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my son Moses Craig Barrus

Postby ogr1 » Sat Jun 11, 2005 3:28 pm

wow the time ...

this is the day that we got to see you at our scan..
you where growing so nice inside of me.
you where doing summersalts and moving all around..
you even waved to your grandpa and your daddy.

i couldnt at first tell what was what on the ultrsound but your dad and grandpa could....

we finaly got some trees planted around your pond.

it will be great when the y blossom and bare some fruit.
i wonder what kind of fruit you would have liked best.
your dad loves nectorens and i love cherries.

the days and nights have been a bit rough but also soothing..
sometimes late at night i wake up and swear that i feel you.
and i get the warmest feeling...

i do long ofr the day when i will hold you and your bothers and sister in my arms.. i wonder how i will take care of all of you at the same time..

please give your bothers and sister a huge hug from mommy
and let the other little angles know how much they are missed..
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Postby ogr1 » Wed Jul 06, 2005 3:38 am

the ay is almost here my dear sweet son..
2 years ago i was lucky enough to hold you in my arms.
how i wish you where back in them again..
mommy loves you so much..
i will never forget when our doc put you in your fathers hands and told him that you where our son and that you where prefect.. your dad i
wayched you take your last tiny little breaths.. your little chest came up and down
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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Postby DeniseM » Fri Jul 08, 2005 3:19 pm

Moses, your mommy loves you and misses you. Did you see her bring the flowers out for you? I'm sure you're playing with all your friends in the angel creche. Can you look after my Sydney for me? I'm sure she's just starting to get to know all of you.

Becky, you're in my prayers. I hope you're hanging in there.
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Postby ogr1 » Fri Jul 08, 2005 8:23 pm

thank you so much for this denise : you have put a :) on my face..


and i am sure that all of our little angels are up there playing and getting into anything and everything.. :) :)
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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Postby taylorjools » Fri Jul 08, 2005 8:27 pm

becky my heart is with you

God bless you and Moses

LOve and hugs

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Postby ogr1 » Tue Jul 12, 2005 1:49 pm

thank you.. this is all hard but i now it gets better..


my dear son i dont kow what today holds for your father and i.
i know 2 years ago your dad worked very hard to make your little kasket

i wrapped you up in your little outfit that we where to bring you home in .
then gave you one last final kiss and your father put you in ever so carefuly.. it ment so much that grandma had came all the way here to say goodby to you to...

today your dad and i wont do much we will think of you and we will walk out to your little pond and put your flowers there and i dont know what we will do then..
i hope you like what we have done with your pond..
all the little trees are growing great.
the cat tails are growing fast to.. i cant see you from my window .. we will have to pull some of them up..
i think that we might switch sides with your foutain and the bench...



my dear son i hope that you know that i love you so much
and i dream of you playing with your angel friends.
please give them a a little kiss from there mommies..
we do miss you all so mcuch.
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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Postby Katie12563 » Tue Jul 12, 2005 9:41 pm

Lovey, Lovely, Lovely, Ogr1. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family...especially sweet Moses.
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Postby princess » Wed Jul 13, 2005 6:35 am

WE love you Becky and Moses does too sweetie he watces over you.
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Postby ogr1 » Wed Aug 03, 2005 11:39 pm

all of our children are watching over us..
we are never alone....
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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Postby ogr1 » Fri Jul 07, 2006 10:34 pm

oh my dear son. my eyes have been filled with tears today.
mommy is doing better. i havent had to take any depresion pills for a while now.
3 years ago you where put in your dads arms and the doctor said you where perfect.
i was so glad that we got to hold you and know one else held you but me and your dad. you have ment the world to use.
your dad is going to build a bridge to your little island.
and make the pond a little bigger. there has been a fawn out on your island and the willow tree has gotten so big. the birds love to nest on it.
but oh how i wish things where different..i just love and miss you so much.
i have been looking at your little scan photos that we got.

please give all of the ivf babies a extra specail hug for me today. you all are so very speacail.it was such a gift to be pregnant. there are so many that havent even been able to do that. sometimes i think i am being selfish cause i was pregnant.
your aunts have all called today. they are checking up on me.
i have to go to a dinner party tonight and i dont want to go. i wish i could just be with you. i want so much just to see you again...
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Postby ogr1 » Thu Nov 13, 2008 7:17 am

i havent been here for awhile. i miss youso much. it is almost your due date. it should have been your birthday. i should be watching you go to school and getting to go on play dates and stepping on your little toys.
and holding you in my arms and kissing your little oies,
i am so sorry that i couldnt keep you safe in my tummy until you big day.
my arms feal so empty. i keep trying to keep going and for a while evrything goes ok but there is still that pit in my stomach and some times at nighti wake up rubbing my tummy thinking that your still there.then i remember that you where born to soon.
i went threw your little treasure tonight. your little train bank.
your blankket that your great grandmother made you.and all of the poems and cards. and the photos of your dad and i holding you.some times i wonder what your laugh would sound like. would you have my smile or your dads grin.or would you come up with your very own.
does anyone else know that it is almost your birthday. or am i the only one crying.would you have had your dads shinny black curly hair?
i wish i could just see you. i am tired of looking at your little grave.
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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Postby ogr1 » Wed Jul 08, 2009 2:51 am

my dear son your birthday is here. i so wish i was making your birthday cake today. your dad and i havent been to your grave yet . it is hurting harder this year. i could of swore that i herd you cry last night.
your sister got you a baby stuffed bear so we could put it on your grave.
your neice's pet tickels the ginnie pig died to day to. it was very hard watching your dad barry him. it remined me of the day that we baried you.
it seems like everyone has forgotten that you are our son.
i remember when my doctor handed you to your dad and he said you where perfect. we watched you take a couple of breaths.
i know one daY you will be in my arms again .
i love you son i hope you can feel how much i love oyu
we werent blessed with our babies to raise here but we our blessed with our grandaughter
and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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Postby nicaliw » Wed Sep 16, 2009 1:19 am

Ogr1, I don't know you so I hope you don't mind that I read your messages. They are so touching and brought tears to my eyes. I can feel so much pain in your words. I pray that God brings you peace and happiness. One day you will hold your little angel baby xx
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Postby ogr1 » Mon Feb 01, 2010 2:45 am

thank you so much and no i dont mind at all. i think your words are wonderful
pm me any time
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and all of our many adopted and foster children that touch our lives
and i am glad to add that our 6th grandchild will be born this spring!!!!
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