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by keekee » Mon Mar 12, 2007 10:38 pm
hi molly.
i know exactly how you feel too, i have had 9 attempts of ivf, the very first one we had 4 follies, 2 transfer then later 2 frozen transered, the cycles since have all been cancelled because my follicles wont grow, i get right up to the end then they pull that bloody rug out from under me.
i hear stories on here about people having had enough on 1 or 2 or 3 cycles, i feel for them, but try 9...
the month ( back in jan 04) we started trying, my sister said they were going to try too, two weeks later she was preg, i still went on, she has just had her second baby, she just says i think i will have another one, and bam,,i am happy for her but i cry because its not me. my best girlfriend too fell pregnant the same month we started, i was even asked to film the birth, how gutt wrenching was that for me too endure, i drove home that night, in awe at it all but again crying my heart out..
my DH has had enough of it but i dont want to give up this dream yet, i am ready to try and do anything...
my family dont entertain the isseu unless i bring it up, i feel they think i should just get over it, its not going to work.. but i wont, and i dont know how to get over it..
i am thinking of seeing a councilor also, i need that other person to talk it out with i think..i have blabbed on here to much, so please please, keep in touch, everything you feel is normal and just, we just need coping skills, and i am searching for them too,
best of luck to you
keekee
me; 1st cycle jan 05, 4 follies, 1 fresh transfer 1 FT
9 cycles since all with follies too small, cancelled
heartbroken