Summer cycle group

[moorebaby]

fitz- sweetie i'm so sorry! did they say what may have went wrong? my heart breaks for you. please, if you need to chat or vent or whatever, we're all here for you. (((HUGS)))

[dys24]

fitz- I'm so sorry (hugs)

moore- I'm sorry you are feeling down but dont read too much into mr.google! Here is a inspiration that your embies will make it. So at my transfer day they put back my 2 good embies and i had 5 left all were grade 4 and we go to the same clinic so they were same as yours. Guess what? nurse told me today 1 made it to a perfect blast!!!! and they froze it.! so here is your PMA for today! you embies will make it! On another note you are really an inspiration your post made me cry and i feel you are such a strong woman for telling your dh that you are willing to do DE thats just so sweet i can tell you guys love each other so much!

AFM- my spotting seems to be going away. Talked to the nurse and she said its normal implantation bleeding especially if i have a +hpt she saids its normal as long as there is no major cramps/heavy bleed and she was very surprised about my +hpt on 6dp my transfer. I didnt test any earlier so i have no idea if i would of had a + on day 5 anyway, she said she thinks it might be twins because she rearly hears about such an early positive. whatever it is i hope everything is ok and I'm keeping my PMA. She says they cant do any early b/w since 8dpt is way too early. So waiting till monday it is. She said even if its something bad they cant do nothing about, whatever that wasnt nice but she isnt the brightest nurse on the planet...

[fitzjr11]

they didnt say much except they were sorry and to take some time and call when ready to discuss, which i dont think im gonna do- just gonna walk away. We said this would be our last attempt, so at 33 yr old i am accepting or trying to accept that my family consists of me DH and the dog

[lou71]

Fitz -- I'm really sorry for the BFN. Will you move on to a FET? You had so many embies. If so, we might be together again. Mine is Oct 15th.

Es -- Yeah, I would totally remove the names of ladies who haven't posted in a long time. They can always be added back if they rejoin. How are you doing in the 2ww?

Lauren319 -- How's crazy town? Are you POAS every day??

Margi -- Nice to hear from you. i know how hard a m/c is. Do you have any children? I don't and I sometimes worry that my 12 week pregnancy will be the closest I ever get to having a child. It's so sad. Take the time you need to grieve and regroup and come back fresh for another round. We'll be here.

Lauren1171 -- I'm really sorry for your failed cycle also. Your swan story was pretty sad. I'd cry too. Have a great time on the cruise. My FET will be 10/15... yours should fall close to mine.

klinger -- Glad you're moving on with another IVF cycle. Any dates yet?

dys -- congrats on a positive HPT! Don't worry about spotting too much. It's common in IVF cycles.

Tammy -- How are you doing? I feel really bad for you this cycle. I thought for sure with FOUR that one would stick. I grew up an only and I turned out fine, so will Zach. Don't feel guilty for not giving him a sibling. I'm sooo glad you were able to have a beautiful baby when you were 39. Especially on your first IVF. I'm turning 38 in a few months and have been cycling for a year straight. I don't think it's over for you. You make embies. I think if you are able to be persistent, then you will get pregnant again. Thinking of you.

DCRunningMama-- Welcome! Lot's of support here. Best wishes on your cycle.

Tiger -- So happy for your attitude. It's supposed to make a difference you know. Your IUI is coming up so fast! This is it girl!!!

Cakes -- Sorry for your beta limbo. Is there an u/s scheduled? I really hope you continue to get good news.

I know I didn't get to everyone, but I'm thinking of you all.

AFM -- I'm really down about this cycle. Taking it harder than any of the others. I haven't slept well and I have no appetite. Ugh. I talked to my clinic and it looks like my FET will be on Friday 10/15. So I guess technically I'm not really part of the summer group anymore. Kinda makes me sad too. I definitely am here to cheer on my girls though. Let's get some BFP's!

[moorebaby]

dys- awe thanks so much...that did make me feel better! so your little grade 4 made it to blast? that's awesome...congrats! twins, huh? you ready for that w/ a 7 month old, lol? was the nurse marcia?

fitz- oh honey, my heart is just breaking for you. 1st of all, if that is your & dh's dinal decision, then that's a respectable decision. but just revisit that decision when you're emotionally healed (or as healed as possible) & see if there are other options that you & dh would consider. believe me, if you read my last post, our options are really limited right now b/c both partners have to be on the same page & agree...you can't force someone to make such a big decision. but time goes on & people reflect & thoughts on parenthood change. basically what i'm saying is take all the time you need to grieve & then re-visit the thought of parenthood. again, i feel so awful...your pma was good & i was sure this was going to be your time. i know you went through a really difficult time your previous cycle & i have NO idea what that was like, but you're a very strong woman!

lou- thanks for your imput about the list. haha, have you read 1 of my most recent posts? i'm as ok as i can be i guess. trying to hold on to that pma! whatever group you'll be a part of, i will be stalking you like crazy!

[fitzjr11]

thanks for all the support, DH is 50, will be 51 in Sept and we said that we wouldnt try after he's 50 so we are done

[moorebaby]

-nbfun (Nancy)
-turtle0619 (Franny)… trying again in September (start meds on 8.26)
-klinger13 (Amanda)… trying in September
-karin1… moving on to the donor route, but still trying the old-fashioned way
-margi26



-blairwh58 (Tentative FET is 8.24)
-missmerrilee
-lou71… moving on to a FET



-chilipepperrose46 (Start Lupron around 8.20)
-rypell 1985 (Ryann) (On BCP’s until 8.21 & start stims on 8.26)
-Lauren1171… moving on to a FET in late September/beginning of October



-amaut- Lupron until 8.19 (FET w/ 2 frosties possibly on 9.7)
-hopeforbabies (Teresa)- Lupron as of 8.17



-rebeccajm
-DCRunningMama
-Tiger04 (Start the Femara on 8.20 & then IUI should be around 8/28-8/29…depending on how things progress)






-iwannabeamommy2 (Jenny)… BETA on ???
-TammyS… BETA on 8.23
-dys24… BETA on 8.23
-Lauren 319… BETA on 8.25
-mcfarland2213 (Ashley)… BETA on ???
-moorebaby (Ester)… BETA on 8.30



-maggieluv- Beta: 6.30- 228
-sunshine and stars- Betas 7.12- 586/ 7.14- 1449
-annpage- Betas: 7.17- 281/ 7.19- 577/ 7.26- 6,309
-dlk (Didi)… Betas: 7.27- 161/ 7.29- 363
-JustLikeHannah (Renee’)… Betas: 8.12- 317/ 8.16- 2,318/ 8.20- ???
-cakes0502… Betas: 8.13- 21/ 8.16- 32/ 8.18- 47/ 8.20-154

on your journey

-DandMe (Sonya)
-tohavefun08 (Chris)… taking some time off & doing a cycle w/ donor eggs in summer 2011
-amanda1979… trying again in October
-annashope… hopefully September is the lucky month
-Sher… possibly trying again in September
-miyaya… moving on with either another cycle or adoption
-kbillsy
-Jenna21
-fitzjr11

[DCRunningMama]

Hi Ladies--

Thanks for letting me join in a little late. Went back for monitoring today and the RE said that things looked much better and said that he thinks there will be some eggs in there. Still wouldn't give me a definite number, but showed me that they were tracking 10 follies. I noticed about 4 that were over 20mm (some even 21, 22 mm), so that's good news. Retrieval is tomorrow, so we'll see.

moore: what were your embies like the first time? you never know with these things. sometimes you can put in great embies and they don't make it and sometimes you put in crappy ones and they do. for my FET, we put in the highest grade embie and it didn't make it. these things are out of our control. (says the girl who was sobbing yesterday b/c there were only possibly two eggs...I guess being "zen" comes and goes.)

fitz: i hope you find peace. i know you have this deadline that you've come up against and maybe for right now you've taken all that you can emotionally, but these deadlines are self-created. Of course, part of me knows what its like to just want this phase of your life to be over.

Tammy: I HATED the PIO shots. Do progesterone. That's what I did w/ my son & he "stuck" so to speak.

OK--signing off. I think I'm going to go get myself a pedicure.

[turtle0619]

fritz so sorry! that stinks!!

es omg hun! please dont google!! you know that will make you go crazy right away. i will be home tomorrow and will have tons of time to keep you busy and away from crazytown. trust me...i am the mayor of the place and it sucks!! when is your beta?? you know my story about 2 perfect embies and my BFN. i think its even harder when you are told everything is perfect and then nothing. look at it as getting a great big happy surprise when you do get your BFP!! its really out of our hands at this point...maybe some acupuncture and some pineapple are in order. you have 2 beautiful weeks left before having to go back to school so try to enjoy them. PMA PMA PMA!! i am here for you always!!
your story about DH made me cry because i've said the same thing to my DH before. i feel so guilty being the one with the problem, and putting him through all of this when if he just married someone else he would have a family already. i know i know...crazy talk, but IF can make us all crazy with guilt! of course DH said the same thing you did, and of course i know we are in this together, and we got married because we loved each other and wanted to be together forever..not just to have a bunch of kids. its still really hard! i'm sure everyone here understands! with DH it was different though because when i said i was ok with donor egg, he wasnt, because he thinks "its either both of ours or none of ours".
we will move on to adopt embryos if IVF doesnt work. we have a few more chances because of insurance (thank god) but we have already decided that our most logical step for having a baby would be though embryo adoption.
ok...well my lil tangent should be enough to keep you busy for a lil bit! haha i love you tons and am crossing everything i have to cross for you mama!! xoxo

tammy did you have your beta today?? what happened? i usually get AF about 4-6 days after stopping meds.

lauren please try to have fun on your cruise!! i'm thinking of you. enjoy the fresh ocean air and some fruity drinks...come back relaxed and ready for the next round!! i'll be here with you!!!

lou still thinking about you!! you are so strong! xoxo

kilinger omg hun...i think i missed what happened to you!! i am so sorry i am so far behind on the boards. my heart is breaking! how are you? what are you going to do now?? thats soooooo scary and soooo not fair!! ((((((hugs)))))) i feel terrible i'm just responding now, but know my heart is with you and DH!

tiger nice nurses make all the difference dont they??? i'm so glad you are going to keep trying, and with a new protocol. i just know it will happen for you, but i'm sorry it is taking longer then expected. atleast you get to try every month and not have to wait in between like most of us IVF gals!! xoxo

ryann is today your last day of BCP's??? woooohoooo if it is!! i hate those things. i'm excited we'll be starting meds together. i wont be stimming yet, but will be doing a week of estrogen patches and cetrotide before i get AF, and then start stimming. so i might be a week behind you, but close enough to cheer each other on!! hows you dad (or FIL?) doing??

teresa i miss you!! when do you start stims??? soon right?? thinking of you!

karin any news on the donor front?? did you sell your house?? miss you!!

lauren319 way way wayyyyyyyy too early to POAS you crazy girl! i know once you start you cant stop so i hope you bought stock in HPT's!! I have a feeling you are going to be a POAS queen!!! keep up that PMA ok???

afm will be home tomorrow!! i have tons to go back and read over. baby in a box comes monday!! cant believe i'm starting this all over again so soon, but i'm glad i'm not in TTC limbo either.
hope everyone is having a great day!!

***much love always***

[hopeforbabies]

Ester- I know exactly how you feel when your DH said you could leave him so you could have a family. My DH said the same exact thing after our first failed cycle. It kind of hurt my feelings that he thought I only loved him so we could have children. We have been married 7 years but together 12 and we have only been on our ART journey for a year! I told him that the problems werent all on his end as we both have issues and that if we didnt have children that I would be happy with just him and our 4 fur children.

Tiger- I am glad you are feeling better and that your next IUI is right around the corner!

Franny- I'll say welcome home now since I'll be busy with my brother's wedding this weekend and wont be on when you are officially back! Yay for Baby in a box arriving soon!

Lauren1171- Hope your trip relaxes you and refreshes you for your FET when you get back! Have a pina colda for me they're my favorite!

Fitz- I am so sorry and I wish you and your DH the best of luck in where ever life leads you!

Ryann- Its awesome that I will be just a day behind you and will have a buddy for the whole 2ww.

Tammy- When my chemical happened last cycle I stopped the PIO and AF was here in three days (of course I was already spotting on and off). Sorry again if its a BFN. When do you get that beta?

Ashley- Just wanted to give you an official Hurray for being PUPO! I hope your two little embies are snuggling in well.

AFM- Lupron is going well I have only had one headache the day I started it and I take my last BCP tomorrow. I'm in the wedding party for my brother's wedding tomorrow so I'm looking forward to that. I'm a little worried about all the questions I'm sure I'll get since my entire family knows we are doing IVF. Anyway, I hope everyone has a great weekend and I'll check back in with you on Monday.

[moorebaby]

ok so i just had a random thought pop into my head....for those of you who are veterans of this site, do you remember when the site was shut down b/c they were "remodeling" it & we couldn't "talk" w/ each other for what felt like AGES???!!! well, what if that happened again or it just got shut down for whatever reason? how would i keep in touch w/ you wonderful ladies???

so if you feel comfortable, maybe we can share each other's email addresses?

so here's my email: ester078@yahoo.com

[TammyS]

It's official...it's Negative. 4 embryos this cycle and it still didnt work!? I'm sitting here having a glass of wine while Zach naps...and trying to hold it together.

I just spoke to the nurse and then the doctor called me too. He wants to keep going with the microdose lupron flare protocol which works soooo well for me...but change the 1 dose of 225 follistim to menopur instead...and keep the other dose of follistim the same....it may or may not help with egg quality. It's really about my age at this point vs. anything else anymore (like Bill's morphologoy issues and my fibroids). The doctor thinks our chances of bringing home a baby are still 20-25%. Down Syndrome at my age being 1 in 50 or 60. He says that my egg quality does not mean more of a chance of DS...which was one of my concerns.

I am willing to try 1 more time at this point.

Fitz...it breaks my heart that you are wanting to give up at this point. Take some time to grieve and dont be afraid to change your mind. We did. We were very adamant about not trying again after using our frozen embryos from Zach's cycle because those eggs were from when I was 39...and here we are still going at it at 42. Follow your heart.

Ester...Please move me back to the top again.

Hey girls...
There are sooo many of us cycling again in September and in October. I'm confused as to whether I should stay here...move to the September board or start an October board. I'd love to see us all together again. I want to continue on this board regardless to continue to root on everyone still trying this summer...yet I kinda want to see us all start on a new board for a feeling of change of luck..if you know what I mean. I just dont want to see us split up between a September board and an October board....my next cycle will be on the verge of both anyhow. What should we do?

[moorebaby]

tammy- i'm so sorry (((HUGS))) maybe you can start a fall cycle, so that way everyone who will be cycling in september october, & even november, can be together. i'm planning on being preggo (lol!), but if that doesn't work out, the fall may be when we'd try again. who knows though?

[chilipepperrose46]

Hi All,
SOO SORRY!!! Life's been crazy and will be for at least another week. Cleaned carpets today. Painted 1 bedroom yesterday and started the other 1 yesterday. All that cleaning to prepare for bridezilla..er..my brother in laws fiance the get ready for the wedding here next Friday. Ugh!! Anyway, I was 10 pages behind in reading your posts! Baby in Box arrived Tues.
I stop bc pills Sat 8-28, baseline on Tues 9-1, and start Lupron, Follistim and Menopure on Wed 9-2. Getting excited and nervouse! We'll see how this goes. So sorry about all the bad news I've been reading I'll do personals later.
Love hugs and baby dust to all,
Chili

[klinger13]

Tammy - I'm so very sorry about the BFN! I am glad though you're going to give it another try. And If you start a Fall Cycle Group thread I'll join you! I know Lou, Lauren1171, & Amanda1979 are all shooting for Sept/Oct timeframe so I'd think they'd want to join us too. I go see the RE Wednesday so I don't know if I'd be starting Sept or Oct yet, but I'd hate to see us all split up too.