7.50a.m......morning of beta...think its over......

[JackieT]

Sitting here mind in a whirl, have been testing{12} all -ive, and i had one faint +ive{faint but +}. im due to go in now for my blood test,and woke up to a lot of twinges in my ovaries, and a spot of blood in my pyjamas.I have been having period pains on and off for the last week. my AF was due on friday, but i had a very stressful weekend with so much going on, maybe this is my AF starting now, i have been to the toilet and its not there, but i have got a brown spotting, i need to go again, but im afraid in case its more... and i dont want to see it.<br>am i too late to be implanting? i think i am just grasping at straws here now, i just so desperately do not want to lose now, <br> any words of wisdom or anything will be greately appreciated.<br>i will post later as clinic are going to do PT, but i dont want to do that either, what a mess!!!<br>jackie

[beck]

jackie........what a nightmare!!!!!!<br>my fingers and toes are tightly crossed for you.and lets hope your ok.<br>keep us posted.<br>beck x x x

[carols]

Hi Jackie,<br><br>I hope everything works out for you today. fingers crossed that the faint + line will get stronger. I have heard of quit a few ladies who have af type pains after et for a couple of weeks and they have had + results. Keep thinking ++++<br><br>best of luck Carol

[JackieT]

Hi all.<br><br>i did my test at the clinic this a.m. and it was a negative, we are really upset and feel sort of in mourning.<br>we also did my blood test and have to call for results in the morning.<br>but the clinic have advised us that they are expecting to get confirmation of the negative, so not to build up our hopes. i had to stop the aspirin, bullets, etc. etc. somehow i dont really believe it and have still got a tiny hope they might be wrong.....<br>i have bad AF pains, and real bad twinges in ovaries, but still no AF also spotting gone.<br>DH is so upset and trying to look after me. we are going to give each other large doses of TLC, and have decided to go again after our third AF, good luck to you all, i will keep you all in my prayers. love jackie.xxxx

[carols]

Oh Jackie I'm so sorry. Don't give up hope, theres always a chance just around the corner.<br><br>Take a couple of months to regroup and get ready for the next time.. It will work soon I'm sure.<br><br>God bless Carol

[Kimmy]

Oh Jackie {{{HUGS}}}<br><br>I am so sorry that you got a -ve. You must have been going through hell, especially when you had a faint +ve.<br>I would wait until your blood test comes back to see what that says. <br><br>I know how you feel, do what you have to do to make yourself feel better. Spend some quality time with your DH, he is hurting just as much as you are, my heart really goes out to you both. Life is so unfair sometimes.<br>If you need to talk you know where I am.<br>Bye for now<br>Lisa

[Charmaine]

Jackie,<br><br>So sorry to hear your news - I know how awful those first couple of days are. It didn't work for me first time - but it did the second...<br>Keep trying.... <br><br>All my love & thoughts<br><br>Charmaine<br>x<br>

[JackieT]

HI.<br><br>got my blood tests results. def -ive. they reckon that the faint +ive might have been them starting to take and then just did'nt,<br>we go back on the 2 oct for another consultation, and we can re-try after my 3 AF, this one {when it comes} being the first.<br>DH is so upset as he says he did not realise how much of a lottery it is..... whether it takes or does'nt.<br>but with lots of TLC to each other we will be o.k. and ready to start again. i am thinking of trying reflexology, and accupuncture{even with my hatred of needles}. lose a bit of weight, get fitter, read some books, anything.. as we have decided to give this one more try.. so please God we will be lucky next time. Good luck to you all.. i will keep an eye on the site to see how you are all doing.. love jackie.xxxx<br>