
I totally know what you mean about worrying you'll ignore Anay. I worry too that Gage won't have the time with me that he is accustomed to having, that he deserves... ya know? But when I look at Gage and see what a social boy he is... he loves people... I know he will be a great big brother - if the Lord wills.
Plus, I admit, I feel somewhat guilty too for even thinking of trying again... I mean, I have already been SO incredibly blessed... I sometimes wonder if it's too much to ask for more.
I guess all this goes along with "Mommy guilt" - but giving it a label definitely doesn't make it any easier.
We have prayed and though it is a huge sacrifice of many different types, we feel that we'll do what we can and let God do the rest. It is His speciality, after all
Praying that He leads you in the right decision for your path as well. Be well, my dear... and also send much love and hugs to little Anay... I am sure he is absolutely beautiful.
