April/May Buddies??

[CarolynB]

Dr Vero - it is really hard to know when to get going again. You'll know when it is right for you & dh. Don't force it now if it does not feel right for you. You have time on your side - you are young - where as I feel the need to get my skates on before it is too late for me. I was so relieved when he told me that I could get started that I just knew that it was the right thing to do even though it makes the op in August seem like a bit of a waste of time/money and effort as we have not really given it a chance to work. I am sure that you'll know when it is right for you & dh. Here for you.

Em - Bloods again tomorrow. How exciting for you. Hope that the numbers have soared for you

Laura - Hmmm. Yet more scans for you hun. The heartbeats and sizes are really good. Even if there is no line between the sacs on the scans it could be there just not showing. The good news is that they are tracking you so closely that they will be sure to respond as soon as they need to to help you through it. It is bound to be a shock for dh. As you said before, you have the physical signs and have wanted this for so long that you are bound to feel a bit different. He'll get there. Just give him a little time for now

Jackie - Nicely put. Of course you have helped all of us. It is so weird when we don't even know what we all look like but form so a close group

Dania - what news on your little blue bundle?

Went to acu last night with the cutie. This was the pre-ovu slot. He wants to see me again before AF so he can get me really tidy inside. He'll then see me on Day 6 of stimmies. Then he will see me twice on ET day. Once before and once after. It is called the German Protocol. Anyone heard about this? or know anyone who has done it? He says this is the piece that has been claimed to lift success rates by 15%. We'll see.....

Have Mike's relatives arriving from tomorrow ahead of the stone setting this weekend and lots to do ahead of Sunday in terms of getting the food in and preparing it for around 100 people. May be dropping in a bit less therefore over the next few days and over the weekend maybe not at all.

Em - hope that your bloods tomorrow are great.

Hope that you all have lovely weekends. I feel that I can be strong for my dh who is struggling a bit as the memories are close to the surafce again now that I have a plan which I wanted. See nurse on Tuesday so will update you all then.

Take good care.
Love to you all.
Carolyn xxx

[LauraLou]

Jackie- I feel the same way. Everyone here has made such a difference in my life. I don't know how I would have made it through the last six months without you.

Carolyn- I am so, so happy that you are going to be starting soon. I really believe this will be your time.

Em- Can't wait to hear what your beta is!

Had a good talk with DH last night. Told him I was feeling overwhelmed by the idea of two babies, which was a bit of an exageration on my part but got him to talk. He said he too felt overwhelmed by the idea of twins. He also said that it seems like every couple of days they give us more bad news and he can't believe that this will really work. It was good to know what is going on inside his head. As long as we can talk about what we are feeling, everything will be okay.

I am trying not to stress too much about the one sac thing, I have been reading about it and we are too early to make a definitive diagnosis yet. Having two yolk sacs also makes it less likely. If it does happen, then I'll deal with it. If I can go from a miscarriage to having identical twins in 3 weeks, I can overcome anything!

I still can't believe there are two identical little beanies growing inside of me. If it weren't for the sore boobs, I'd think it is all a dream.

[Xrayem]

Hi guys,

Well, second beta is in: 844! So it sounds like a stayer. Doc was really happy with the results, so I am too.

The news is filtering down throuh family and I have been getting tons of texts and phone calls wishing us well. I know people are wary of telling everyine too early in case of m/c but I am an open book and can never keep good news to myself. Even if this does go pear-shaped I will feel so incredibly blessed to have been able to make it this far.

Carolyn, give Mike a big hug from us this weekend. Love him with all your heart over the next couple days as he will need it. We are thinking of you both.

Laura - Good that you had a D&M (deep & meaningful....is that an Aussie thing?) and know how he is feeling. You have both been through so much. Being wary is so understanable. I know what you mean about thinking its a dream though....I still feel normal!

Em

[LauraLou]

Em- That is a wondeful number!!! I can't wait for your sono to see how many beanies are in there!

Hope everyone is doing well!

[jackoa21]

Carolyn
Oh honey take care of you and DH and I am sure Tuesday will bring even more good news after you meet with the nurse. Please know that we are all thinking of you both over this time. Again we look forward to even more news on Tuesday on your progress...

Em
Those numbers are so great.. I can not wait for you scan. You probably are having two..When is your scan again.. I am like you and I am so bad at keeping anything a secret. You should be thrilled with how far you have come and this will continue your numbers sound nice and strong..

Vero
Thinking of you honey and hope that you are doing nice things for youself and just taking it easy..

Dania
Sending a hug to you and your bump

Love and hugs to all
Jackie

[Xrayem]

Hi guys,

I managed to convince one of the sono's at work to scan me today to see if we could see how many but it was too early. While he was scanning though I saw a lot of free fluid in my abdo and my ovaries looked big still. Steve quickly pulled the probe off and said "nope, to early" and thats it. I think I have mild hyperstim (but have no pain) and the weight gain that I thought I had is actually fluid. My official appointment with my doc is 29th Nov (a month away) and I'm not sure if I should be following this up. I feel ok.

Am VERY tired. Have to go to my GP tonight to get a new referral for my doc (he is going to be my Obstetrician) and to make it all legal, I have to get the piece of paper.....another $70 ho-hum.

Em

[LauraLou]

Em- My sono also showed free fluid and enlarged ovaries. You will slowly absorb the fluid and the follicles in the ovaries are producing progesterone. They will shrink once the placenta takes over.

It sounds like your coworker did an abdominal ultrasound. All my sonos have been vaginal. It think they are more accurate this early on.

Carolyn- I hope DH is doing okay. Did you say you were having 100 people over to your house this weekend? I hope you are having it catered. I can't imagine trying to feed that many people!

I wish I could do a Tom Cruise and buy a sono machine for my house!! It would make me feel better if I could check on the babies every couple of hours. I still check for bleeding everytime I use the bathroom. I keep thinking this is too good to be true!

I went to a craft store and bought a scrapbook kit for my pregnancy. You have to create the pages yourself, but it has paper, letters, etc. included. I am not artistic, so who knows how it willl turn out, but hopefully it will be a fun way to record and remember what happens over the next 7-8 months.

I think I am starting to get stretch marks already!!! First I noticed one pink spot low on my abdomen. Today I noticed another pink spot below it, right above my pubic bone. I bet it will fill in with a long pink stripe soon. I don't undertand how this is happening, as I have actually lost 2 lbs. I guess my uterus must be sticking out or something.

Carolyn and Veronika- I really believe you are both going to be pregnant soon. We have had so much good luck on this thread, with Dania and Jackie's natural BFPs, my m/c to twins cycle and Em's success on her 1st round of IVF. The sticky baby vibes are heading your way!

[CarolynB]

A very quick post really just to check Em's beta. What a great number for you. You must be thrilled. I am sure that all your friends and family are over the moon for you.

Laura - 100 people you are right at Mike's sisters house. We are doing the catering between us and I am sure that we'll have some help from other family. At least it will keep me really busy all weekend. Hope all is well for you & the twins. Sure that at some stage it will all hit your dh and he'll be as thrilled as you are

Vero- How are you doing? Hope that you & your dh will have a lovely weekend

Dania & Jackie - really hope that the bumps are doing well

Did all the ivf paperwork today as need to take on Tuesday and will be busy over the weekend. Bit deja vue for me.............

Enjoy your weekends.
Lots of Love
Carolyn xxx

[veronika]

Hello Lovleys,

Carolyn,
I hope you and DH are back at home and can get some rest. This must have been such an intense weekend for the two of you.

I can't believe you're starting your next cycle so soon - you've already done the paper work. It must be very real now. I am glad you moved on to the next IVF and I am looking forward to cheering you through this one, as I wasn't there for the first time!!

Em and Laura and Jackie and Dania,
how are the bump-ladies ?
You must be enjyoing your weekend and your precious little treasures.
Em - any symptoms coming along?
Laura - I am glad you had a good conversation with DH. For me it's the same; even if "the problem" isn't solved, just the fact to have talked about it, to know what the other is thinking makes it so much easier to cope with anything that's in the air. I am positive that your DH will be the happiest twin-daddy in the end. He does have 8 months to get used to the thought. And, as Em said, once he sees those little ones and holds them in his arms you won't have to worry anymore anyway:-)
Jackie - even though it's been a while I wanted to tell you that I so share your feelings about this thread and thank you for expressing them to us!
Dania - I hope your happy and well; thinking of you and your bump.

DH and I are better; we did have a couple of rough days (and more), of course around ovulation time, how else should it be. If we had the money I would insist on doing another IVF cycle, feeling 100% ready, calm and in the right place to do so or not. But given that we don't, I just have to content myself with waiting and, of course, finding a less stressful lifestyle. I've never been of the patient kind, and this is honestly a big challenge for me. But as so many people on this thread have said before: It must and it will be good for something in the end.

Hoping that you all of you ladies are having/had a good Sunday,

Love, Veronika

[Xrayem]

Hi guys.

More news from me: I peeked again today and saw 2 SACS! It looks like I'm joining Laura on the twins ride! Haven't stopped beaming since I saw them. I know that a lot can go wrong but my mate said they both looked good, with nice bright ring around them. I am so excited!

Sorry this is a me post but I can't settle down long enough! It has just been then best day. And tomorrow I am going to see U2!

Lots of love!
Em

[CarolynB]

Em

Twins. WOW. Congratulations X 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You must be over the moon. There was always a really good chance of this happening when your betas were so strong.

Have a fab time at U2 tomorrow. Have seen them a couple of times - but years ago now. They were awesome in concert. I must have seen them in 1985 as a student - how scary is that!!!?? Joshua Tree tour

take good care of you & the two liitle uns.

Lots of Love
Carolyn
xxx

PS - Afraid that I don't feel much like posting. Totally shattered after the weekend. Mike's sister came down with a shocking bug on Friday evening so I ended up shouldered most of load. Taking care of her two children, ironing, cleaning their house, dropping the children off with friends and preparing all the food for yesterday as well as trying to help dh and his sister get through it all emotionally. Not complaining, it just had to all get done. So it was a bright, sunny day yesterday which was nice. About 100 people came but only around 50 came back to the house. My dh and his sister were pleased with how it all went which is the main thing. No time to worry about anything else either and nobody who came knows what dh & I are going through which sometimes helps.

Anyway, I hope that you all had good weekends. Vero - glad things with dh are a little better. Around ovu was just when my dh & I had major melt down too. It is just such a stressful period. I am sad that you cannot cycle again right now as would be so cool for us to be cycle buddies. However, hope even more that you don't have to cycle again at all. Sending you big hugs.

I'll may be update after I see the nurse tomorrow.
Love to you all
Carolyn xx

[LauraLou]

Em- That is so wonderful!!!!! I thought there was a good chance you have twins since you had such high betas. When do you go back for your next scan? The best part is when you can see the heartbeats!

Carolyn- What a weekend you had! You must be exhausted. I'm glad it is over and you can focus on your cycle. Is your appointment with the nurse today or tomorrow? I can't wait to hear what your regime is going to be this time. You are getting so close to your BFP!

Jackie, Vero & Dania- Hope all is well with you.

I asked one of the OB residents at work last night if she would scan me and look for a membrane. Unfortunately, she only had access to an abdomnial sono machine, so she wasn't able to look closely enough for a membrane. But she did see the two heartbeats. I was glad to hear that they are both still okay.

I go to the perinatologist on Wednesday morning for the level 2 sono. I really, really hope we are able to visualize a membrane then, so I don't have to keep worrying. Okay, I will still worry but I will have less to worry about!

DH is coming with me, as we also want to talk to him about doing a cvs or amniocentesis. With my age, we are concerned about Downs, but I hate to do anything that might cause me to miscarry. I guess we'll see what the doctor says.

Laura

[CarolynB]

Dear Ladies

Nurses appointment was today. All fine. No dramas at all. Bit of a non-event really. Labelled as 2 hours and done in 15 mins as we had done all the paperwork beforehand as went on my own to save dh more time off work.

Just parted with more than £3,200 so hope that we might have more success this time. Have all the drugs now too as went to pharmacy at same time. So now all I have to do is wait for AF and start injecting the next day. No bloods or scan so I just get to start. Here we go again..............

Laura - truely hope that you scan tomorrow will show a membrane between your precious beanies and give you at least some piece of mind. Think that it is good that dh is going with you. That will help you and I am sure that it will make it more real for him too.

Em, Jackie and Dania - hope that you & your little ones are all doing well. Take good care.

Dr Vero - Big hugs from me to you. It is like the Survivor show and we are the last two people on the island!!!! Or Big Brother & we are left in the house with each other. Do you have those shows? Anyway, I am sure that you'll get what I mean.

Love to you all.
Carolyn xxx

[CarolynB]

Dear Ladies

Nurses appointment was today. All fine. No dramas at all. Bit of a non-event really. Labelled as 2 hours and done in 15 mins as we had done all the paperwork beforehand as went on my own to save dh more time off work.

Just parted with more than £3,200 so hope that we might have more success this time. Have all the drugs now too as went to pharmacy at same time. So now all I have to do is wait for AF and start injecting the next day. No bloods or scan so I just get to start. Here we go again..............

Laura - truely hope that you scan tomorrow will show a membrane between your precious beanies and give you at least some piece of mind. Think that it is good that dh is going with you. That will help you and I am sure that it will make it more real for him too.

Em, Jackie and Dania - hope that you & your little ones are all doing well. Take good care.

Dr Vero - Big hugs from me to you. It is like the Survivor show and we are the last two people on the island!!!! Or Big Brother & we are left in the house with each other. Do you have those shows? Anyway, I am sure that you'll get what I mean.

Love to you all.
Carolyn xxx

[jackoa21]

Hello lovely ladies..

Em that is great news.. Looks like you will be having double the pleasure too.. How are you feeling? How was U2 I am so jelous....

Laura
I know how you feel and I have often said that I wish I could scan the babies daily to just make sure its all ok.. I can not wait to read all your good news from your appointment tomorrow..It is nice you get to see your little ones and see how big they are getting...

Carolyn
Oh honey that must have been such a huge weight with DH's sister being sick and you being responsible for all of the family memorial.. I am glad you got through it. It must have been very stressful... I can not wait for you to start again.. So when is AF expected? Than you can map out all your dates... How amazing. This is going to be it...

Vero
Thinking of you honey and just letting you know we hope you are just resting and taking care of you

Dania
Sending love to you and your bump

For me not much knew. I had a mini meltdown on the weekend. I just started feeling better (not that I was ever really sick) but I just felt better bb's less tender cramping or twinging less.. I got scared and thought what if something was wrong. I wanted to go to the ER and make them scan me but what would I say "I dont think I am pregnant anymore" they would comit me.. So I tried to be calm.. Anyway on Monday I actually started cramping again which I was really pleased this had gone so than I worried "is it worse is it more consistent" just being crazy.. I called the doc and the nurse called back and said the cramping/twinges are normal and once you are in the 2nd trimester you will feel better.. I tried to just belive her and be calm but it is so hard.. I truly dont know if I will ever just belive this and not be so darn scared.. It did not help that I found out last week that as of Febuary I no longer have a job. Its pretty sad after being here for 6 years and than I will be over 6 months and looking for a job which is just silly.. I have come to terms with it but it has been hard.. I have my appointment next Friday (the 17th) to hear the babies heartbeat so that will be amazing.. I wish it was today...

love and hugs and thank you for listening to me rant
Love
Jackie