Awaiting Treatment

[pequele]

I'm here and ya'll lied to me...still round???

Yeh so I have no idea what is going on now but before I left for work I went potty and I was spotting (brown) I'm guessing it is coming to an end pretty early this time for some reason! I was totally afraid AF would come gushing in while in hell so I used a tampon (sorry tmi but get over it haha). Midway through my shift I went the bathroom again...and there was NOTHING. I'm crampy/twingie of course and have been for days.

So I guess if she come in full force tomorrow at least I won't be surprised. Damn...back to square one

Steph

[pequele]

chat room anyone....buehler?

[stephjim]

Don't lose hope yet, spotting is good.

[pequele]

why u didnt get on to the chat steph??? i wanna go ninite now!

i dunno i'm just worried. it is late to implant (late implant means higher rate of mc). That is why if it is from implant I hope it is old implant blood. But then the twinges and pressure etc just have me worried about the end, too.

oh and my dog won't stop FARTING!

[stephjim]

Just go to sleep and try to not think about it. I was watching a movie and have my neice and nephew over so it has been a crazy night. I will definitely be on tomorrow. Try to keep up the PMA.

[stephjim]

Anyone around?

[Miracle08]

Hi ladies!!

Sorry I havent been around much... Kind of still mopey...

Jen, sweat pea, sugar lips, honey bunches of oats! I am so very sorry!!!! I know what it is like thinking, you will never have a bio child. So very hard. And sometimes, I still cry thinking DH and I will never have our baby!! But I try to be positive and be grateful for the choice of DI. Because without that, we would never be parents. We couldn't afford adoption, it is so very expensive. I agree with the rest of the girls, once you hold that precious miracle of yours, all your uncertainties will fade.
You keep venting, it is very theraputic. ( i know i spelled that wrong... HE HE) Take is easy, let yourself cry,scream,vent and know we all are here for you. LOTS OF LOVE to YOU!!!

ICSI- I am sorry about DH. Men can be so INSENSITIVE!!! He will come around. He has too, this means so much to you. I am glad you are going to get a 2nd opinion.

Pequele-Praying for your BFP!!! Stay away from the sticks.

Momma Mia- Awesome Betas! So happy for you!!!

Chriss- Take it easy. So sorry you are having a rough time, it just sucks.

StephJim- Wont be long now! How is DH? Is he excited? So glad you have such a good relationship with SKids!!! Do they live with you guys?

Su- How are you feeling? BIG BELLY YET?

To the rest of the baby makers- hope you all are pampering yourselves!!

Lots of love & baby dust to everyone!!!

[chriss]

Hi everyone. I'm still down in the dumps. I'm looking into acupuncture. I'm having a hard time finding one that specializes in infertility that is close by. I live in the boonies as far as medical offices. There are some listed about 45 minutes away and one that looks like state of the art fertility central but is at least an additional 30 minutes from the others. HArd to fit it in when you work. Not sure how to really know if it's a good one. The two closer ones were on busines cards given to me by RE office. But, who knows if they are good. Anyone can give them a business card. Wish this was easier. I just want to be pregnant and have a baby. Why does it have to be so hard? NOT FAIR! Sorry, here I go again, negative nelly. I'm trying to turn around the attitude. It's not easy. -chriss

[Miracle08]

Chriss, please do not worry about being s "negative nelly!!" I am guilty of being a Nelly lately too. I do not see you as that, and I am sure the rest of the girls dont either. You are telling us how you feel. That is so important. You have to let it out. You have been through a lot. I wish infertility was NEVER diagnosed! I wish no one would ever have to go through any of this.

[beachbaby]

Hi Ladies,

Oh jen, i am so sorry you are feeling so low, but it is better out than in. Your DH sounds such a sweetie, he obviousley loves you very much, hang in there girl it will get better as time moves on. Sorry i missed your birthday, hope you had a s nice a day as possible.

Mia, wow great numbers, sounds like you'll be joining me on the multiples!! Hope your not feeling too sick, i was very lucky on that score hardly any ms.

Steph, hang in there it is very common to get light spotting in the wait. Keep the faith.

ICSI, so glad you've decided on a second opinion. Good luck with the meeting. My clinic always makes you wait a couple of AF's between chemicals to allow your body to get sorted. when is your appointment?

Chriss, take all the time you need, we are here for you when your ready.

Hi to all i've missed, will get sorted soon and caught up.

As for me all going ok, for all who asked, no i am not finding out what i am having, i am waiting for the surprises. I will have to join facebook, so i can check you all out.

catch you all later.
Jayne

[ICSI GIRL]

i've always said i couldn't go anywhere else and get "cheaper" therapy!!! it's incredibly theraputic for all of us to have a place to come....to vent.... to cry.....to be happy.......to be sad........to not know.......we do it all...... and we do it together!!!!

chriss --- while it's hard to think of right now, you WILL work thru this..... big (((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))) to you.....

same thing to you miracle -- chin up!!!

hiya jayne!!!! lovely to see you girl!! you asked about my appt --- it is THIS wednesday (feb 20th) -- i begged w/ them to get in this week sometime as my boss is out all week and so a good time to "sneak out" w/out being noticed!!! it's in the late afternoon.....so i'll post first thing thursday morning w/ how it went.........i think it's GREAT you guys are waiting to find out!!!! you have much more will power than i!!

[Miracle08]

ICSI- i cant wait for you to go to your appointment!!! I am so excited for you!!!!!

[ICSI GIRL]

ICSI- i cant wait for you to go to your appointment!!! I am so excited for you!!!!!

ya know, even if i end up staying w/ current RE for ONE final round --- i'm still really excited to be going.....i feel like i have enough under my belt at this point where i can be "i don't want you blow any smoke up my arse" --- and go from there!!! (it will be an expensive trip though --- $250 just for consult!!! what's another $250 after you've already spent $20K????? right??? ) thanks for your excitement miracle..... i do appreciate it!

[Miracle08]

Absolutely!!! You are more educated about IF now. Hopefully they wont try and "blow smoke up your arse!!"

That suck about the consultation fee. I really wonder why these Drs and Nurses get into to the IF field. I mean these people know that their patients can NOT have a baby without their help. Makes me wonder if they are all money hungry and really dont care one way or another. I know that is really negative...sorry.

My consulation with the first clinic was $480. The other clinic I switched to, they bill it to my insurance,(can you believe it!! I was shocked) So I only paid $25 there!!! I was so grateful. SO much money!!!!

[ICSI GIRL]

current RE's office DOES accept my insurance and actually covers my us & bw (not much but every little bit helps).......new potential RE does NOT accept my insurance ---- will be 100% CASH!!!

steph -- where are you today???????? i KNOW you POAS......