The Sisterhood of the Blue Stilettos

[meg12]

Oh, Melissa I just read your ticker. Why are you getting professional photos done?

[Melissa112]

They are head shots of me and my girls (the other wedding planners in my office) for my website It should be fun!!! I am totally excited!

[meg12]

That will be fun. Are you going to go all out dressed up or more business casual?

[Melissa112]

It's supposed to be for business, but I am going to get guzzied up anyway... the photographer is a good friend of mine, so I am sure it'll include wine and ALOT of fun!!!

[sassynlv]

A big HAALLLLOOO to the Sistas from (just below) the Arctic Circle. It is chilly here all right! Rained off and on yesterday. Luckily today no rain... but wind that would knock your knickers off! Having a blast and the scenery is fab. My pictures DO NOT do it justice. BUT, I am posting them on a blog I just started as a journal of our trip. www.stiniceland.blogspot.com. You can see what we have been up to over the last few days.

So...
Jenn: FAB!!!!! on the + HPT. I am hoping you haven't posted since your beta as you are out celebrating your BFP with dh?

Mel: hope you are well. Saw your post on the other thread... wondering if you are ok.

Robbo: Congrats on starting stims. Sounds like you have your head firmly on your shoulders (especially impressive considering the hormones being pumped into you!). I am hoping for you that there will be no need for endo surg as you will be joining our fellow prego sistas! Roll on stims!

Angie: ooooo, FET it is. Fab. Estrogen not taking you for a ride, is it? I found the FETs so much easier mood-swing wise for me. I am hoping it is treating you well also.

Fee, Vicky, Meg, etc.... Thinking of you all!

Sorry got to run... only 2 more minutes of internet... possibly for the next 3 days.

Hope everyone is well!

[Angie65]

Oooo Mel - don't forget to let us know when the photos are done so we can check out your website.

And Sassy - I am going to check out your blog to see you guys in Iceland. Feels like Iceland here this morning - 6 degrees - youch! Cold for us. But my feet are nice and toasty in my fab new boots (bought as compensation after the last cycle!)

[FionaA]

Hellooo

Sorry I haven't been around, had a long weekend and had no computer. And it seems like I've missed a damned lot.

First off Congrats to Jenn on the + HPT. I'm with Meg, build up a collection of em! Well done, have you had your beta test back yet??? Am so pleased for you!!! Have you calmed down yet???

Sass, Geez that Iceland trip seems to have come up fast. I'll also check on your blog, looking forward to seeing some fab pics, especially since I don't know much about Iceland....Thanks so much for the book tips. I have looked up the author and it seems that he writes stuff that I desperately need to read. I will be making the purchase soon. Told DH about the books and asked if he would also read them. He advised that he probably wouldn't but he wouldn't object if I read them out aloud to him. How lazy is that....Oh well I guess I'll have to read to him at bed time....kill me now...

Angie, unfortunately nothing to report on the office love fest, it has gone quiet, perhaps the calm before the storm. My secretary is quite delightful, she spares no detail in recounting her sexual antics with the co-worker. I'm finding it quite hard to look at the bloke in the eye these days....Excellent news on the lining, seems like your body is semi functional...not to be sneezed at I reckon. Here's hoping that the lining plumps up and we can de frost some Wombats. What's the story with numbers??? Does your clinic ever put more than one in??? Congrats on the boots purchase, you will need them with that Melbourne weather. I have had to clamp down on my shoe buying as I seem to have no money. What's that about??

Robbo, sorry to hear that you were thrown for a loop at the Dr's office. I think I am quite like you in that the unexpected is always unwelcome...Excellent that you are going on with the stimming, sounds like a reasonable decision in all the circumstances... we'll miss you while you are away and hope that your stimming goes marvellously...

Mel, wowsers that seems to be a pretty rare bad mood for you. Nevermind you are quite entitled to have a meltdown every so often. Glad to see you pulled through and that DH is still in one piece. Have you had your results from that bum operation that you had??? was thinking about that the other day???

Patie, glad to hear you, you sound very busy, don't overdo it!

Hey Vicky thanks for your calming words, As mentioned above Sass has recommended some books which I am hoping to use to address my "small" anxiety problem...it's making me miserable. How is your stimming going??? Seems like only yesterday you were on your last 2ww!

Mego how are you going? I continue to stress about something new each day...I have my big fetal anatomy scan coming up on Friday. Of course that is freaking me out, but I hear it is a nice scan because the baby really looks like a baby. Just hope Noggin is OK. Can't believe you are 24 weeks already...

Nickster, Wanna where are you. Mel will have to get the dogs out and in the mood she's been lately you would want the dogs to get to you first.

Ciao for now, Fee

[Angie65]

hello Fee - I expect the lazy US sistas are a-snoozing so it's just you and me. Good luck with the scan - how exciting to see Noggin looking so real finally. Is he kicking about yet? Look forward to your scan update.

Yes I am looking forward to defrosting some wombats - I got a feeling that Dr D was hinting I shd transfer 2 as he asked me how old I was again the other day! We always have a choice of 1 or 2. I find it quite a dilemma - I would be delighted with 2 healthy twins but know there are more risks. Also I am scare to waste to embies if the lining is not optimal. But if our embies are the problem then makes sense to increase the chances and transfer 2. I am going to ask Dr D on Friday (also scan day for me) I am going to ask him to rate my lining out of 10 !! He responds better to black and white questions - what do you reckon I'll score everyone? I'm taking bets!!

Off to the movies now with some girl friends - if I can cope with the cold 13 degrees we have here - ok we are soft here! Not exactly the snowy conditions like some of the sistas talked about earlier in the year.

See you later.

[Melissa112]

I think I am just having an “a la de Sassy moment”… I am at the end of my significantly frayed rope. I don’t know why, maybe it started as the cancer, than the infertility… and I was okay. But then the butt thing (which I don’t officially have the results for yet, that’s Friday) but I’m okay regardless of what it comes back as. Somewhere in the middle of all this, I realized that as much as I want a baby, and really I would KILL for a baby… I would do anything for a baby… I realized that I am okay if I am not a mom. Maybe I will regret it 3 years ago. But I think somewhere in all this medical mumbojumbo I lost my baby fever. And ya know, I am okay with that. DH and I talked about it a lot, and he’s okay too. He is just afraid that I am going to be angry at him in the future because I am going to hold it against him – and right now, I am not going to do that. SO I think we are going to take a break from the medical community for a while. A much needed break…. And I feel good about that.

On Saturday the PMS got so bad that I did leave, I went to TJ Maxx and bought some stuff for the house, and believe it or not it helped a ton! I came back fully rejuvenated! But last night, boy of boy! DH said one wrong thing and I lost it! I could have been the blow out we’ve been waiting for! So I was supposed to get home from work at a decent time, some time before 6PM (normally we aren’t home from work before 8:30 or 9PM) that was the plan anyway – well DH and I only took one car yesterday and at 5:15 I said “are you almost ready to go” and he said “uhhhh… I wasn’t planning on leaving at 5:30, I need another 1/2 hour” so I said “OK” and I went on working, and didn’t say a word until welllll after 6:45 and he said he was having problems setting up whatever he was doing, and then at 7:45 we finally left… I went home, changed my clothes, then DH “wanted some” ARRGGG! Why do boys do that! So we did it… and then I started working on the lawn and taking care of the weeds, that took abit over an hour, still haven’t eaten dinner, it’s now almost 9PM! DH makes dinner while I am in the shower…. I eat at 9:20, and then we watch some TV… the dog comes over to the couch and wants to lay on me… DH says “Mommy, was supposed to give you a bath, what happened to that” I LOST IT! I sort of huffed a bit…. And said in an almost screaming voice…. There is only so much time in the freaking day! If I would have come home at 5:30 like I wanted to, I would have gotten to the darn dog, but I didn’t because I was waiting on YOU! And I worked on the lawn ALLLL day on Sunday when I got home from church, what else do you want from me! If you want a clean dog, wash him your gosh darned self! He then went on to say that I am not just doing things for the house I am doing things for myself too, like going down to see the twins and getting drunk with my friend while I was in South Florida… He’s right, but it wasn’t the time to bring that up to me… wrong time, wrong time of the month, just wrong… so I just laid down on the couch and didn’t say anything because I really didn’t want it to get any bigger than that! And I knew in my PMS’ing state it would… so at the next commercial he paused the TV and said that he didn’t want to fight with me and I said I didn’t either and we left it alone… then as we were washing up, I apologized for being a PMS’ing ***** Monster… and he said that he though I lost my tongue (because I hadn’t said anything…) well I said, that I knew I was being irrational, and decided if I didn’t have anything nice to say, I wouldn’t say anything at all…. And we kissed and made up. And went to bed – although I didn’t sleep very well.

So at least it wasn’t a blow out, but I am still SO MAD!!!! Boys and I just aren’t getting along this week!

Okay personals next I promise! I hate being selfish, but Sassy brought it up, so I thought I’d explain….

[jenn]

Hey girls! My computer had a major meltdown yesterday, sorry I couldn't log on to tell you...

We got a BFP!!! My beta was 918 seems kind of high but it was 13dp3dt sooooo... I have to give more blood Thursday I think. Or maybe tomorrow- i can't remember oops! We are thrilled. Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. They mean a lot I promise I will catch up and write more later. My mom is here visiting for a couple of days so we have been out running the roads and it looks like tomorrow is more of the same!

Mel- sorry about your blowout. do you feel better? Sometimes those boys just don't think before they speak. But most of the time something DH says that ticks me off one day, wouldn't bother me the next, so he never knows when it is safe to talk!! Poor husbands!

[jenn]

Hey girls! My computer had a major meltdown yesterday, sorry I couldn't log on to tell you...

We got a BFP!!! My beta was 918 seems kind of high but it was 13dp3dt sooooo... I have to give more blood Thursday I think. Or maybe tomorrow- i can't remember oops! We are thrilled. Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. They mean a lot I promise I will catch up and write more later. My mom is here visiting for a couple of days so we have been out running the roads and it looks like tomorrow is more of the same!

Mel- sorry about your blowout. do you feel better? Sometimes those boys just don't think before they speak. But most of the time something DH says that ticks me off one day, wouldn't bother me the next, so he never knows when it is safe to talk!! Poor husbands!

[vicky77]

Jenn......wow 918 .....sounds like twins to me!!!!!!. You might be our next Wanna, keep us posted!!. Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mel......ohhh honey, please don't be so down, it makes me so sad to see you this way!!. I know this is a very emotional rollercoaster, and with the plus of your butt thing and you are going through you own 2ww with those results, I think right now that is what is keeping you so anxious and down, am I wrong?. I have a good feeling about all this, I know it will all end up being nothing and we will be able to proceed (notice the "we" ) with IVF!!!!. Please also remember that we are all here for you, for your rants, vents, whatever you might need. About what you said of being ok if you are not a mom, is adoption an option for you or not?, because DH and I know that if IVF is not the route then adoption will be the one for sure. What about you?.

Ange......my bet is he will say your lining is a 10/10 !!!!!!. I am having a scan on Friday too, to check my follies!!, so we are definitely cycling together!!!

Fee........so scan on Friday!!!, I am looking forward to it, good luck!!, send us pics of Noggin!!!.

Sassy.....the Iceland pics are fab, I can't believe the landscapings, it looks like a movie!!!!. I will keep cheking your blog for updates!!

Meg, Wanna, Patie, how are you guys doing?????

Ok, so today I had my baseline scan and bw, everything was ok so I was given the ok to start stims!!!!!!!! woooooohoooooooo . On Friday I have to go back for another scan and bw to check my follies, so it looks like Friday is scan day for the Sistas (Fee, Ange and me). Let's do a dildocam party on Friday!!!!!!!!

[Melissa112]

Ya know, I am such a freakin' happy person that when I am sad, I feel like an idiot... no one around me knows how to react to me unless I am happy and goofy... that's what I get for being "the perky one".... oh well!

Okay so personals and than an update:

Jenn- Holy Cannoli - it looks like it might be TWEEEENS! But either way, I am just going to pray for a healthy pregnancy... but AHHHHHH!!!! I hope you are having fun with your mommy!!! I am so excited for you, I just can't stand it!!! Can't wait to hear more!!!

Vicky - I hate being this way - I promise it's not me... normally... and poor DH, he's being so sweet - he came to me today and put his arms around me and said "should I get you a puppy, will that bring back your baby fever... because I think I caught it" it was really sweet. Anyway... your right, I am sure that everything is going to be fine with my butt, and I know that you guys are all here for me, and trust me, I appreciate that more than you know, in fact, just typing that is bringing tears to my eyes! (yes, I am sappy, PMS'ing dork right now) Adoption, honestly, I don't think it's for us... more DH than I - he sort of feels like if it's not our own... either 1/2 or whole, than it's not meant to be, although he's not discarded fostering... it must be a guy thing.

Ange - I am praying for a 10+++++ YOU CAN DO IT!!! Come on lining you can do it, put a little power to it! Love how you call us American's lazy. it works in so many ways... I am so excited to see what amazingness happens from your little frozen totcicles! Those wombats have some power, I just know it!!! Oh and those professional pictures, I promise to send them out (uh, if they look good)

Fee- I'd love to see pictures of Noggin!!! Praying for a great scan!! When you know more about the lovefest, I must know, I love the gossip!!! Ya know, you are right, it is rare that I am in a crap mood. I think I'll drink some wine tonight to help with that The bum results come in Friday at 4:15 my time, so you'll see them in your AM, right? Thanks for thinking about me!

Robbo- Happy Stimming!!! I am sorry that your Doctors office was throwing you for a loop - that always stinks! I hope your doing good!

Sassy - I haven't had a second to visit the blog again, but I will tonight so I can see the pictures!!!

Patie - I totally empathize with your buzy'ness!!! I hope it's not killin' you like it's killin' me!!!

Mego- How are thing going for you and our little girl?

If I missed someone, I am sorry! I love you!!!

With my DH being so sweet and supportive and knowing me so well - it's so hard to deny him! Today, he comes up to me again, and says, so uh, your period is due very soon, are you doing the Clomid? And I told him, I didn't think so... And then he says that he would like for US to take it this month, because it will give us a definitive on what's wrong, and if the little buggers can make it upstream... (makes sense...) and he really LOATHS the idea of me blaming him for the entire rest of eternity for us being the childless couple... which I would NEVER do, but it's sweet for him to think that So I guess, I am going to go for a scan on Friday, which will be day 2 of AF... (at least according to my calculations)... SO if I get my period on Thursday, Friday will be my dildocam appointment! Looks like we are going together! How freakin' cool is that!

Here weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee go again!

And if not now, when!

Wannnnna, Nicccckkkkkiiii, Ammmyyy - that's it, I've had enough - the HOUNDS are released! They are coming to find you!

[jeck]

We got a BFP!!! My beta was 918 seems kind of high but it was 13dp3dt sooooo...

HOLY CRAP Jenn!!!!! That is really high!!!!! Congrats!!!!! I am so excited for you!!!!!!

Oh by the way, I went and saw John Mayer back in Feb and it was great!!!! You will love it!!!! Enjoy!!!!

I will be flying over you on Saturday afternoon!!!!

Take care!

[jeck]

opps double post...