cycle buddies - Jo, Caz and Sharon

sharoninsomerset · Post by **sharoninsomerset** » Fri Jul 11, 2003 7:47 am

Oh NO!! God, I'm sorry Lorraine. Looks like we feel exactly the same way. Are you going to be on your own at home today? Please Jo give us some good news, we are all sat here holding our breath. Sxxxx

Jo Locker · Post by **Jo Locker** » Fri Jul 11, 2003 8:06 am

My news is good - the test was POSITIVE but I am finding it hard being the only one of us. I know that's wrong but I have been where you are today and I know the pain of it all. We are both in shock and of course over the moon. I am thanking God for our good fortune this time and I can't believe it has happened to us. I feel for you all. Please know that it's just odds, it was our turn this time but it will come for you and I can't wait for that day. I am terrified of saying the wrong thing cos I know how fragile it makes you feel when its a negative. I am overjoyed at our news but truly sad for you. If my positive gives you a lift then that's amazing - I never thought it could happen to us - I felt exactly the same way that you do but it can. I cant thank you enough for being my buddies. With all my love - please let me know what you think. Jo. XXX

sharoninsomerset · Post by **sharoninsomerset** » Fri Jul 11, 2003 8:16 am

Oh Jo, that REALLY IS FANTASTIC!!! Please don't feel awkward about it, it was your time and it is such a relief that one of us got it (the maths did work out!) it would have been just awful if none of us did and would have given little hope for the future, now we know it happens!!! You must be over the moon and don't let us spoil it in anyway - revel in all the congratuations notices you will get today. Really REALLY please for you. Girls -perhaps we need to start a new thread now (it takes ages to load and we are now at the end of a milestone!?) Love to you and DH Will speak to you later, but keep posting. Sxx

Lorraine · Post by **Lorraine** » Fri Jul 11, 2003 8:24 am

Oh Jo! Thank God! It's fantastic news for you both - a truly heart felt congratulations. It must be a truly glorious and head spinning moment for you. As for feeling bad - don't - like I said we needed your good news too. It is painful - but your success has no bearing on that - for those that will go on to try again - your good news helps them to find it in themselves to keep going. It helps people have faith in the "system" I feel so miserable right now - but your good news has warmed my heart. The tears are just flowing! Special Blessings to you - a mum at last. Lorraine xxxxxx

Jo Locker · Post by **Jo Locker** » Fri Jul 11, 2003 8:47 am

You are all special people and I know you are truly happy for us. The thing is that if it can happen to us with our dodgy bits & pieces, it can happen for you too. Please keep the hope going cos I promise you I am totally in shock and never thought for a second it would be +. Its hard to pick yourself up and summon the strength and courage for yet another attempt. After a rest though, you will be able to think about doing it again. It's such early days for us, I certainly don't feel out of the woods yet but of course we're so very thankful to have got this far. Just staring into space at the moment - am at work but can't see all that much getting done!! I know you will have a much different friday and I'm thinking about you. Lots of Love - Jo. XXXXXX

Tracey S · Post by **Tracey S** » Fri Jul 11, 2003 8:54 am

Lorraine,Caz and Sharon So sorry - having been there 3 times myself and losing one to an ectopic I know some of what you are going through. Its S**T and this crappy stuff happens. I know you will all find the strenght to move forward and find your dreams. In the meantime look after yourselves. Sharon - get the hydro sorted - it's peace of mind - worked for me! Jo - have sent you an email but presume it will go home. Congrats- I am so pleased. Don't feel guilty - your 2 ww buddies are delighted for you and upset for themselves and each other. You know as well as me you can seperate all these emotions - even after failed tmts and flaming pessaries! You are a sign and an example of what can be - it is what me, you and everyone else clings on to so we can go on and strive to achieve our dreams. Nobody said it would be easy and the prize is so huge. Enjoy but if you are anything like me it doesn't sink in for ages and then you start worrying about the 7 week scan and then some peace of mind until the 12 and so it goes on. This is a truly well deserved result and Dh and I send you special love. With love to you all Tracey xxx

sharoninsomerset · Post by **sharoninsomerset** » Fri Jul 11, 2003 9:35 am

Lorraine, I've posted a message via email, just checking you are ok. Love Sx

sharoninsomerset · Post by **sharoninsomerset** » Fri Jul 11, 2003 12:32 pm

Lorraine, If you have replied to my email sorry but I haven't received any emails - DH as been trying to email me all morning and can't get through - sorry I'll reply as soon as email account is sorted out. Sx

Lorraine · Post by **Lorraine** » Fri Jul 11, 2003 3:03 pm

Thanks Sharon - Have just re-sent it - hope you get it. Doing ok. Just feel miserable. Having been here before I know it will pass and know I will feel better as the meds wear off. It's just the accumulation of 3 negatives is taking it's toll. I have never coped well with the failure - it's not that I thought it would work - it's just that hateful sense of loss of something - hope I suppose. I know I am supposed to come out of my corner fighting - sorry girls this isn't the done thing is it? Lorraine

NicolaUp · Post by **NicolaUp** » Sat Jul 12, 2003 7:56 am

Sharon, Caz and Lorraine, I'm so sorry to hear your news. I was really routing for you, in some ways it's like going through it yourself and you hope desperately that it's going to be positive. The shock and emotional turmoil does settle down, although for me, it was still a bit of a rollercoaster for days afterwards. Please be strong, you will get through this. Look after yourselves and your DH's. Jo, I'm so glad, it makes it all real when somebody gets a positive and gives us all hope that it CAN happen. Take care of yourself. Nicola.

Lorraine · Post by **Lorraine** » Sat Jul 12, 2003 9:55 am

I know you probably won't be logging in this weekend girls but still felt the need to leave you a message. Jo - I hope you have a lovely weekend, I am sure it hasn't sunk in yet and I guess the fretting doesn't stop for you - it's just different things to worry about now. Look after yourself - and your precious cargo - the dream is here at last. When will you tell your parents? Surely you haven't got the strenth to wait til 3 months? You probably could after all they don't know about the ICSI - that still amazes me! Caz - I guess you may be at home this weekend - now that DH is at home - that must be so good. It was so traumatic for you both to be apart on such an enormous day. I know you have got the wedding today - hope it's not too hellish. The messages about your outfit and "killer" heels made me giggle - I hope you are feeling composed enough to make it through the day. Tomorow you can have the rest you deserve. Sharon - Thank you for the emails - It's like soothing balm - to hear you explain your feelings - it makes me feel so much calmer. I have told my mum and DH about you all - and they ask about you daily! I agree we need a new thread now - this is rather a mamouth beast - but it has been such a security blanket - I can hardly bear to let it go! Silly huh! From the sounds of your email there may not be much peace and quiet at home this weekend - although that will make your head spin now - but the time will fly and when Monday arrives 3 days will have passed - and its only the passing of time that makes us feel better again. Here I go wishing yet more of my life away! As for me, Mum Dad and my Brother arrive soon, will be lovely to spend some time with them. My 2 best friends from work are descending on me early next week and so I will be surrounded by those I love. Can't think of a better place to be! I know I have a lot to work through - as this was the last treatment cycle - letting go of "the dream" will be the hardest thing ever - but I know it's the right decision - just have to get my heart to belive it now!!! You are all in my thoughts Lorraine xxxxxxx

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