Winter 2010-2011 Cycle Board

[leorira11]

Sherry - 14 is great! Congrats! You are going for a 5 day transfer? How exciting!

I don't know why, but the Menopur doesn't sting at all for me. It's totally fine. (Of course, I hate sticking myself with needles, but considering.... the Menopur isn't bad). What annoys me with the Menopur is the prep work. I used to take Puregon (Follistim) with the pen. I was overwhelmed with that my first cycle! But now it seems so easy, just pop a needle on, twist the dial to your dosage and inject. The needles were really skinny too. The Menopur, I have to mix. Ugh. I have vials of powder and vials of liquid. I can mix 3 vials of powder into one vial of liquid, which means that even though I'm taking 3 vials now, I just have the same amount of solution to inject (but there is more medicine in it). I just get annoyed drawing the meds into the syringe and then squirting into another vial-- and again-- and again. Oh well.

SD and LYD --- yeah, we keep thinking that things HAVE to get better, because they can't get worse, right? But then things suck on a whole other level. I finally got pregnant again this summer.... we were so nervous about another 2nd trimester loss. I had a whole plan about bedrest, cerclage, p17 shots, cervical checks, etc. When we were told at our 8 weeks ultrasound that the baby didn't have a heart beat - we were SHOCKED. Of course, I worried about miscarriage the whole first trimester with my twins, but I passed that so easily. It never occurred to me that I would miscarry. I was told that I would start to miscarry over the next few days.... so I waited and waited for the bleeding and cramping to start. NOTHING. After 2 weeks, I couldn't handle carrying a dead baby anymore and I had a D&C. This was a nightmare we couldn't even imagine, even after having gone through the horror of the loss of our twins. I'm just so worried that if I get pregnant again, something DIFFERENT and more insane will go wrong....

LYD - people used to find out that our twins were IVF (because I'm completely open about it) and then judge me, like it was my fault for having twins and we should have transferred only one embryo. For the few FETs after we lost our twins, we transferred one, because we were so worried about twins again. Now, more than a year later and 4 more cylces.. I can't take much more. I have to transfer 2. I know I'm increasing my risk of twins, but .... I try to explain to people that twinning is an UNWANTED side effect of IVF. We don't do the IVF because we want twins. We have twins because we HAVE TO do the IVF. People don't understand that....

Kerri - I really hope things can only get better.... people ask me how I find the strength to go on. I don't understand what my other choices are.... no kids ever? suicide? I have to keep going. We are also pursuing adoption, but adopting is a really long difficult process as well.... I don't see other choices besides continuing on....

Lou - I'm kinda not speaking to God at the moment. I'm really really really angry about how things have turned out. I was okay with our diagnosis of severe MFI and that we needed IVF. I've been a real trooper through all this shit. I just can't understand why we can't finally have a happy ending and a baby in our arms. BTW, one thing that I hate most about being overweight is that I didn't show, even with twins, until about 19-20 weeks. Now I'm thinking that'll be a really good thing because I *will* get pregnant now and I *will* find a job soon! (right?)

Those are some awesomely dark HPTs! You are encouraging me to wait until at least 14dpo until I POAS (I can never wait until my beta. My clinic only does them at 17dpo! That's soooo long!)

AFM - We went to a really really nice restaurant for dinner which was incredibly lovely.(we had a coupon! We are such dorks!) We sat and lingered over our meal for almost 2 hours. Such a lovely way to relax and reconnect through all this madness (IVF, unemployment, etc). Tomorrow is our big interview with the adoption people - and I have another SnS on Tuesday morning ---- I'm really really really hoping things go well!





THE LIST:




-swaters2815 (Stephanie) - starting mid-January
-kbillsy – IUI 12.4, Beta BFN - saving up money to do it again!
-jmbella (Jenn) - waiting to start late-Jan/early-Feb
-Sunshine1576 - PLAN: Lap surgery, 2 rounds of IUI and then IVF in June (if not already pregnant!)
-deftonesmo - cyst - ugh - u/s to see if it's gone 2.9
-anton - end of Feb



-Krisnjer - AF is here! on OCP, Suppression check on 1.19, ER/ET early Feb
-JustSoLost - on OCP - starting in Jan, approx ER/ET in early Feb, starting Lurpon 1.24, approx ER 2.14
-andsahsa - starting stims mid Feb, approx ET 3.3
-margi26 – started BCP 2.2 - approx ER 3.1



- andrea3821 - COME ON, AF!
-nwquiz - waiting for next AF for IUI



-NancyB - FET delayed to April
-Katie1231 - FET 2.15
-luv2bamom (Subha) - FET on 1.25



-Kynlee - AF started 1.18 - start Lupron Feb 6th - approx ER March 15



-CjofNC (Carol) – IUI - started AF 1.25
-LYD10 -starting Lupron on 1.15 and stims on 1.29
-leorira11 (Leora, aka listmistress!) - started stims 2.1
-wannabeamum (Samantha) - started stimming 1.31



-hotgreentea (Sherry) - start stims 1.23 - ER 2.3 - ET
-TammyS – start stims on 1.22, ER 2.3 - ET 2.6
-Sunshine 12 - start stims 1.27 - ER 2.6
-SDtrying#2 - started stims 1.27, ER 2.6 and ET 2.11 - beta 2.22
-Kerri_789 - started stims 1.26 - ER 2.7



-lauren1171 - IUI 1.27, beta 2.9 (WTF on 2.2)
-Tiger04 - IUI on 1.25/26 beta - POAS starts 2.4!
-amanda1979 - ER on 1.27 - ET 1.30 - beta 2.11
-qita71 - 5dt on 1.27
-HopeIsAllIHave (Ashley) - ER 1.28 - ET 2.3 - beta 2.11
-Kimber Baby - ER 1.28 , ET 2.3 - beta
-jkulab – start stims 1.21, ER 1.30 - ET on 2.5 , beta 2.16




-anacris (Nov) – FET 11.29, Beta 12.11 = 444, u/s on 12.28 - one happy, healthy baby!
-rypell1985 (Ryann) – start Lupron 10.11, lining check 11.29, FET 12.3, Beta 12.15 = 275, beta #2 = 824 - u/s = twins!
-annashope – natural IUI 12.2, Beta = 247, Beta#2 = 725 - one happy, healthy baby!
-kildean23 – FET 12.14, beta 12.27 = 565!, 2nd beta = 1315!, u/s on 1.6 - 2 sacs! next u/s 1.31
-taxcplforivf (Ginger) – start stims 12.4, ER 12.15, ET 12.20, beta 12.29 = 68!, beta #2 - 1466!, u/s 1.17
-BakersBaby (Kelly) – start stims 12/3, ER 1.13, ET 12.16, beta 12.30 = 365!, beta #2 1.7 = 3300, u/s one happy, healthy baby! OB visit on 2.2
- Karian - SURPRISE SPONTANEOUS BFP! beta = 101!, beta #2 - 566, u/s 1.18 - one happy, healthy baby!
-krcaja (Kristin) - ER 1.11, ET 1.16, beta 1.28 = 364! next beta 1.31 = 1565! u/s 2.15
- lou71 (Lou) - started stims 1.11, ER on 1.21, ET 1.24, beta 2.4 = 290! next beta 2.7


-Krys – started estrogen 11.11, FET 11.30, Beta 12.14- BFN
-Cshell717 (Mishell) – start stims 11.22, ER 12.3 w/ ET 12.6, beta 12.20 -BFN
-x0Heather0x – FET, b/w 12.3, u/s 12.10, FET 12.16, beta 12.28 - BFN
-Riya - beta on 1.7 BFN
-Jamiep03 - ET 12.27, beta 1.9 = 21.8, chemical
-kariberri517 - 3dt on 12.10, beta on 12.27 = 392, 12.29 = 472, 12.30 = 576...
-Sweetpea614 (Kat) - ER 1.14, ET 1.16, beta 1.28 BFN
-lynniecat - started stims 1.4 - ER 1.16 - no eggs at ER
-Penny100 (Darlene) - ET 1.17, beta 1.31 BFN
-Trusting (Amanda) - started stims 1.10, ER 1/24 - beta 2.4 BFN

[gi]

Lou oh just love those sticks...not so evil anymore I think i took about 10 in all with Kayla just didnt believe it as we dont have betas here!! Dont worry AF type pains are so common i had them every single day till i came off the progesterone suppositories at 17wks then they came back at around 32 wks!! Other than that i had no other symptoms of pregnancy my boobs were only slightly sens till about 8 wks then nothing......but a growing belly

gi xx

[jkulab]

Lou - nice sticks!!!!

[riogirl71]

TAMMY - UPDATE???? 4 gorgeous embies? and you are PUPO!!!

[Kerri_789]

Leora,
I also got medication to be mixed. I had my DH do the prep and injection so I don’t know how to mix it. But I do hate the schedule. I got a shot every 12 hours, which was very annoying. I am glad the stims completed. Do you also have to give shots every 12 hours?
Chinese say “心誠則靈”. If we really, really, really think things can go better, then they will go better. There is no other way. I am so sorry that you have to go through so many difficulties and I admire your courage and persistence. A 111111 baby perhaps? Good luck!

Leora & SD,
I am going to look for a new job soon too. I cannot really imagine attend an interview with a big belly. What would you do if you are pregnant this time? Would you stop job hunting?

Lou,
You know, bad experience may shake your belief but you have to try to resist the bad thought because things will go along with your thought. I remembered my 2nd IVF: light pink was shown when I wipe on Day 9 after ET. I became disappointed and started thinking it might just like the first time, BFN. Strangely, the pink stopped for 1 or 2 days and the bleeding only started heavily on the day of blood test. The blood test showed slightly positive on Day 12 and showed negative when repeated. I couldn’t help but thinking: the embryos did implant and might stay. It was probably because I lost my faith too early. What if I thought it was bleeding caused by implantation? I decide not to assume anything negative this time and hope things will turn out the way I want. Much luck for your pregnancy!

[TammyS]

I'm sorry! My aunts (like my moms who raised me after my mom died when I was a kid, and Zach calls them Grandma Vicki and Grandma Robin)...who have been here since last night to babysit for us early this morning just left...they live an hour away and dont visit often enough. Rio just texted me to tell me to get my butt on the board. LOL!

So, I'm very happy with how everything looked today...we transferred all 4...and everything went really really well. If I am not pregnant...I'd be completely surprised. All 4 were looking good and it was early this morning when they checked them, too...instead of this afternoon (being a Sunday we had an early transfer)...so still time for more dividing today, too. They were already at 8, 7, 6, and 5 cell. Yippee!!! Very little fragmentation on the 8 and 7 cell embies...and some but not alot on the 5 and 6 cell embies. My doc was super happy, too. I cant believe a couple of them didnt fall apart and lag behind a lot on day 3...like we have been experiencing on the last couple of cycles. They are all 4 doing well.

Then we came home and I saw the craziest thing. Apparantly, Zach had picked out and put on his own shirt to wear, as usual...he is very picky about what he wears...and today he found and picked out his Big Brother shirt that he hasnt worn since I was pregnant last May...that was at the bottom and back of his drawer! I had kinda put it out of sight. I am not even kidding. I totally thought my aunts did that to help me with my PMA...when they told me the story of how he went in his room and came out wearing the shirt...all on his own. We are just shocked!

Going to go read up and do personals in just a minute....

[lou71]

Tammy- Yay! So happy for you! With embies that good you may end up cooking more than one! Congrats!

[riogirl71]

Tammy - i am so excited for you these embies sounded perfect and I know Zach's sibling(s) are in there! Twins?!?!?!?! THe story about Zach's t-shirt is perfect and I am sure a little angel whispered in his ear that you were bringing the babies home today! Butterflies and a big brother shirt - all great predictors of a super BFP!!

Congrats Tammy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Super baby dust!

[jkulab]

hi all - enjoying the SB but we have way too many people in this house. 12 adults and 5 kids...WTF? i agree w/ my bf to have a few people. i ended up helping with the cooking since this morning...preping for the party and feeding the kids that are here. i've been cramping since yesterday. now, i've segregated myself to my bedroom with everyone else still here. i feel bad but i really just want to relax.

enuf w/ my bullcrap:
tammy - great embies! best of luck...now we are pupo!

leora - i know what you mean about not talking to the higher being. i'm buddhist and we believe in Karma. So, when i was very young i was sexually abused by my dad and physically and mentally abused by my mother. i left home when i was 18, paid for my own college which meant working 2 part time jobs to pay for apartment and bills, going to school full time and playing volleyball. i was constantly stuggling for money and fighting depression and anxiety. i've seen many different therapist but nothing worked. finally last year, i lost all control of myself and tried to commit suicide. i was sent to a mental ward for 48 hrs which were the worst days of my life. i realized i needed medication. i tried an antidepressant and now, i have such a different outlook. my current therapist asked me once how i felt?: good, normal, happy?...i told him i never knew what those things were like...all i knew was the feeling of hopelessness. now, that i made this transformation in my life to better myself, why is it that i can't have a baby just like other people. i asked buddha what did i do so wrong to make me struggle so much in life?...i'm still trying to figure it out, but i do realize that this is the path that was given to me and i must take it. Maybe this is the road you must take. maybe God knew you have the courage and strength to achieve anything that you put your mind to. Good luck and my thoughts are with you!

sorry for the downer. i try to have a positive outlook now a days. so i'm going to finish relaxing in my bedroom. have a great night everyone and lots of baby dust!!!

[sunshine.12]

Hey all.. Typing a quick update from my phone..
ER went well.we got 8eggs this time(last cycle it was 11). But I hope these are good quality ones to compensate for the number.. Still feeling lot of cramping.. Hoping to get better by tomorrow..

Tammy- those 4 embies are going to give your baby/ babies for sure! Congrats for being PUPO!

SD- how was your ER today?

Leora- I also did 3 vials of menopur this cycle. As you said I hate the mixing part..but now its only a week or less.. It will go in a flash! 10 mm lead follicle sounds great!

Lou- loved your sticks.. Good luck for another great beta result tomorrow!

Jklaub- the fact that your embies made it to blast itself means that they are fighters.. As you said this month of love is going to give us our good news.. Sending lot of PMA..also just read your story as I was about to hit post.. You are a brave lady for fighting so hard.. And please stay positive.. The good days are not far away..sending one huge PMA..

Carol- good luck for your SnS.. Either timed BD or IUI, you are going to get your BFP this month!

Hope- good to hear that you are feeling well..takecare..

Sorry if I missed someone.. You are all in my prayers..

[rypell1985]

Congrats Tammy!!!! I'm so happy that they all looked great! Now enjoy being PUPO and let everyone wait on you! Stick babies stick!!!!!!

[Lauren1171]

Tammy -Yay!!!! Everything sounds awesome with your whole cycle and now 4 transferred!! This is definitely it!!!!

[lou71]

Sunshine- woohoo for 8 eggs! Fingers crossed for an awesome fert report tomorrow!

SD- You are so right, you only need ONE good one. Even though it's quality over quantity, 6 is awesome! Looking forward to your fert report tomorrow.

[LYD10]

Jeib - what a difficult childhood and a hard life you've had! you are a real fighter!!! things are only going to get better from now on!

SD - congrats on a safe ER! anytime there is anesthesia involved we must be thankful it goes well. Yey for your 6 eggies! cant wait to hear what they decide to do about transfer!!

Tammy - congrats on a successful transfer of 4!. are you hoping for one or two or either? that's too funny about Zach. Kids are very perceptive - he must have picked up on a certain vibe or something.

Leora - good luck on tomorrow's adoption counselor meeting and upcoming SnS! And your relationship with your husband sounds fantastic. you guys seem very close together! I hear you on mixing menopur - keeping track of all the viles and needles is a pain! that takes the longest for me too. the other stuff is so much faster - i love love love follistim pen. why cant they do that for menopur?

Lou - enjoy your pregnancy days!!! you so deserve this feeling!!!

I have my 3rd SnS tomorrow. and will get my instructions for either one more day of stims or triggering on monday night. i'll let you guys know as soon as i know.

[riogirl71]

SD - 6 is great! How many will you transfer on day 3 if they are all good? I had 4 mature on my #1 IVF and 5 mature on this last one, so I know you are used to having more but in no way does that mean it won't work!!! It will work!!! Super baby dust and wishes for a wonderful ET!