Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[jayne321]

First of all... some of you make me laugh (in a good way). All of this is so crazy. The hormones, the appts, blah, blah, blah. It's amazing we aren't all admitted to the psychiatric unit because it reallly is so hard. And I admire all of you that gave up alcohol completely. I'm only willing to do that after the transfer. My glass of wine is the only thing that keeps me sane.

Thanks to everyone for the info on the pregesterone. I think my body has adjusted some now that I've been doing it a few days. My progesterone level is always crazy high so I wish my MD would let me lower my dose a little.

Kala~obviously I'm not the one to ask how to get your body ready for an IVF cycle since I just admitted that I enjoy wine until the last minute. I try to get my DH ready by being nice to him before I start hormones. I am not a nice, stable person on hormones so I try to be extra sweet before I become crazy.

Julia~ 12 eggs is great. I'll be thinking nice fertilization thoughts for you tonight. We are very close in our cycles.

Wehavehope~thanks for adding me to the board.

Jenmink~ I had OHSS with my first IVF and I was so bloated it was crazy. I honestly looked 7 months pregnant 8 days post transfer. I hope you start to feel better. It is not a fun feeling. However, the gas is a good sign because maybe it's has nothing to do with OHSS and once you pass the gas, you'll feel better. Good luck and I hope you feel better.

Leora~Totally get the tampon thing. I saw one in my purse today and it pissed me off. I hope I don't need one again for at least a year!

AFM--6 fertilized, 4 look good, 1 fair and 1 poor embryo. We are going to push it to a 5DT so that will be Tuesday. Very excited that I get to trick or treat with my 3 year old on Monday. Yay.

[Sunshine1576]

Yay JenMink, and Amanda sounds like we are in the 2ww together... I still need to read more b/c I feel like maybe I'm missing someone else, please forgive if I am! I thought this week was already crazy enough lol but apparently "crazytown" is just getting started. We got to Mobile last night fine, checked in Hampton Inn fine, dh got up extra early to contribute his part ok, so when he gets back up to our hotel room he's panting literally telling me while he's catching his breathe that he had to park 5 blocks down from the hotel since the Breast Cancer Awareness was going on today in the historic district downtown and the main roads are blocked off. So I tell him honey we still have 1.5 hrs before we have to be at the clinic, he calms down and he takes a shower while I pack up everything. So we get down to the lobby and have a nice breakfast before heading out.

Well here's where it gets crazy...we cannot find his truck! It's so windy today that his Alabama baseball cap flies off, and I'm freezing my butt off from the cold brisk wind as we are walking all over the district looking for his truck for over 20 something minutes. At some point I tell him to leave all the luggage with me at the corner of St. Joesph St to let me rest and hide behind a brick curve wall away from the wind. (I tell y'all I would not survive in Boston, Massachusetts or anywhere up north for that matter!) So in the meantime while all the breast cancer awareness walkers are making there way around me with my luggage on the curb, I call my clinic explaining to them that the roads were blocked off and my husband has ticked me off telling them I'm about to call a cab to take me in. Fortunately, they are very nice and told me do whatever I need to do and a few seconds later dh calls me he found the truck so now he's trying to find me. I'm thinking really?!? Could this morning get any better?

As we are trying to leave the district the police officer is directing traffic and dh rolls down his window sir we have an emergency and must get to the hospital, his driving had my heartrate so high and I clinched to the dashboard as I told him to slow down. When we finally make it to the hospital for my procedure, I race upstairs while he parks the truck. They were very cordial and said it could of been worse, they shared a funny story about another guy getting pulled over and the driver had a speciman cup between his legs...I could only imagine! Anyway the procedure went over fast in comparison and dh was pleased that they had 5.5 million with 84% motility after the wash. I was more concerned about the follies, with only two in the striking zone (yesterday we had 27mm and 17mm) from what he said. He called me "estrogenic" yesterday it was around 13 with LH at 1 before the trigger shot. Not sure what all that really means, it's a toss up probably! All I can do is listen to my nurse who said we have to make it through one hurdle at a time.

My nurse shared with us the story of her 7 miscarriages before she went on to having a healthy baby, said she was in stage 3 endometrious and they even had to take her appendix out. She said after the first m/c (like us) she was more cautious about who she shared her news with, She would walk up to a perfect stranger and say I know you don't know me from Adam but I have to tell someone I'm pregnant. For that moment they shared in the excitement but she also knew she wouldn't have to undo anything since this person had no clue who she was... She would walk around with her coat buttoned just so she wouldn't have to deal with it at work. Even her own husband didn't know she was 8 weeks along until he drove her to the hospital for a d&c. After going through this so many times, she didn't want to get attached so she would call it a fetus instead of a baby. She told me we cannot get too attached, if it happens great but it's better to protect ourselves from getting heartbroken again if we can. Well she was 5 months into her last pregancy when her obgyn told her she can now unbutton her coat that everything is fine and sure enough she gave birth to a healthy son. Her story reminded me that we cannot get too absorbed and attached because we need to protect ourselves. It brought tears to my eyes because I knew it must of been hard, but she was so grounded and I could understand why, I really could...

[WeHaveHope]

Sunshine-congrats to you as well. Praying that this This is your time. Sounds like you had quite and interesting day, now time to take it easy and let the miracle begin.

[Gina1976]

Kala- We are in Kaiserslautern, right by Ramstein.


Thank you all for your support for my me and my Grandmother. My family went over there last night to talk with her about going. She says she wants to but at the same time she'll ask, "Why did this happen to me". It's sad.

[Gina1976]

Amanda, Jen and Sunshine- I hope your 2ww will go by quickly for you. Praying you will get your BFP!


Sunshine- What a crazy day!! Sounds like something that would happen to DH and myself!

[WeHaveHope]

Gina-how are you doing? Sorry I haven't sent you a personal in a few days.

Jen8675309-thinking of you. Haven't heard from you in days. I hope all is well.

[Sunshine1576]

Good Sunday Morning, have to work in a bit but wanted to play catch-up while having breakfast...
Some new faces to me...Welcome Jayne! You are so right we have to see the humor in all of this otherwise we would all be in the mental institution. Yesterday my husband was so furious about the blocked off roads that he rolled down his window and yelled ok I promise to go get my prostate checked out if you all could just let me pass through! Earlier He made a comment asking why is there such a hype for breast cancer when they do absolutely nothing for the men... Maybe he has a point in all this, what do they do for the men out there with prostate cancer?

WeHaveHope, I hope your migraine is better this morning, eat plenty of fruits that always helps me with my energy level especially bananas.

Gina, grandmothers are so special, I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

AFM: The other day I received my progesterone tablets in a icepack, so naturally I placed them in the refrigerator. This morning upon inserting one, I didn't bring it to room temperature thinking maybe my body would absorb it quicker, silly me I felt like I shoved an icicle up my cervix oh my and I had to lay next to my husband butt necked to bring me some warmth. Never again will I do that, earilier before the progesterone, I did an ovulation test to see if I got the LH surge but it only showed 1 line on the screen, so my thinking is ov hasn't happened yet. I did the trigger on Friday night around 5pm. Anyway we decided to bd every 24 hrs to give it time, but I trying not to get too absorbed with overthinking, why is this so hard? My beta is Nov. 10th, but with my mom coming hopefully it will make time fly.

[Gina1976]

We- You mentioned my Grandmother and that's enough for me Anxiety is horrible lately and it's my own fault because I can't get IVF out of my head! Going soon though so I can get something for it. Don't want to but can't feel like this any more. Makes me not able to breath well.

I hope you are doing better. Think about you and your DH all the time. Hope you will get answers in the next tests you will be doing.

We sorta forgot to change our clocks back last night lol. That's ok though we weren't going any where til late. Trick or Treating worse us out, we walked A LOT.

[Sunshine1576]

Gina, I just read your post, isn't daylight savings next week? I'm only thinking that b/c my boss had a reminder posted on our breakroom door, I might want to recheck that.

[Gina1976]

Sunshine- Goodness that makes me hurt! One thing I'm not looking forward to when IVF time comes are needles. I don't mix well with them! Sorry your Dh is having a rough time but yes you do see more breast cancer awareness than prostate cancer.

We are in Germany Change them before the states does.

[Sunshine1576]

lol nice that we have a time advantage over here for all the trick-or-treating. It's tough when it falls on a Monday though. Most of everyone I talked to plan on taking there kids out tomorrow. Hopefully Annabelle will get her costume in time, it's been hanging in my computer room and I texted her Friday.

[Sunshine1576]

What makes us weak? Our fears
What keeps us standing? Our faith
What makes us honest? Our integrity
What sustains our mind? Our quest for knowledge
What teaches us all lessons? Our mistakes

What lifts our head high? Our pride (not arrogance)
What if we can't go on? Not an option
What makes us victorious? Our courage to climb
What makes us competent? Our confidence
What makes us beautiful? Our love of God
Who says we need love? We do!
What empowers us? Our God
Who am we? Proud Strong women!

[blueeyedreamer]

Don't change your clocks yet! Daylight savings doesn't end till nov 6.

[blueeyedreamer]

Should have added "in the us" to my post.

[blessed143]

sunshine- that is way to crazy. That is funny... Thinking of you and DH and I pray that things work out well and this time you get your bfp!

Gina- Thinking of you and your grandmother. I am sorry that you are going through a hard time for you and her. Take care and thinking of you!

Well once again sorry for lack of personals. I have really been struggling. I cant not seem to stand people. I can handle kids but adults have been making me crazy. Can I blame the hormones because I am so not myself lately. I was scolding someone driving a Porsche that he should not have a car that he doesnt know how to drive. I seem way over the top. So .... I am slightly crazy. I am just not a happy person right now and I wonder if the hormones and the stress is getting to me. I am sorry but I am thinking of you all and praying that we all get our BFP. I go on thursday and I am so excited but stressing and nervous about it. I hope you all have a great day! I will try to do better because I love this group and the people on it. IF it was not FOR YOU ALL I WOULD HAVE GONE CRAZY WAY SOONER!!!!!!