I feel your pain, as I gave birth to my triplets Eva, Louis and Michel on the 5th of November, nearly a month ago at only 21 weeks.
They were my miracle babies, after 7 IVF ICSI and 2 miscarriages.
They were in perfect health, but as you, my cervix started to open too early... Like you, I feel that my body failed me, and that I failed my babies.
Did you give a name to your little girl?
Although I cannot imagine my life without children, I cannot face another cycle. We do have 4 frozen embryos , but I am so scared to try again. I have not seen the doctor since I gave birth, and I dont even know if i will be able to ever carry a pregnancy full term...
Some days seems easier than others, but I think of them every day, I look at their picture, so small like little dolls. I miss them more than I ever could have imagine. Like you Jules, I try not to cry in front of some people, but when I am alone in my shower, that's when the tears starts.
I feel for you all, who miscarried or lost a child, and although our babies should be with us, I do hope that they are in a warm palace.
Gi, I wanted to thank you for your email on an other post, I never replied it was too hard, only today I can come back on this forum...
love to all
Me 27, DH 55
04/ 05 ICSI -tive 02/06 ICSI. No fertilisation
09/ 06 ICSI. BFP!!! M/C at 12 weeks.04/07 ? ICSI -tive
04/08 ICSI BFP!!! M/C at 12 weeks
Feb 09 6th ICSI has started! neg
June 09 7th ICSI. Please make it happen!!