. He is right, one day I will have my own kids. I will be holding my babies in my arms. We are not so hopeless, God will answer to our prayers one day. We must believe in that. Try to be positive always.
I just went for my scan, finally ready to face the truth of having to abort IVF and change to IUI. Though we knew the chance of IUI is slim due to my partial blockage tube and my husband low morphology, still I preety positive about it. Coming with my
DH this time coz he wants to be there to support me. It is a relieve, Im just glad God has been good to me. This time they are able to scan 10 eggs. 6 eggs with size more than 12mm and with 2 eggs size 18mm. The doc told me to proceed with the IVF since IUI will definitely not advisable. I will continue with my stimulation for another 2 more days. Will have another scan next monday and if everything going on well, I will be having ER on wednesday and ET on friday. My clinic did 2-days transfer rather than 3 days.
But then I know thats not the end of my worries. After ER, I wil have to worry about how many eggs can be fertilized and whether or not I can proceed to ET. If proceed to ET, I will then have to worry whether it is
BFP or
BFN and so on and on .....its like unending worries for me. At this moment I will just do whatever I can and try not to think too much.