Summer Board 2011

[moorebaby]

AFM: DH just left to do his part for the donor. I know I can tell you girls this bc you guys are the only ones who would understand. I am alittle jealous about his sperm going with another woman's egg. Sounds crazy right?? Maybe it is just the stim meds. I know we both agreed to do a split cycle with mine & a donor, but I can still be jealous can't I ? I am sure I will get over it just didn't expect to feel this way. Anyways, my E.R is tomorrow at 11:45 a.m looks like I have 10 follicles which I am super stoked about I am sorry for anyone I missed in personals but I hope you all have a wonderful day. I will post tomorrow after E.R.

No, you don't sound crazy! I'm not trying to change your jealousy (b/c it's totally normal), but genes don't mean a thing. My DH has met his biological father just a few times in his life; he has never had a relationship w/ him; he does not know much about him. Basically, anyone (well, almost anyone) can become a biological father, but not every man can be a REAL father. So, it's the same for your situation.
But, you do not sound crazy for being jealous. You're human. Sending you lots of love & support!

[fruit]

Lauren - YAAAAAAAY for ur 6 embies, i'll be praying for them all to become beautiful perfect blastocycts few more days for ur BFP honey how exciting is that

Anton - as wehavehope said, i can picture u in the street with the HPT lol screaming that's super funny im sure ur gonna do it in 7 days

prayersnpies - Good luck tomorrow on ur ER, waiting for the great news.

AFM: did a shot for blood clotting in my tummy 2 hours ago and im still in so much pain from the needle it is the first time that happens to me, the needle went in my skin hardly and now all my tummy is hurting me don't know why this happened and don't know what to do about it

[Sunshine1576]

Hi Everyone,
Been taking a little break but so ready to get going again! My pharmacy from CA is calling me back today so we can get the least amount of meds ordered. I'm due to start my cycle by tomorrow, (ovulation was 7/12 and AF always comes 14 days from ov). Idk Maybe I'm going through early menapause? I've been poas like crazy with - results, so just in case I'm now ordering some Follistim for my upcoming IUI. My clinic told me not to call them until day1 of my cycle I'm just waiting for something to happen. Thank you for the your reply about traveling with meds, I like the idea of bringing in a bag of beer, it might be just what I need when AF finally shows herself!

Amanda, I don't think you sound crazy at all, I know I would be more jealous if I was using a surrogate. I think once we hear the heartbeat for the first time nothing else will really matter. Remember we're doing what it takes to bring us home a baby! How is your mother doing?

Anton, Your post had me cracking up, waiving the HPT in the air shouting out. I really could see you doing that, what will be more fun is telling the family. Go ahead and start planning that moment because it will be here soon!

Fruit, Awww so sorry about the injection maybe ice the area down to num the pain, if not try some tequilla! We got to find some humor along the way!

Lauren, Awesome retrievel report, seeing that gives us so much hope!+

AFM: Leaving Friday for my family visit in Alabama and cannot wait to see someone we can. In the meantime making my neighbor's little girl a new sundress. It's chocolate, teal and lime floral with flower printed embellished with a beaded collar and trimmed in teal ribbon. It's going to be her "Cinderalla" dress, AnnaBelle (9) is just precious, her mom says she loves everything I touch, but it's a pure delight to have her around.

[longtimerivf]

Hello ladies! Hope everyone had a great weekend!!

Lauren - great fert report!! congratulations!! THIS IS YOUR CYCLE!!! Keep up the PMA!!

Amanda - congratulations on having your ER tomorrow!! Best of luck!! and hope today your donor gave you wonderful eggies too!! I don't think you're crazy, but try to focus on how wonderful to have a beautiful baby in your arms in a year!!! all this will be distant memories of your journey to hold your baby in your arms...

Sunshine1576- Enjoy your vacation!! and hope AF doesn't come and you don't need the follitism!!

Anton - how are you two ladies feeling?? Glad your DH is pampering you and letting you enjoy from day one!! because that little girlie is there with you for the long run!!!

Fruit - how are you holding on on your 2ww? Only positive thoughts and may that poas on friday bring you a bright blue or pink line on the stick!! hope your belly is better!!

prayersnpies- best of luck tomorrow!! we'll be waiting for great news!! rest up!!

moorebaby - thanks for keeping the list going!! and your cycle is almost here!!! I love your signature!!

Wehavehope- CONGRATULATIONS!!! I totally see it!!! how are you keeping this secret and not telling your DH?? you're strong lady!!

rypell1985 - thanks for stalking us!!! and congrats your twins are beautiful!!!

Ninde - welcome!! hope your stay here is very short!! and hope you love these ladies as much as I do!... great support system!!

tryn4#2 - stay positive!! many ladies here get their BFP on their blood test but not on the evil stick!!.. take it easy and stay positive until your beta day!!

Akdelp - hope you're doing better!! sending lots of prayers... are you using prometrium?? it can cause bad bright red bleeding... fingers crossed for you tomorrow! keep us posted!

AFM - Doing very well... still nervous but trying to enjoy every minute! my beta today was 2549... so not quite quadrupled in 96 hours but hoping it is normal and still good!... have the first us on wednesday to confirm it is in the uterus... cant wait!... my stomach is still very upset from antibiotics, but only 4 more days to go!

Hugs and baby dust to all!!!

[WeHaveHope]

Longtimerivf-that is a great Beta. I can't wait to read about how well your little bean is doing. You know, it realy isn't about strength, it's about weekness. I can't bare the thought of bringing hope to DH and then having it crushed. We've been through this before, just last month. Not with the positive HPT but with the negative Beta. I just can't stand the thought of telling him it's positive and then possibly having to tell him again on Friday that now it's negative. Once is enough. Trust me, I felt like screaming it out today to anyone that would listen. I have wanted to tell him since the first little blue line appeared but I will spare him the additional pain on this long rollercoaster ride. He has been my rock throughout all of this. I owe him at least this much. Even if the Beta is positive on Friday you know things are never a guarantee. So I will spare him this one crazy loop on the rollercoaster and we will ride the rest of it together as we always have. Hand in hand dealing with everything and anything God hands us. Sending you lots of love. I will keep you in my prayers.

[Lauren]

I am so happy yet so nervous again.....OMG tell me to stop!!!!!!! Now I worry about those 6 and making it into perfect little embies!!!

[Ninde]

Dear all, wow what an amazing bunch you all are. I cant wait to get to know you better. At the moment I feel it would be way too presumptuous of me to reply to anyone's news. I'll wait a little and hopefully then I won't seem too forward.

Love and light

Ninde

[Lauren]

We-I understand what your saying about your DH and whether you believe it or not it takes a strong woman to protect him like that. I think a lot of us feel this way thru the IVF journey...theres so many ups and downs thru this journey that if we can protect eachother we try too! so how are you feeling? pregnant? any symptoms? I am very sore today...not too fun!

Amanda-thanks I know everything will go great tomrrow for u and yes its ok you feel that way...its just human of you. Youve made the decision to take donor eggs but it all just became real for you today and your feelings are normal and thats what we are here for! to listen Im freaking out over my 6 embies I dont know how to act bc ive never had this..im worried im gonna lose them idk crazy i guess..well good luck tomorrow uodate us asap!

[Lauren]

Ryan-THANK YOU! I am excited and nervous all at the same time cant help my crazy self how are the babies? Coming home soon? How are you feeling? Your so lucky to have had a vaginal delivery better recovery!

[WeHaveHope]

Lauren-you think your crazy, I belong in the funny farm for sure.
I have completely gone off the deep end. Went out today and bought two more HPT, different brands. Tonight I POAS again. This time with the test that has the + and - signs. I think I see a + but will not celebrate until the Beta on Friday. I just can't believe it to be true. I am in complete denial I suppose. I am having a hard time even feeling happy although I was almost busting out of my chair at work today. Actualy, I was almost jumping out of my own skin. But at the same time I felt like crying at times. Possibly the hormones. Maybe because this journey is so so difficult and excruciating. Other people get pregnant tell the world and everyone is happy. Here I am keeping this secret even from my own DH because I want to spare him any additional pain if in fact the Beta is negative on Friday. One could go absolutely insane. I am definantely on my way there to the crazy house. The HPT companies are going to make a killing this week. Maybe tomorrow I will try the one that actualy says the word "pregnant". You are doing great. It's normal to feel the way you do. Remember we are here for you. You are in my prayers. I have all my fingers and toes crossed for good luck.

Moorebaby-thank you for the vote of confidence. Wishing you all the best.

Amanda-those feelings are completely normal. Just think of your babies snuggling with you. How absolutely precious and worth it this all will be.

Ninde-don't be shy. Jump right in. Believe me it helps to share stories, ask questions, laugh, and even cry.

Fruit-the needle probably did not go in far enough but not to worry, your body will absorb the medication. You may end up with a bit of a bruise but it will go away.

[moorebaby]

WeHaveHope- You're so preggo!

Lauren- Will they call tomorrow w/ another update?

Amanda & Prayernpies- Good luck tomorrow!!!

tryn4#2- You are still early. I'm praying so much that Thursday brings you a BFP!

BrandyB- How are you doing? Do you have a BETA coming up? I know your IUI was on the 14th.

Question for you lovely ladies...did you cut out caffeine/coffee?

[Lauren]

ester-Yes I get an update every morning...im just making myself nuts!

We-you made me laugh! yes you are the mayor of crazytown right now and the HPT companies make tons of money off us IVF girls its ok to feel like you do too bc its NOT easy not any pat of this..people dont realize how hard all this is but that +++++ is awesome!!!! I am keeping everything crossed for you to have a great beta and a healthy pregnancy! hang in there...only a few more days and then you can pass the keys to the town to me

[rypell1985]

Lauren...the babies are HOME!!! They got home yesterday and I'm so ecstatic! I feel so, so lucky to have had a vaginal delivery...I honestly had zero pain afterwards. Aside from my hips feeling a little funny if I over do it, I've been a-ok since pushing them out! I actually had a cyst removed from my spine on Friday and that hurt way more than delivering twins!! Can't wait to see your update tomorrow!

[nicksgam]

rypell1985 ~ Sorry to hear you had a cyst removed from your spine, sounds very painful

Lauren ~ Grow embabies grow!!! Yes the HPT companies make a boat load on us. I have learned, I purchase cheap strips off of amazon.com and I even got some FRER too this time and I haven’t even started stims yet.

Ester ~ Yay for starting stims, sending you tons of baby dust. I stop both caffeine and alcohol when I start my stims, not sure if it matters.

WeHaveHope ~ HUGE CONGRATULATIONS on your BFP!!! I am a POAS addict too. Once I see the two lines I POAS until my u/s, sometimes more than once a day, crazy yes.

Ninde ~ Welcome to the summer board, post whenever you feel comfortable.

Longtimerivf ~ Great beta, Wednesday will be here before you know it and you will get to see your baby(ies).

Sunshine1576 ~ Have a great vacation, It will be nice to be able to take it easy while stiming.

amanda1979 ~ Good luck with you ER tomorrow. Sending you good fertilization vibes.

Anton/Fruit ~ You are PUPO mommies. Sending you tons of sticky vibes.


AFM ~ Vacation was wonderful, had a great time spending time with DS, DH and our basset hound in Canada. But now back to reality, work was crazy busy today and I don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel. But I really don’t care because I go in tomorrow for my baseline u/s and start stims on Saturday. I am putting IVF before work this time. Creating my family is the most important thing to me and I am not going to let anything get in the way.

[anton]

Hi everyone!

Moorebaby- Thanks for the dedication chica!!! According to that this is what’s happening today 3dp5dt.. Implantation begins, as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining! How exciting is that! I wish I could literally felt that happening instead of just wondering whether is happening or not!.... about caffeine, well i don’t know if it really matters but since day one of stims no coffee and no alcohol for me. And even before starting the meds for this cycle I might have had 2-3 coffees in 3 months. I had my 5th fresh cycle and FET during this period so I decided I go all the way caffeine free. It was tough at the beginning but slowly slowly I got used to it. In a year’s time I must have had like maybe 10 coffees. And to imagine that before starting this IVF journey 2years ago I used to drink like 3 sometimes 4 coffees a day! And to think that I used to smoke like 4-5 cigarettes a day..but that was 2 years ago. Actually the day we decided to start IVF I quit smoking. Just like that. Motivation does wonders!! ...I really don’t know if it helps or not I just felt I do anything to make this possible. And a little dettox won’t do any harm....I wish you the best of luck this time my friend! And of course that BFP!!!!

Lauren- I totally feel you my friend! In my previous fresh cycle (5th) I was too for the first time waiting for my embies to become blasts and the waiting was killing us! Both me and DH! Try not to stress too much and think positive! Your embies are growing and dividing as they should be! Your report today will be awesome! This is your cycle my friend! Don’t forget that!!

Rypell- thank you so much for praying form my little embie! I so much appreciate that! keep doing that!...I am SOOOO happy Dylan and Isabella came home where they belong!!!! I can only imagine how exciting and overwhelming that moment must have been for you and DH! I am dreaming of mine to come!! ...hopefully in 9 months! So, how was the first night with them!!....sorry you had that cyst removed! ..about vaginal delivery, all the women that I know and they done it say the same things like you. I am looking forward to that experience!!

Amanda- thank you for doing the sticking dance for me!!! ...I am with the rest of the ladies here, feeling the way you feel it can only be normal! It’s another thing to agree to do such a thing and another when is actually happening. But don’t you regret not even for a moment about this decision! It is the end result that counts and that is taking a baby home with you! ...for me is not the road to "ITHAKA" that matters but the destination! And that destination is when DH and I hold our baby in our arms...and that is a family! Parents are the ones that raise a baby the best they can and pass on their wisdom and do the best on make that baby a good person....there’s nowhere written that “parents” means “biological parents”. It is a tough decision but if one has no other choice then this is the right choice to take! GOOD LUCK to you my friend!!! Your ER today will be great! ((hugs))

Fruit- I hope your tummy feels better today. The things we go through to have a baby! And you are having one/two this time! How are you feeling? Our little embbabies are trying to stick inside us as we speek! Isn’t that awesome!


Sunshine1576- Glad you had a nice break and glad you are getting ready for another vacation to meet with your family. Your neighbour’s daughter is sure very lucky to have you doing stuff for her! Soon you will have your own baby girl to spoil!!!! I wish you that AF never arrives and you get that BFP without the meds!! That will be awesome!! You never know...keep on POAS!!!! and keep us posted!!

Longtimerivf- Thank you so much for your kind words! I really hope our little embie stick and stay and grow as it should for the following 9 months!!! ...Awesome beta results!!!!!!! can’t wait to see how many!!!! Wednesday you are going to see your miracle baby!!!

Wehavehope- hey crazy girl!! you are SOOOO pregnant!!!! 3 more night sleeps and that beta will just confirm that!!! ...as of protecting our DH’s, I do that constantly from the day we got into this IVF rollercoaster and I can understand why you feel to be protective but this is a positive for sure honey!! You’ve got lines and crosses and stuff that confirm that!!

Ninde- Jump in whenever you feel like it girl!!!

Tryn4#2- How’s things going in lala land my friend? Keep up that PMA of yours!! Your BFP is getting closer!

Nicksgam- how was your U/s today? I am sure all is good! And Yay for starting stims on Saturday!!!! You are getting your family bigger this time my friend!!

AFM- My little embie status report at 3dp5dt: Implantation begins, as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining! awesome! ....wish I could feel that happening! But most of all I pray that this is exactly what is happening in there today!!! ...i am still chilling out today...time here is 13:15 and so far I took a shower, had breakfast, water some plants, plant a few my DH brought me last night I and write this post! So far so good! . better start thinking of what to eat for lunch..Hmm ... I told DH that is was ok not to come and bring me something...i knew he has too much work to do today and I didn't want to add this one too....my best friend is coming over this afternoon to catch up...tonight DH asked me for a night out to eat in some cozy restaurant so maybe we will go. I don’t want to walk too much, don’t know what got into me this time. I feel I might be more cautious in terms of moving around...don’t know...in past cycles i tried every combination! One cycle no rest at all, other cycle total rest for about most of the 2ww, other cycle just the first 3 days and then just take it easy...this cycle I am more or less doing that. We hear so many “strategies” with both ending in BFP’s and BFN’s and i guess there is no right or wrong at the end. Like my friend Lou from the PAT board recently told me, there are no statistics and numbers, it just take the right embie at the right time. And I totally believe that. I pray that this time, this is the right embie for me and this is the right time to get my BFP!!! I pray so hard to get that BFP this time!!!!

Baby dust and sticky vibes to us all!!!

anton