Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Camilla - your right we are all busy, the Buds will never finish

Have been working hard, trying to exercise and find a house so havent been around much. No luck with any houses yet, will just have to keep hunting.

My Mum has been on holiday and when she returned we were chatting about how i was feeling about the op coming up. She then announced "hope everything will be ok, have been thinking lately that it would be great to have some grandchildren running around" (this from a woman who always told us we can have a better life without kids and not to have them). I felt so much pressure and feel sad im stopping Mum, dh etc having a child around, more guilt and stress to deal with

Anyway i do feel a bit stressed about the op but i want it TODAY so i can start the next cycle the months are not going quick enough.
I also dont like the fact that i have to turn up on the day of the op and then discuss the clamping/removal option with the consultant. I dont think thats fair to make a big decision like that on the day but the Doc says she will discuss my concerns with the consultant so she knows . All seems a bit scatty to me but im still sticking with the clamping first.

So what has everyone else been up to?

Walshy - Glad to hear from you. Log in more often and we'll have a chat. Will also tell my dh to get writing to your Marcus.

Littles - Hope your ok in that heat over in Dubai. I know your sensible and will be chilling out somewhere, i would be lying in the sun You must be getting excited now about your FET?

Loopy - Hope your ok Bud, am thinking of you and sending a big hug

Camilla and Steph - Hows the bumps? Oh i so desperately hope we can open our own Octo Bud Bump thread with everyone of us chatting about our little babies Take care

Ok, off to work again then have the weekend off The kids were at Alton Towers and come back today so they will be hyper .

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Hola laydehs

Man, is it hot here in London! Me n dh are like dazed wasps.
So how're the octoblerones?
Didn't want to give the wrong impression about my arms lengthness. I'm not p*ssed off with the ivf thing. Its just I've had a rough 2 years for many many reasons. When the exam was over, I started to feel normal again, like my old self y'know, got my sense of humour back. Thinking about the ivf thing makes me feel like a victim, thats too strong, a patient and it is so nice not to feel like that for a while. You understand? Anyhoo, still check in on my buddies!
Notice R is a bit absent too.... when does your fet start?
So Jen counting down to Operation: Operation whilst cooling about in the mini?? Is it as hot in Scotland? Is too much!
Walsheroo - preperandoing, slowly slowly catchy monkey. I'm off to watch an Aussie rules game in a few weeks - will think of you!!
Steph flasher - which cheeks were pink???? Have a bueno vaykay. As you are tickerless.... how many weeks are you now??? PS you have a wonderful "rock" voice.... kudos dude.
Camilla - man, I feel sorry for you in this heat! Cool baths and lots of water for you.
So, news from lolaville, the guy at checkout in M&S asked me if I was over 18 because I was buying (yet more) fizzy wine today!!!! heh heh heh woo hooo. He was probably taking the mick but I am choosing to take it on face value - a girl needs some checkout lovin' occasionally, right?
The folk at work have been very sweet about my exam thing and have made new sign for my office with my new letters. dr Lola, M.I.N.X. If only that were true - mucho hilaridad
Have finished organising our holiday to La France next week, have a little farmhouse on a hill. I'm really excited about it, wine, cheese and lo-o-o-ve.
La vida esta Buena compadres!
Ok then amigas, stay gold pale riders!
take care
Lola
xxxxxxxxx

[camilla]

Hello friends

Good to hear from everyone.

Lola - Sure you'll have a fab hol next week. I know what you mean about feeling normal and your hol is bound to help. Wine, how I'd love a glass!

Steph - Have a great hol too! Your "cheeky" tale made me laugh, could only happen to you!

Jen - First don't put so much pressure on yourself. Your mum just made one comment, don't dwell on it. As far as the op, do you have a pre-assessment appt with the hospital (a few days before op)? Otherwise don't worry, it will be alright. Trust me the stress of the worry won't help. Enjoy your weekend off. Forget about everything and enjoy the sun as you're obviously a sun bunny.

Little R and Walshy - Hi, not long for you girls.

Don't want to wish your lives away but it will soon be happening for you.

Me - Hot, yes. Tired, increasingly so. Ready, think so!

Love and hugs.

Camilla xxxxx

[little R]

Dearest Octobuddies....FINALLY I CAN POST!!!!
We (the whole country) have been having internet connection issues because they have decided to uproot and work on some undersea cables just of the coast.......it will last until 26th and after so many unsuccessful tries, I finally gave up trying to post ..it was taking forever to download a page and then nothing....PFFF.
I have not forgotten about you and let me say "VIVE our thread.... it will never dwindle!"

Walshy... you must be getting super dooper excited....I have the date of 26th in my head.... is there a reason for that? Is that your commencement date? Sorry if I am wrong...I can't go back and check...pages take forever to load and re-load! Thank you for the info about the book... will try and get DH to purchase when he's next Downunder. I hope you have heaps of PMA.... I will be around (technology permitting!!!) to encourage you!


Jen, lass...I am pale and you are tanned.... he he he I have been avoiding contact with the sun... in a city not far from here temperatures have risen above 50°C. You can fry an egg on the car bonnet Dangerous to be out in the heat here....in fact, just the other day the paramedics had to resuscitate a young lady who had got lost and then sandstuck with her 4x4 just off the beach. They had to send a helicopter to retrieve and revive her....so trying to avoid a serious case of dehydration and sunstroke.... but may venture out tomorrow! I'll be thinking of you glowing in your mini, cruising the streets of your home town I know it's really silly to say "don't feel guilty" because we all do at some point...... don't be sad...I know what you mean about the months dragging on...it's funny I feel like I'm living in slow motion. I guess I feel a little out of it...I can't even believe that my FET is just around the corner. I feel tired.... for the moment.

Lola, super to see you pop in....... you must be very very excited about your stay in France.... romantic DH and I will want to head down to Tuscany in September if I am up the duff.... otherwise I would like to go to South Africa, Kruger park for a safari. We haven't had real holidays together/alone since our Honeymoon...pfff! I don't count Switzerland because as much as I love it, it's always about chores, administrative duties and family and friends!

Steph.... happy holidays!!! yippeee...hope you have heaps of books ready... enjoy getting up late and being leisurely...it's certainly deserved Sorry (!!), had to smile about your-skirt-tucked-in-your-knickers ordeal... I can't believe no one mentioned it before to you when you were walking around Grey's on again on Monday.... it just gets better and better.... when does it start back again in the US? In the fall? You'll have to tell me...as I could be waiting for Season 3 for years!

Camilla.... you must be ready to pop....I can't imagine having to deal with the heat in your state.... you must take care... soon, soon, soon... so exciting to finally meet your little bundle... and know what it is!!! Yes, nerves of steel for not caving in to the suspense!!


MUCH love to you all..... not much time today as DH is around... and he hasn't been for a while...

Little R

[Jen1d]

Hi Girls

Oh Steph-----the shame . I would have run away and hid then hit my mate for not noticing . Just pray you never see that car again.

Loops - Great to hear from you and glad your feeling a bit better and won't leave us. Yep its hot here too but not as bad as i remember it in my flat in London---too sweaty for words down there. Could handle the heat but when i was working and it was muggy and dirty yuck, too much.

Littles - Yep i love the sun but sounds a bit scary at your place. You take it easy and get that pool sorted or better go for a nice Starbucks in the AC---is there one close----oh no forgot you should be off the cafe lattes too near your FET. Stick to the water lovely

Camilla - Think your right i was being a bit sensitive about my Mum. It's just so hard as i feel my life is on hold and i would be more content if the ivf would work for us. Anyway must be patient eh. Hope you've got your feet up

Walshy - Where you hiding again. Your life must be to exciting. Pop in for a chat.

Ok, off to see who is evicted from BB. Enjoy your weekend and the sun

Love Jen x

[Walshy]

Hello Lovely Ones,

Well it is Sunday night and after a hectic weekend thought I would spend a few minutes catching up on where everyone is at...

Little the 26th is my appoitnemnt with the Dr to start the next round. I am hoping it goes something like this-
Yes you can start right now and because your so nice and tried hard to lose weight and drink green stuff while also doing accupuncture we are going to do the cycle for free....... I can dream. When are you starting your FET?

Camilla how are you doing we need your due date so that we can count down the days same goes for you to Steph! You said you were ready do you have a plan set out for what to do or are you just going to take it as it comes. I always joke and say to my DH that I will be requesting the drugs before I even get to the hospital. I will call ahead and book them so they can meet me in the parking lot. Of course I will let you know what the Dr says..You guys are my rocks....

Steph OMG I read your post and laughed with amusement and embarrassment for you.. I am sorry but I love those kind of stories coming from other people because they usually are coming from me. I hope you have a great vacation is there any internet cafes around so you can pop in to say hi to us as I know you don't have a computer tisk tisk what will happen when the baby comes along

Dr Lola Has your head returned to a nice size. Your going to France *sigh* I wold love to go there... I hope you have a great time and rekindles the love with your DH and come back Steph style up the duff and not having to do another round of IVF. Aussie rules ooh la la that is the only game that I sometimes watch the man are so oiled and have a hard look to them with a nice body. Enjoy sister enjoy this ones on me

Jen full steam ahead for this operation and then onto your next cycle. Any house on the horizon yet? How is your exercising going? Have you managed to lose anything since you last lost the 3 pounds? I am still sitting on the 9 1/2 pound mark mind you I havn't been the healthiest eater or doing that much exercise but it all starts Monday, that's my motto except i start every Monday.

My DH and I have been talking and we have hatched a plan B incase this cycle doesn't work (which of course it will). We will if there are frosties left we will do a few FET cycles back to back and if for some reason we are not pregnant by Dec 2006 we are throwing in the towel on the TTC rollercoaster. We fell it is taking up to much of our lives and we have put everything on hold for it ie. do we buy a house or not, do we get a new car or not, do we go overseas etc. If for some reason we don't get what we want we will then sell our stuff and head over to the UK to do the Aussies travelling adventure.

Do any of you ladies have MSN you know where you can chat with people when they are on line? I know it is a long shot for us to be online all at the same time but you never know.

So only a few more sleeps until I start again yippee bring it on i say. My Dh is excited just not too excited about the psycho wife I apparently become. Bye, Walshy

[little R]

Hey my favourite Octopals...

Well it sounds as if we all have sun except perhaps our friend downunder!
Apparently temperatures are off the chart in Switzerland too.... however, they still won't beat us

Wow...lovely long mail Walshy...
I can totally understand about the cut-off date as our TTCs are roughly the same and DH and I are also fed up that the whole thing is ruling our lives and that decisions pending upon whatifs are so tough to put up with. It's becoming a bore to be honest. We are also leaning in favour of dropping everything by end of 2006. I want a new year with a new beginning...I don't want to be this person anymore. I want to make my own decisions based on what I want and not organise my life around the uncertainty... basically I don't want to be infertile anymore...I want to be FREE. WE definitely should chat..I have msn messenger. I am the "closest" to you in hours so we could definitely get together for a chat anytime.... technology depending
Thanks for the update about your appointment.... only a few more days before the moment of truth. I'll be crossing my fingers that everything goes according to plan and you start ASAP....bring on number 3, I say....let there be basket fulls of eggs so you can have as many FETs as possible.
I am in good spirits today as Grey's is on tonight ....yipppeee

Jen, love..... so how are you doing? I bet you're just can't get enough of the mini....you sexy lady!
I trust that you moral is good and that you are enjoying the sun....it certainly sounds like you like to "soak" You should come here in the winter...perfect weather for that You get nicely baked rather than burnt like now! Without sounding too nuts...what is BB? Bed & Breakfast? Or Bold & Beautiful? We get the later here in Dubai...BUT all the steamy scenes are cut out....so what's the point of watching, right?

Camilla.... hope you are okay and not fed up with your state... wishing the time to pass quickly for you so you can soon meet up with your little one. Hey.... it will be our first Octobaby... how cool is that?! Please take care in the heat....

To the funny holiday bunnies... Steph and Lola... hope you're soaking up the sun... knocking back the water and the wine respectively... you both deserve some serious time-out. Thinking about you lovelies....

Much love to you all... will post again soon...but honestly not much going on here...except, hot, hot, hot... I am a scratched CD

Hugs,

Littles

[Jen1d]

Hi lovelies

Well the sun is out again yyiipppeeee. You see its not true what they say about Bonny Scotland, we do get lots of sun too.

Walshy - Good to hear from you button. Just wanted to say that your plan sounds good, especially the travelling bit but your still so young and have years to try for a baby so dont give up---but i do understand about life being on hold. We were like you, should we buy a 2/3 bed house, new car etc etc but we decided to crack on with life and get what we want and if the ivf works then its a huge bonus. We're only here once right, so we may as well enjoy it.

Littles - Oh its so near now, you lucky thing. I will be sooooo excited when i see a big BFP on the screen BB-Big Brother, do you get that in Dubai? You brought back memories for me though. I used to watch Bold and the Beautiful when i lived in Milan, we never missed it but yep i agree whats the point without the steamies and its not as if the Arabs are not doing it too Now go and lie down in the AC and dream of your BFP.

Loops - Are you baking in London--i bet. What are your plans for the ivf trail. How long will you try for your bundle of joy?
I order you back to the sight now. I know you need some time out and space but we're going to be very selfish here and want your company, we miss you mad girl-----are they all like that in Wales?? The 2 on BB are---have you been watching it?

Camilla and Steph - Well girls are you managing to stay cool with the growing weight round your waistlines?? It must be so exciting to go through watching your body change and knowing your growing your little baby, cant wait for that

Well we were out at the weekend, meant to be for a meal only, but for someone who never drinks i did exceptionally well on Sat night and suffered for it on Sun, but what a ball we had. Remember i told you about the boy (will call him Jay) who lived in my unit and i gave him respite care, well it was his 16th birthday so we ended up going to his party, which wasnt planned and had a great time. Jay rang me when we were out and wanted to see me, he is like a son to me and although he has a Mum who llives about 15 mins from him, he hardly visits her as she is drug dependant and says i am more like a Mum to him----he is gorgeous. At least i have him if all else fails eh Only saw my bed for about 3 hrs So after a day of recovery yesterday i am fine and off to work this afternoon.

Anyway forgot to say. We need a wee list with all our new dates for babies, tests, cycles etc again as i forget everything (happens when you get nearer 40 ) So i will start the list, can you all add on, thanks

Tubal Op - 16th Aug 06
Cycle 3 (hope) - Nov 06

Love and hugs

Jen x

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Where are you all?? Please come out to play
Just back from work so will log in tonight and tomorrow to see if your about.

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

oi oi lasses
Just a quick one as I am a bit drunk.
First off - good luck Walsher tomorrow (today where you are) hope all goes to your plan and head off to babyville! Woo hoo!!!!
Hello to the rest o me girls.
Littles when do you start??? Jen 16th is v near now....
Stephanwywch on vay.kay. and camilla hot n almost ready to pop by now?
My due date was tomorrow. Which is my birthday. Which is ok, I'm ok about it. Except I'm 37 which is WAY OLD.

Anyhoo, went to see McFertile today. I have a hydrosalpinx the size of Turkmenistan. So. have to have it removed.......am having lots of symptoms and he thinks it is affecting my chances ivf-wise and in his words I have been through a lot so GET RID!
Plan is to try and get done privately and get my insurance to pay.
Either way, will have it done in about a month and then will cycle again in ?Oct - octoblerones forever!
Can't wait to be shot of evil -pinx but thinking about it am a bit hacked off that this will be my third operation in Tube-onia. Realised that he is right, I have been through a lot. My journey to parenthood has been a sack o cacko. But. I will prevail!!! or maybe thats the Cosmos talking...

So, that is my update. I'm off to hydrate to avoid hangover, will check in morrow
love, lola
xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hi Loops

Good to have you back. Happy Birthday, sounds like you are enjoying it I feel like you about my age but hey as everyone keeps telling me, there are loads of people having kids later so why not us eh.
Our tubes are crapster eh. One bloody thing after another but we have to look on the positive side (even thought its soooo hard) and think the ops are for the best so the evil hydro can be removed then we will be nearer to our dream of a baby Plus you can start to cycle before me----you lucky thing but i know you will be about for all of us

Walshy - Let us know your news, hope all went well.

Had a shocker today. Jay my ex-keychild always says that i have been more of a mum to him than his own mum. Anyway he came on the phone today and said "hi Mum", i just laughed and said hi back. He is never usually so forward but obvioulsy after the party at the weekend he is starting to be more open with me about his feelings as he is maturing so much. It didnt bother me that he was joking about calling me mum but after the call i just felt crap. I just want to have someone call me mum and to love me the way he does but its taking so long and will i every get my dream--------god i hope so Am trying to stay positive

Catch you all tomorrow

Love Jen x

[Walshy]

Well round three has officially began

Appointment with the Dr today and we have decided it is full steam ahead. I sat in the chair and demanded that I have a full cycle with ICSI and Blastocyst embryos and that 2 embies are put back in (something that he was not keen on). He had a teaching Dr in the room with him and he said to her that I am a women on a mission and know what I am talking about. I also take charge and know exactly what I want.

So I have start provera to bring on AF (she is always missing) and then start my injections of 225ml of Gonal F to bring on the follicles. Af is going to be horrendous as I haven't had one since my cancelled FET cycle in May.

Sorry I don't have times for personals today my DH and I are going to celebrate our new cycle.

It was great to read updates from you Jen and Lola your both on the same tubo island. I have my fingers crossed that your ops run smoothly.........Also great to hear from you to LIttle R. Where is Steph and Camilla??? How is everyone else going I hope you are all doing well.... OK time to go and eat and have a drink (only 1 as I don't want to undo my weightloss by the way is up to 10 and 1/2 pounds.....

Talk to you all again tomorrow.......Cheers, Walshy

[Jen1d]

Washy thats brilliant news,

You and Littles can have a Big Fat Positive then me and Loopy will follow----PERFECT.
I like girls who are right to the point and can sort the Doc out. Good luck babe

No news here. Went to see another house and loved it but the Council tax in nearly £200 a month like a second mortgage

Back to work tomorrow for the next 7 days but i'll pop in and out, can't leave my Buds

Love Jen x

[camilla]

Morning Girls

Sorry I've been absent this week but Henry has started his summer hols and so my usual routine has changed. August looks to be a busy month! With .....

Walshy - Cycling away! Will keep an eye on your progress. Good luck girl.

Jen - Op coming up soon - remember to think of it as a next step. Positive thoughts!

Little R - FET. Dates please when you know them!

Lola - Getting your op done privately will speed things up so let us know when.

Steph - I'm sure you're taking care of yourself. We need you to help bolster the PMA of the girls. A few more embarrassing moments should do it!

I shall be in and out of here so apologies if it's not every day. I am also feeling baby imminent (but could be wrong!). Doing it a second time doesn't make me feel any more confident! Hope I can stay calm and focused.

Anyway love as always.

Camilla xxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Well have just returned from another sleepover and i'm exhausted so will be a quick one.

Walshy - How you doing with your cycle? Has AF raised its ugly head yet? When do the injections start?

Littles - When is everythng happening for you? I have forgotten all the dates and started a little list but nobody continued it . Let me know whats happening with you, how do you feel about the FET cycle?

Loopy - Hope you managed to have a nice birthday, given the circumstances? Are you feeling a bit more positive about your next step?

Camilla - Is that bump still feeling like its on the way?

Steph - Dont leave us, we want to know all your news and selfishly we need your support.

Not long to go now for me, only 16days but i'm still concerned about my decision and don't know if i'm doing the right thing about the clamping/removal thing Will just have to wait until the 16th and hope they make the right decision for me. Although i desperately want the Big 3 to be here, it has actually been quite nice to chill out without thinking about the ivf thing so much.
PLEASE JUST LET IT WORK THIS TIME

Chill out gals, will see you soon

Love Jen x