I registered over a week ago and have been trying unsuccessfully to log on since. I have now changed my username and are using DH's e-mail because nothing else works! This has been v.frustrating because we started our 1st ICSI treatment back in March. Please bear with me-its a bit of a long post!
We are having treatment due to male factor. My DH had chemotherapy several years ago and we were warned then than we would probably need IVF. Although we have had at least 2 yrs (since tests to confirm) to get used to the idea, although we knew it wouldnt be easy, I wasnt prepared for just how much it would affect me emotionally. It has been a real rollercoaster. I didnt realise until I started the treatment how it can fail at any stage. I didnt respond at all to the stim drugs at first, so they had to more than double the dose. I then did respond but produced only 1 follie on the right ovary and 7 on the left. This had improved by EC day, with 3 on the right and 14 on the left! They got 12 eggs from the left. They couldnt do the right because it was too difficult to pierce the follicles as I was now awake and in a lot of pain!
We had been told from the begining that although we had sperm frozen prior to DH's chemo, they prefered to use a fresh sample if they could and would be doing ICSI. We didnt find out until EC day that they had decided to use the frozen sperm (My poor DH was v.embarrassed having been asking different members of staff when they needed his sample!) We had also spent a lot of money on improving his sperm by DH having acupuncture and chinese medicine for several months beforehand so were not best pleased. Obviously we wanted the best chance possible and they are the experts but some communication would have been nice prior to the day! (the embryologist did mention there was a question mark over using sperm produced following chemotherapy which we didnt know).We went home on a high because we were told that the sperm thawed out was of good quality and they wanted to try half IVF and half ICSI. They also discussed future cycles may require just IVF or even AI!
I was completely deflated the next day when told that none of the IVF had fertilized and from 12 eggs we had 4 fertilized by ICSI. I was really worried that none of the embryos would develop and was in a real state.
Luckily 2 embryos were good enough to transfer 2 dys later on the 27\4.
I must admit I was so relieved to at least have reached ET at this stage that the 2ww wasnt too bad. The 1st week I was too sore and it wasnt until the day before test day when suffering from AF cramps I started to worry.
Test day the 9th May however, I felt really down and not positive at all.
When i rang for my results although I was told it was a +ve

HCG test 2 dys later was 81. The nurse was v.guarded. Because it hadnt doubled, there could be a chance the embryo was detaching. I couldnt believe I had a +ve result and yet I was devastated. I have had real down days and cautiously positive ones, although I am so scared it will all go wrong. I have suffered from nausea and sore breasts for the last week, dizzyness for 3 wks!! and some AF cramps. I have also done 2 home preg tests. The 1st was inbetween the blood tests and was a faint +ve. The 2nd was 3 days ago. I was planning to test again 1 morning this week but felt so down and fed up I did it at 6pm! It was a definate +ve. I have a scan booked for 26\5. I surpose all I can do is wait until then.
I have found this site to be very comforting and helpful to me, although it was upsetting when I couldnt join in. You are all so supportive and positive to each other. Sorry for waffling on and thank you for taking the time to read this.
Love Kim.