October-December 2012 Cyclers!

[Tawny]

Sunshine- AF is not here yet. I started the BCP on last Tuesday 2 pills a day. Today is my last day of that so hopfully AF will show up really soon. If AF isn't here by Friday this round is over for me and I have to wait until the new year. My birthday is Saturday and this sounds funny but I'm hoping for AF as my birthday present.

[Pocos]

Ninde – I didn’t think about that! Thanks for mentioning it, I will ask her and let you know! I am so sorry about your clinic giving you a hard time, I wonder if you will even be comfortable to do another cycle with them after all this. Maybe it’s a good idea to switch now, good luck!

Sunshine – The meds are driving me crazy, last week a client was giving me a hard time over the phone and I just wanted to cry! My coworker saw I was not ok and told me he would handle it for me. I am so sorry your boss is not acknowledging your feelings! Not fair! I hope you have a better week! How was the baseline today?

Maria – Thanks! You are such a friend for all of us here. I am feeling better, my retrieval should be this week! Please keep me in your prayers, I really hope it works this time!

Tawny – Hahaha you are so funny! I would love to have AF as my birthday present as well if I were at your shoes, it’s just not fair! Please keep us posted, I hope AF arrives for you as soon as possible.

AFM – I can’t believe it, but I may trigger tonight or tomorrow night. Retrieval is going to be this week. We are hoping for a day 5 transfer this time if we have better embryos. I really hope it works this time…

[Tawny]

Pocos- Holy cow it's already that time??? good luck this week. Fingers Crossed!!!

[Sunshine1576]

Tawny- That does sound funny but I hope she comes for your birthday. Do you have any plans for your special day yet?

Pocos- Wow I cannot believe retrieval is already here for you, time has seen to flown by ha but you're not constantly reminding us about it either! I cannot wait for you to be PUPO!

AFM: My nerves are completely shot don't even know if venting will help! Today there was this customer with her arms were full of things, pg coworker said she had tried but she really wouldn't let her help her. So I walked over to the customer greeted her and asked if we can do anything, customer responded to the pg girl over there, can you let her know I need her. So she went over proceeded to take care of the customer out on the salesfloor. She struggled with her transaction a return so she called me over to help her and I did, yet the pg coworker walked off and left me with both transactions while I had a coworker waiting for me to ring her up. I managed fine no big deal but after they both left I called pg coworker back over to sign the return slip and told her we need to talk. I asked her what going on today, I can tell you are having a bad day and I'm concerned. She flat out told me I take things way too personal...She told me I could of taken care of the lady when she asked for her to come back over, said customer was indecisive and didn't know what she really wanted. I said seriously she asked for you girl, she said but you could of thought of something quickly on your feet and taken care of her. I was disturbed by her attitude and said how was I to know you are excluded from taking customers this is part of our job here you need to have more patience and respect for everyone you deal with. We ended having a chat in the backroom but nothing was really resolved. I went to lunch and then let her leave 30 minutes early today, but then she came back in tonight like nothing was wrong. Asked me if I had a smartphone so she could find an old friend from facebook's phone number. I found out she had a fight with her boyfriend last night. Yeah when she got home from the nice shower we threw her with over $400 worth of baby stuff, her boyfriend's mom asked for her to bring it all in so she could see what all she got. She refused to, said she didn't want all the stuff smelling like cig smoke the boyfriend got angry and then she packed up everything and moved out last night. She stayed at a hotel last night spending their little bit they had saved in the bank on the room and nobody tells me anything, well I know it's personal stuff but I cou;d had been more prepared to give her a little space? Tonight she storms back into the store asking if we had internet so she could get on facebook and find an old contact (her exboyfriend from high school) to crash over at his place tonight. Everyone (but me) offered to let her stay at their house but she turned the girls down when she finally got ahold of the ex. It felt like a slap in the face as one girl said. I know it's especially hard to read this, it's not healthy to ever compare, but I didn't cry because I'm still in shock keep telling myself she's about to get a taste of her own medicine. Bosshog asked me how I was doing today and I told her I feel numb honestly hadn't put much thought into it and besides in just a few months she'll be gone and we'll probably never see her again, of course boss disagreed with me said she really wants to come back, but I said let's be realistic she won't have money for daycare how else is she going to work and take care of the baby at the same time. She'll ask for more government assistance and never able to be stable on her own two feet. Sad story but I don't want to waste anymore of my time talking about her, she made her own decision she needs to accept responsibility AND grow up! The only way for that to happen is for everyone around her to stop giving her a free ride.

[Pocos]

Tawny – It’s that time again my friend! Please keep me in your prayers. I may be triggering tonight!! Cant believe it! Any news on AF?

Sunshine – I may be triggering tonight! I cant believe it! I am happy and scared at the same time. How is your cycle going? Your retrieval should be next week right!?
I am so sorry about your pain in the neck pregnant co-worker giving you a hard time. I completely agree that she will only grow up after people around her stop helping her. But its strange, people like that are so dramatic that they always find other people to help them so they can continue to be irresponsible.

[kynlee]

POCOS- Yah for triggering tonight Ill be cheering you on for your BFP... Saying lots of prayers

[Tawny]

Sunshine- The least that chick could have done is told you she was having a really rough day and not be all pissy about everything. I have a pretty big family here with all my cousins and there are like 6 birthdays in October. Ever since I can remember we have always thrown a big halloween bash to celebrate our birthdays. When I lived in Arizona I would fly here for the weekend to celebrate. We do the hole dress up thing and have a great time. This year and I think it's the first year I can remember that it's going to actually be on my birthday. I have been so good about not drinking the past year but I'm starting to slide on that I'm really tired of not being able to drink that I have decided to drink I'm not on any meds so I should be ok. Aperently my cousins have a plan to get me REALLY trashed but we will see. I'm going as a pirate from pirates of the caribean. If I can figure out how to post a pic I will on monday.

Pocos- I can't wait to hear about the rest of your week and how things are going. I took my last double dose of BCP last night so hopfully I start tomorrow or at least Thurday. Last time I stoped BCP I spoted day 2 and full flow day 3, but that was just normal BCP not a week of double dose I'm hoping it's not really bad because of that but I'll take it.

[Sunshine1576]

I feel guilty for bringing drama on this board with the obnoxious pg coworker, Bosshog was surprised we didn't get into it sooner. We can only tolerate so much and her attitude on the salesfloor was acceptable. Everyone is now talking about it at work, one girl wanted to call the other manager who offered her a place to spend the night and talk more about the drama but I told her it was getting late and we needed to get some rest. Didn't rest at all last night, good to have the afternoon off but my andreline is still running along with these crazy vicious hormones. I'll try to post later on a more positive note.

[nwquiz]

Sunshine its better at least to pour out your feeling here where friends can listen withoyt making judgement than let them kill you. Dont feel guilty. am silently cheering you and i always log in to catch up here. I admire you all. Wish i was in the game again. Now am thinking of being a surrogate to someone if dh gets on board.
Just rememeber dont let small thing get in the way.

[Ninde]

Tawny: I hope af comes!!

Pocos: as i said on fb - good luck!!!

Christy: im swearing to myself about the effect this is having on you. Im also furious that your boss insisted you should go to the shower and still cant understand why she is so invested in your co-worker. I do feel sorry for her but my loyalty is to you and not her and she is getting lots of attention anyway. At the same ti e I know that you need to be surrounded with positivity and strong support and protection because this is your time to nurture yourself. Im not sure if you even believe in energy but im going to encourage you to put on a protective energetic cloak each time you step through your doors in work. Imagine it coming down under your feet and over your head. Or picture yourself in a protective bubble which is flexible to allow in strength and others good wishes for you. Keep yourself safe through all of this, you need and deserve it x

Patricia

[Sunshine1576]

Tawny-
That birthday-halloween party sounds like so much fun and it will be a blast! Yep I cannot blame you for wanting something stronger then cola, now wait do you call it cola or soda or pop up there? I would so be there helping them get you trashed if only I could find a direct flight connection to IL!! Yep I absolutely need to see costume pictures I bet it's going to look great, I hope you ENJOY your birthday to the fullest!!

NW- I wish you could be my surrogate, I really had thought about going that route two years ago but dh thought I would miss out on all the joy of giving birth, lol yeah right- I hear it's no picnic!
So true I shouldn't let the small stuff get into the way. I know work becomes my world I spend so many more hours there then I do here at the house. I want that to CHANGE so my focus really needs to be on bringing home a baby. Thank you for always been there for support and reminding what it's all about.X

Pocos- Yes ma'am this is your trigger night, I cannot wait to hear your report tomorrow afternoon! I'm wishing you the very best keep us posted and try to get lots of rest.
Those meds make me loco too and I have cried more this month alone then all the months combined. It's crazy I get so wrapped up over the littliest thing, I cried over a dead animal on the side of the road. It's not just any highway to an international airport where you can see a dead hog on the side of the road but I got that and more. I was crying so hard that I called dh to call the animal control people to come out and get this poor creature which several passerbys including me thought was a labrador. The girls still give me a hard time about it to this day.
You asked about my first visit, there wasn't a whole lot of action still a bit early but I have two that are growing at the same rate. RE increased my meds and I go back in on Thursday morning. Anyway I'm wishing you the best and will be praying this is your time!

Patricia-
Naturally boss is more concerned about the "problem child" right now, she begs for attention so much it doesn't surprise me, but she did ask me how my appt went last Monday. She claims the pg coworker and I don't respect one another and that's where the big issue is, I still think it's affecting our overall morale. These emotions are 10 times worse right now and it's best that I keep some distance and focus on what's more important to breathe and not worry about things that are beyond my control. Why is this so hard, I take things way too personal I suppose... my blood pressure has been boiling all day!
Patricia you are right though I have to calm down and find strength when I walk back through those double doors at work, I must at least try. It's not going to be easy maybe... my districit manager tomorrow sees first hand what's been going on, I want more then anything to get the morale back up where it needs to be and focus on finding harmony and peace with everything going on! Only if I can make the girl invisible, maybe turn her into a toad or something. For now I'll take it one day at a time, do my job and "really really try" to leave it all there at work the best I can.


Bosshog made a big deal when she saw that I had requested off the first weekend of November, because she wanted that weekend off herself, apparently it didn't fall into the original rotating schedule she had already done. Seriously she just came back from vacation last week and we're all dying for time off, she has to remember we have personal needs too. Today one of the managers was training a new hiree and our boss scheduled this manager to take her lunch at 5, but at the same time the boss wanted to leave at 5. So the manager said this would mean I cannot leave the store and the boss said you can eat back in the stockroom, she responded no I've already been sitting back there for 2.5 hours training, if you're leaving at 5 today I'm going at 4:30 instead, she told me the boss just insisted she's still leaving at 5. Honestly everyone's nerves are shot right now, boss gets so wrapped up with the pg coworker's troubles she becomes unglued around us and it's driving us crazy.

Today while I was grocery shopping before heading home, I got a text from my very best friend, you know the one from Alabama who has been pursuing adoption since 2010 well today she texted me that she is five weeks pg and didn't want me to be mad because she really really knows how much I want this and wished more then anything we could be pregnant together. I called her back and told her I couldn't believe she felt she had to "text" me her good news but she interrupted me and said she is more nervous since her levels are dropping some. I told her 744 is still high for a beta even though it was 889 but it had increased from the 400s a week ago. Anyway even at 744 her nurse told her to be prepared for a D&C, she's already had 6 miscarriages since 2009 the least the nurse could of done was tell her to come back in a few days and we'll test again. I told her the nurse shouldn't crush her when her levels are still this high?

[Pocos]

Kynlee – Thank you!!

Tawny – Thanks! I hope AF shows up to you as soon as possible and doesn’t show up for me for a while LOL

Sunshine – Please don’t feel guilty! We are here for you. You are such a strong woman, I don’t know if I would be able to handle a pregnant drama queen like the one you have at work while I am TTC, going through IVF, hormones, etc. You have a lot in your plate right now and you have the right to be upset.

Ninde – Thank you! I have been praying for you too, you deserve this so much after all you have been through at work with that pregnant lady. I don’t know if I could handle it. I think I am too luck I work at a place with guys only ( I am the only female).

AFM – Triggered last night at 10pm! Retrieval is tomorrow morning, I have to be at the clinic at 8 30 am. I am feeling ok mentally and physically too, which is strange, my last 2 IVFs I was so bloated towards the end. The first one was a moderate/severe case of OHSS, the second one was a mild case. I am kind of worried I wont have enough eggs because my belly is not that big and I am not feeling bloated like before. I also had a dream with my grandmother who passed away 8 years ago (We were very close because I am the only one “female” grandchild, the other ones are boys) and she used to pray for me for for everything I had to go through (surgery, tests, college placement tests, etc) and in this dream she told me not to divorce my husband because he can’t live without me and I can’t live without him, and then she hugged me in my belly area, it was a long hug. So strange, I wasn’t thinking about her at all, I hope wherever she is, she is praying for me.

[Ninde]

Christy: i really hope you heard what i said as gentle rather than you have to be calm!! You deserve compassion and gentleness x

Pocos: what a beautiful dream. Im really delighted you had that experience and that your grandmother is watching over you. Im wishing you a smooth retrieval tomorrow and lots of good quality eggs x

Patricia/ninde

[meg734]

Hello Everyone,
I am new to the forum and will be starting my first IVf in Nov/Dec2012. I am doing my IVF at CCRM with Dr Schoolcraft. He was recommended by my local RE in Chicago IL.
Started with Electroacupuncture , Abdominal work with Physical therapy- reduce scar tissue after laproscopy
and supplements -through Nauropathe.- Larginine, NAC, reservatrol, pycongenol, Vit D, Myo-inosotol ( metagenics_Cenitol)

Anyone reccomendation which fertility pharmacy has better price rate for Meds?

Me -33 years Unexplained Infertility, small uterine cavity otherwise everything good)
Husband -35years
TTC- 4 years
First RE consultation DrMichael Hickey Jan 31 2011
4 IUIs Feb -July ,2012
Consult with Dr Kim-Kawk (Immunologist) Dec 2012
Treatment Protocol May- July 2012
Laproscopy and hysteroscopy July 2012
Telephone consultation with Dr Schoolcraft - Aug27,2012
ODWU in Colarado - Sep 17,2012
Day 3 Bloodwork Mailed - Oct 1,2012
Followup Telephone consult withDr School OCt 11,2012
Tentative Calendar- PROTOCOL 6 - Doxycycline , Estrace,Cetrotide,lupron, Menopur, gonal -f
Start Estrace and Cetrotide 11/14
Start Lupon 11/22
Tentative Egg Retrival- Dec 5th 2012
Embroy transfer Dec 10 2012.

[Hbyrnzy]

I am a first time ivf'er! I started my process Monday and all is going well so far! Not feeling stressed but still a little lost in the process! Any advice?