Pheonixes Rising

[jen babes]

MLG congrats on the birth of Margarida xxx

HI to everyone ...

will do perrsonals later as just back from a long weekend away with adam and bouncing Broc... Faith and AF has returned and i feel a lot better in myself . It was like the stress you get on last day of 2ww unbelievable...don't much look forward to this menopause stuff at all !!! Hopefully i willl have had a brood by then and it won't matter!

Gail good to hear from you 29wks wow!!! not long now honey

Julie and Lisa keep the Faith we need more pheonix births this year!!!

catch ya all later as dog whinning for a walk and i must dash

love ya

jen
xxxx

[NickiMark]

Hiya Jen, glad u hear AF came, and lovely to hear from ya!!
I had some one keep calling me on my mobile and in the end it bugged me so called it back, and nothing!!! so txted a message, 'who are you'???
The reply was 'Jen' I am silly but honestly i thought it was you, dont know where u would have gotten my no. but i txt back are u Jen from Scotland, she txt back are you Abbey from Walthamstow??? LOL!!!
So it was a wrong no. but thought i'd share that with you Jen!!! LOL!!!!

Dh and I had a heart 2 heart this eve, been crying again, why is this life so hard, I am sure this IVF will work, but DH is worried that it wont and then we will keep wanting to try and try, ad basically he's worried about money, we only have enough for 1 ivf, I dont know if it fails how i'll feel, I guess, I will always want kids forever, We spoke some more about Adoption, Dh is on a Big definate NO on that one.
But i think if cant have kids ourselves, thats the next best thing huh???

Anyway, hope ya all well....

Julie, hope everything is going well, is Ec the 16th then???

Lisa, have you had the insems yet???

[Lis]

Hi all

Sorry no peronals. Struggled to get connected tonight so very late now. Just spent ages catching up on all your posts. Will do personals tomorrow or thurs when I'm next on.

Gail great to hear from you and hearing that you and bump are good!

Not long now Julie - hang on in there

Welcome back from your break Jen xx

Nicki I've mailed you doll x

Hi Souris hope youare ok you must be excited about tmt starting soon !

I had donor insem today and one more tomorrow morning then back to work after Test date will be 23rd Jan.

Nite nite xxxx

[Lis]

Sorry test date 25th Jan xx

[NickiMark]

Well, honey good luck for the 25th x x x Lets hope its 6th time lucky x x

[NickiMark]

PREGNANT PHEONIXES
Gail 31 wks...a little girl due xxx

PHEONIXES IN THROWS OF TREATMENT
Julie

PHEONIXES ON 2WW
Lisa

PHOENIXES WAITING FOR TREATMENT
Nicki
Lucy
Kate
Jen
Souris



JAN
16th Jan -- Julie EC?
16th Jan -- Souris -- France
19th Jan -- Julie ET?
24th Jan-- LUCY- consultant appointment update on ivf
25th Jan-- LISA-- Test date!!
26th Jan--Nicki--Egg share Appointment
31st Jan-- LISA-- IVF appointment


FEB
Jen's Hen weekend away
14th Feb -- VALENTINE's DAY!!!
Nicki-- Down regging
Lucy-- starting IVF



MARCH
1st March -- Julie X-Factor Concert
2nd/3rd March -- Julie W-end in York
3rd March -- Julie Keane Concert
7th March--Adam & Jen's wedding on Whistler Mtn Canada
Mid March-- LUCY-- EC
14th March -- Julie Wedd. Ann (11yrs)
23rd March -- GAIL-- Baby due!
23rd March -- NICKI-- EC??
24th March -- Nicki Wedd. Anni (6yrs)


APRIL
7th april- jen and Adam's wedding celebration
7th april -- Julie -- Week in Wales (?)


MAY
JEN--Possible Egg Donor cycle abroad
7th May--NICKI--seeing Jason Donovon in concert

[luby]

Hi Ladies

Hope everyone is well..

Nicki - Have you heard from the GP yet about the Bloods, how come you have to pay, that’s madness, are you doing tmt through NHS, if so your bloods are free, if its all private then unfortunately yes you have to pay for bloods.... I'm doing private tmt, but through NHS so get bloods, scans etc paid for just not tmt..... let me know what they say...
Adoption is a big step for anyone, something I know personally I wouldn't want to think about just yet, that’s my personal thought though and who knows maybe one day in a lot of years to come I might have to look at adoption but for now its not something I will consider, I don't want that to sound selfish. Like you I can only afford one more cycle, so really pinning all my hopes on it, if it doesn't work then who knows what will happen, personally I want to keep going until it does work, but you need money for that, my DP thinks we should then consider ED if this one fails, yes something I will definitely do but to be honest I don't know how I'll come to the decision to stop trying using my own eggs, I was suppose to stop on my 3rd cycle, (due to money) easier said than done. Nicki I have everything crossed for you that this one will work, but if its doesn't all I'm saying is you will want to do another cycle and I hope you will be able to find the funds to do it, that's why DH is prob so set against adoption because deep down he knows you will have your own child....xxx

Julie - Didn't manage to bring appt forward so still 24th Jan. FSH 7.5 is good.. there isn't really a reading you have about your stims, the fact they have reduced your stims is a good sign, sounds like your responding really well, they wouldn't want you to over stimulate and get OHSS, so that’s why they've prob reduced it.. when is your follie scan.?

Jen - Great to hear from you hun, great to hear AF has arrived along with the faith and PMA. Hope your feeling OK in yourself with your health? Take Care.

Lisa- How did the 2nd insem go today? How you feeling? Ohh test date 25th Jan, keeping everything crossed for you.!

Souris - Know how you feel re the EX, can be hard can't it when they're still in yours and partners lives... but you just concentrate on yourself, not long now till you go to France. Take Care

Hi to Gail and MLG and anyone else I've missed

Has anyone heard from Kate???

I haven't been to work today and yesterday, have been feeling really flu'ey, even though I have had a flu jab, thought it was a kidney infection again but went to docs and he said it wasn't, prob just run down (YOU CAN SAY THAT AGAIN!) I didn't wake up until 2.30pm today, I couldn't believe the time, must of needed the sleep though eh? I'll be back at work tomorrow though.

Love to you all
xxx

[jen babes]

PREGNANT PHEONIXES
Gail 31 wks...a little girl due xxx

PHEONIXES IN THROWS OF TREATMENT
Julie stimming

PHEONIXES ON 2WW
Lisa test 25th Jan

PHOENIXES WAITING FOR TREATMENT
Nicki
Lucy
Kate
Jen july/aug ED abroad
Souris

PHOENIXES GIVEN BIRTH
MLG c/s baby girl Margarida 3wks old now


JAN
16th Jan -- Julie EC?
16th Jan -- Souris -- France
19th Jan -- Julie ET?
24th Jan-- LUCY- consultant appointment update on ivf
25th Jan-- LISA-- Test date!!
26th Jan--Nicki--Egg share Appointment
31st Jan-- LISA-- IVF appointment

FEB
Jen's Hen weekend away
14th Feb -- VALENTINE's DAY!!!
Nicki-- Down regging
Lucy-- starting IVF

MARCH
1st March -- Julie X-Factor Concert
2nd/3rd March -- Julie W-end in York
3rd March -- Julie Keane Concert
7th March--Adam & Jen's wedding on Whistler Mtn Canada
Mid March-- LUCY-- EC
14th March -- Julie Wedd. Ann (11yrs)
23rd March -- GAIL-- Baby due!
23rd March -- NICKI-- EC??
24th March -- Nicki Wedd. Anni (6yrs)


APRIL
7th april- jen and Adam's wedding celebration
7th april -- Julie -- Week in Wales (?)


MAY
JEN--Possible Egg Donor cycle abroad
7th May--NICKI--seeing Jason Donovon in concert

[jen babes]

Hi gang of Pheonixes

Nicki- Honey thank you for updating the list. You are such a sweetie. But i am worried that you are so down and crying a lot. Please please please Honey keep the Faith...you have not yet tried IVf so how do you know if it doesnt work for you or not!!! Serious Big sister ear bashing coming your way from me now girl. ..Please take one step at a time Honey... you have been through so much in the last 6 years trying to get pregnant but Your eggs are A okay...Just let the ivf try a shot and then see. Cause you will have frosties to use after for a sibling!!! Think how Gail went through a frozen embie cycle with not much Hope from the Doc s and here she is 31wks pregnant!!! It will be you too Honey...I can feel it in My water! I too feel despondant lots of the time too Now i have to fund going abroad and using another womans egg to get our dream baby. Life IS full of hardship...but also there are blessings waiting to happen to us all...Just sit it out Honey you and Mark will get there.... If i had your phone number i would call you Thanks for thinking that it was me that was sweet!!! LOL and hugs swetie x x KEEP THE FAITH x x


Luby hey honey... No wonder you are tired>you have gone through ao much. Plus all that build up of stress before an ivf does take it out of ya. Please look after yourself as you will need all your strength in the next month...i hate to think that i will be in canada when you are testing but I will be coming home married to some good news from YOU!!! hugs sweetie x x Look after yourself this week and take as much time off sick as you need...no one else can look after your health but you. x x


Souris How are you honey...what a ***** that ex is ....Life anfd ivf is hard enough without her on your back...As lissa said Chin up and keep your head held high and ris above all her slagging talk! Are you doing a short cycle again? I know you did one before like Lucy and myself. Good luck with it anyway Honey I am hoping all goes well this time..it can be so hard to go through it all again after what you've been through. But we are here to help and send mega hugs your way!!! x x x

Julie taking a day off for Ec is okay..i took 2 days as i can suffer from the anestheic ( spelling??) But deffo recommnd 2 wks off at 2ww. Just make sure you book tons of time pampering acupuncture or massage or shopping in the second week as it always goes so slow!!!! Soon be your time to be on the expecting Pheonix Board I am sooooooooo hopeful for you julie x x love x x As lucy said it's good that they slowed down your stimming you must be creating loads of follies x x

Hi to Gail MLG and kate ( as well as anyone i have missed)

I am feeling better today, jut been doing too much stuff so been exausted. Adam and i started Zita's Liver De-tox diet last Saturday (for 7 days ) and the first 3 days it does take it out of you but biy do you feel better at the end of the 7 days. this is our 4th time doing it in 2 years and i would really recommend it for a clear out. Only problem is that you are so tired and sleep a lot it's difficult for Adam to do it while he's working such long hours! He came home at lunch and fell asleep for 20 mins after eating lunch..BLESS! I am nearly all organised with all the wedding party prep, just got the cake to get! And we are just goning to get a little one! as they are so expensive. broc is doing great he loved being away last weekend and stayed in the motorhome himself when we went skiing for 3 hours. He is such a star of a pup so well behaved. but cheeky too when he wants o be!!! we are going away to Aviemore this weekend again as there has been more snow. I have skied since i was 11 years old and used to ski for the Glasgow Schools.So i am coping well with it as it is not too taxing for my MS ( at the moment!) Hope the sun shines this weekend again! The following weekend Adams Mum and Dad ( 300miles away) are taking Broc for a trial weekend at their house. to see if it will be okay for them to watch Broc when adam and I get married in March. dreading leaving the little pup for the weekend never mind 2 wks away in march....Goodness knows what type of anxious mum i will be when i have a baby!!! It's scary feeling this emotional for a pup never mind a baby!

I am still scanning all the info on donor egg tmt abroad but will keep you all up to date...Sorry for such a long long message but i wanted to speak to ya all!!!!

ta ta for now
love jen
xxx

[Julie2039]

Hi Phoenixes

In need of some TLC....I have had a really bad day today. No reason - just haven't stopped crying. Came home from work at lunch time. Said nothing - just scarpered!!!! I think over tired but getting to stage where I feel sick of going to the hospital. I know it has to be done and I do want to go because I have to but up and out so early every day is dragging me down. I have been so positive and breezed through the cycle so far but reality hit me today that it might not work and that was it! Once I popped I couldn't stop. Spent all afternoon in bed. I know I have to stay positive and hope will wake up better tomorrow...

They aren't sure when EC will be as depends on so many factors. They are working for Tuesday....first follie scan is fri/sat....

LIS - Hun - sending you massive hugs, read your other post. I hope the other girl has put your mind at rest xxx

NIKKI - Hugs to you too. Wait and see what your IVF brings before worrying about adoption as you won't need it!! (We went on adoptin course few years ago and decided it wasn't for us..). love to ya both

JEN - Welcome back. Glad you had good break away and AF back on track x

LUCY - Hope you feel better. These winter blues/weather are a killer. Bring on Summer!!!!!!!

Hi everyone else xx

[NickiMark]

PREGNANT PHEONIXES
Gail 31 wks...a little girl due xxx

PHEONIXES IN THROWS OF TREATMENT
Julie stimming

PHEONIXES ON 2WW
Lisa test 25th Jan

PHOENIXES WAITING FOR TREATMENT
Nicki--March egg share IVF
Lucy
Kate
Jen--july/aug ED abroad
Souris

PHOENIXES GIVEN BIRTH
MLG c/s baby girl Margarida 3wks old now
JAN
16th Jan -- Julie EC?
16th Jan -- Souris -- France
19th Jan -- Julie ET?
24th Jan-- LUCY- consultant appointment update on ivf
25th Jan-- LISA-- Test date!!
26th Jan--Nicki--Egg share Appointment
31st Jan-- LISA-- IVF appointment

FEB
Jen's Hen weekend away
14th Feb -- VALENTINE's DAY!!!
Nicki-- Down regging
Lucy-- starting IVF

MARCH
1st March -- Julie X-Factor Concert
2nd/3rd March -- Julie W-end in York
3rd March -- Julie Keane Concert
7th March--Adam & Jen's wedding on Whistler Mtn Canada
Mid March-- LUCY-- EC
14th March -- Julie Wedd. Ann (11yrs)
23rd March -- GAIL-- Baby due!
23rd March -- NICKI-- EC??
24th March -- Nicki Wedd. Anni (6yrs)


APRIL
7th april- jen and Adam's wedding celebration
7th april -- Julie -- Week in Wales (?)


MAY
JEN--Possible Egg Donor cycle abroad
7th May--NICKI--seeing Jason Donovon in concert
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[NickiMark]

Whats E2?? do you know???

Dh's dad & mum have just said they would help us with this IVF, how good is that???
But dh says he doesn't want their money!!!

Arghhh!!

[Lis]

Oh Julie sweetie ..... I wish I could give you a big hug. You have been so brave and so fab during your treatment so far you are bound to have a blip. I'll tell you a few of my blips then you'll feel better - I can be on top of the world one minute then at the lowest ebb the next. I said to dh last week that I have cried so much over the last 15 months I'm surprised I have any tears left! On 2 occasions now I've had to cancel plans with friends because out of no where I've errupted into tears and not been able to stop . I've literally cried the whole night. One time I had friends coming over for dinner and had set the table, made soup, prepared all the main course but just couldn't get myself together so dh had to phone and call it off with an hour to go! I've locked myself in an office and cried at work and cried myslef to sleep more times than I can remember Even this morning after 2nd insem I didn't want to go back to work and was on the verge again. Last month when I was off tmt I felt great and cried only once. I've worked out that I've cried on average once a week for the last 15 months (apart from last month)!!!!! So please honey know that you are not alone and that we are all here to support you. We all soooo know where you are at. Huge hugs doll xxxxxxxxxxx

Jen - wow, the wedding is so close!! You must be sooo excited. Desperate to know what you are wearing (being at the top of a mountain and all that!) Any clues?? I'm impressed about the skiing - you must be soo fab at it. Meant to say, when you said you were in Ayr over Christmas. Ayr is my home town and also dh's We still go there to visit family. Mayve we'll bump into one another one day, either there or Glasgow. Keep us posted about the egg donor situation xxx

Lucy - nice to hear from you. Sorry you have been poorly. Hope you feel better soon. Are you starting to get excited about your next cycle again? Not long now. xxx

Souris - also not long for you now either. Sorry to hear about the ex - what a pain - that's all you need. At least in France you can forget about her and concentrate on you ad your cycle xxx

Nicki - any more luck yet finding out about appt on nhs or bloods? Like Lucy, when we were going to have treatment in Darlington last year I went to my gp for bloods but didn't say anything and never got billed for them. Think it depends on where you are in country but if you have to pay it truly sucks Keep fighting it hun

Hi to Gail and bump. MLG and Daisy and anyone I have missed (so sorry if I have)

Well now on 2ww. Had second insem today. Have planned quite a few things over the next 2 weekends to keep me busy plus loads going on at work to try and make the time pass quickly. The outpatient sister who usually does my IUI's - well I get on so well with her, I think she's great and we talk about loads of stuff everytime I'm in for bloods,scans and treatments - to put my mind at ease yesterday she got my donor sperm sample checked by the lab to make sure the swimmers were def swimming!!! cos she is as mystified as I am as to why I've not had any success yet so its all down to mother nature and there ain't anything I can do about it apart from hope and pray for that long awaited BFP ....

Keep up the PMA all gorgeous phoenixes!!!

[NickiMark]

Now dh's mates g/friend has just emailed to say she's preg with her 3rd....I am so upset, she should email me!!!

Dh's mate hasn't even told dh.....Thats bad huh???

[Lis]

Nicki honey I'm so sorry. Life is so tough right now huh? Humongous hugs xxx