Heart’s Desire – Finding Strength and Direction from God

[sonu911]

Thanks Carolyn for your wishes.

Yay!!! Everything is fine and normal. The heart rate is over 150 and the baby measured at 7 weeks 2 days, .

I believe and pray every thing goes right for us and our little one.

Thanks everyone for your wishes and constantly need them to get going!!!

[Hope644]

Congratulations Sonu!!!

You and your little one are in our continual prayers. Everything is going to be FINE!!!

And btw, I'm throwing out the early prediction - GIRL!! we'll see how it goes!

hugs to you and everyone else too!

[sonu911]

Thanks Hope!!!

Having a baby girl would be so wonderful. My DH has always prayed for a girl child. He will be so happy when I tell him about your prediction.

Love you and hope you are doing great!! Have you already started painting the nursery blue??

((Hugs))

[steffwannababy]

Wow how motavating you are! My name is Steff and I have been praying for almost two years for a baby. The hard thing is every place I look it seems someone is pregnant and recently my brother and sister inlaw. I pray that God helps me to be happy for them please ladys pray for me that weather God's will is or isn't for us to have a baby that I control my jealousy. I ask for any and all prayers in our time in ttc. I will be going to the Dr. next month since I have yet to be pregnant. I have faith and after reading the story's I have read in this thread it makes me realize how fantastic our father is and loving and how he has perfect timing.

Love and God Bless Steff

[kbat]

thought I posted yesterday, but I guess not. Just an update on me. I haven't forgotten about you all. I've been praying for you all and hoping that all is going ok for everyone.

I have stopped doing tcm--at least the acupuncture part of it. I was considering doing the herbs, but I really haven't stuck w/ that part either. It was a big experiment for me to do it, and I thought it was worth a shot. It did make me feel better that I was doing "something" while trying to get over the disappointment of all my failed IVF cycles. I still had hope. I was going to stop the acupuncture in July anyway, but even my acupuncturist said that I should stop--that my insides were probably going to be good. So I did. While I did find it relaxing, it was costly.

In the meantime, I have decided to get on w/ my life. I figured that it was better that way. I am volunteering at a local children's hospital in the "playroom". I am also doing lots of gardening and trying to find a job in these difficult economic times. I know God has something in store for me. Maybe it's still being a parent (we will not do donor eggs or adoption, so it has to be natural), but it's most likely something else. I hope whatever it is, He lets me in on it soon.

Best of luck to all of you! May God bless you all, and may He let your dreams come through.

[Hope644]

What has happened to us?! Did we all fall off the face of the planet or what?! I'm just as guilty as you all, but I miss you! And I'm praying for all of you every day... ((((((HUGS)))))))))

[kbat]

I'm moving on.... Fertility treatments didn't work. Naturally and tcm didn't work. I'm not angry w/ God or anything. Just finally saw the light and am finally ready to move on. Not happy that nothing worked out, but it's not the end of the world that it didn't....

Hope everyone has much better luck than I do. I still think of you all and still pray for you all. You all have been so supportive, but time to move on for me.

Best of luck to you all.

[sonu911]

Kbat - My thoughts are with you. I know how difficult it is when you have tried everything possible within your reach and God seems to be in some other mood. This is the end of one road but I am sure the beginning of the other. God definitely has some other great plans for you. I am so happy that you are able to see the light ahead.
Some days back I read the following poem on some site. It touched my heart so I thought of sharing with the ladies whose prayers have been till now unheard -

God answers so many of my little prayers,
so why not the big ones too?
I just can't understand it
Why does He do the things he decides to do?
My deepest desire lies unfullfilled
I feel so hopeless inside
I know I should be thankful
and not so full of pride.
I ask God every day
for this or that, you know, little things.
And when He answers so clearly
my heart just really sings.
But in those deep, pondering moments
When I ask for the desire of my heart,
I get no clear answer
and then my tears start,
Oh God, I want a baby
to hold and kiss and love
I know that You alone can give me
that blessing from above.
I keep waiting, waiting, waiting
and my patience grows to despair.
Oh why can't I have a baby?
For nothing else I truely care.
I know You haven't forgotten me
for better things to do
because You answer all my little prayers,
I just wish You'd fulfill my big one, too.

With this thought, I am not able to find suitable words to thank God for the blessing HE has bestowed on us after 10 yrs of marriage and 8 yrs of ttc. Oh, Lord, continue to shower your blessings and take care of the little angel in my womb. You know that You already are in-charge of everything.

Hope - Great to hear from you!! Yes, we all seem to have been disappeared somewhere or busy with our lives.

Hugs to all.

[kbat]

sonu--that was such a nice poem. Thanks for sharing it....

[wishfull27]

sonu - that was lovely - glad all ok xxx

[Kas101]

Hey Ladies,

Have been reading some of your thread and found lots of inspiration, so thanks...

I am quite new to this site and i'm currently trying IVF as our last hope since having my tubes removed in July. Its feels somtimes that its never going to happen and i feel so frustrated, as it seems to be one thing after the other....i found out yesterday i am a poor responder (as well as having no tubes and diminishing ovarian reserve) and i only have 4 follicles for ER.

I have times of such dispair and pain over this and i know God knows how much this means to me but still only 4 follies!!! I am rapidly losing hope over everything and i ask you ladies to remember me in your prayers if you can,

Thankyou so much

[Hope644]

Kas-

Thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers with all my other cyber-sisters out there.

We know all too well how frustrating and scary it can be to go through IVF. Never forget that you are NOT alone. We are here to support you and more importantly, God is by your side, hoping you'll ask him for help. He hears the desires of our hearts and gives us hope and encouragement when we must wait for him. I pray that he does give you the desire of your heart and that he comforts and keeps you during the hurdles and struggles you go through in IVF and in life.

Keep your heart filled with hope and the joy of knowing our Heavenly Father. May He sustain you through the hard times and bless you with infinite joy!

Love and hugs, sweetie!
Hope

[sonu911]

Hi All

I went in for my u/s and saw my lil baby with hand and legs moving. Though the face features were still alien like...Smile It was so thrilling and out of the world experience. I was so worried that I kept on looking at the face of the tech who was doing the u/s and with each satisfied expression I was also convinced that everything is going right. And then he told me, that everything is normal and perfect, the heart rate was something around 160, we heard that too. Smile he showed us the head, stomach, blood circulation and told us that many organs are already formed and other are still forming.

I knew most of the facts but it was another thing hearing it from the doc's mouth. Then I have a testing of down's syndrome in the 17 th week, its when I have my next appointment with doc.

I am so thankful to God for all his mercies and grace.

[cheryl27]

I am a christain and my dh is 31 and I am 27.ttc 5yrs. 1round clomid naturally.1 iui in nov 07.We go tomorrow to consult for first ivf.I don't know what to expect or what questions to ask.If any one could give me input i would greatly appreciate it.I am kinda new to this forum. I am having trouble with abbreviations also.Godbless everone..

[nicaliw]

Hi ladies, long time no chat.

I'm needing prayers and thought I'd stop by before going to bed tonight. My baby has had an irregular heart beat that will be checked out propely by a perinatologist in the next week or so. Everything else checks out normal and healthy and his heart is actually structurally normal. My little boy needs prayers and I need prayers, I'm very worried for him.

Thanks sisters

Nikki