The Sisterhood of the Blue Stilettos

[sassynlv]

For whatever reason... they have internet in this completely remote village. And Sassy DOES NOT pass up internet access! So I updated my blog... and had to chat with the sistas...

Wow! we are getting busy girls! Lots of dildocams, OB ultrasounds, serious stirrup time for the Sistas in the next wk or so. I am tempted to have a "list", but that would seem to much like a cycling thread. And, well, I have serious anxiety attacks just thinking about cycling threads right now. So I will refrain.

First of all... Jenn: CONGRATS! on making it official! Nicely done.

Angie: so scan on Fri, huh? I suppose that is only about 48 hrs from now for you guys. I am betting on a 10... but what will you take... an 8/10? Here come the wombats!!!

Fee: Can't wait to hear about Noggin-anatomy. Any chance we will see pictures????

Vicky: glad to see you are back in the saddle (ahem... stirrups ) again! Will be looking forward to the "follie files" as "we" get serial us reports (my favorite time!)

Mel: dear, dear Mel. Sorry to hear you have been a PMS'ing beotch. Not only is it not fun for our dh... it is hell for us, too! I am hoping that is passing? Or I guess not if Thurs will be cd1. I believe strongly (won't come as a surprise), that us women have to do what works for us during this process. I am glad to hear you two are giving it another shot. But you know what? I would be 100% behind you if you decided not to. Because in the end... it is our mental and emotional health, as well as our marital relationships that are most important. And we (meaning us as individuals and couples) are the only ones who can decide where to draw the line for us. So I honor your courage... both for being honest with yourself that maybe you were done... and for giving it another shot. Bravo.

To everyone else... a big hidey-ho! I am off for some shut eye. Will check next time i manage to scout out internet!

[Angie65]

Hi sistas - it's hotting up on this thread. Very exciting - scans all over the world on Friday!

Jenn - congrats to you - you must be over the moon. Look forward to hearing your numbers.

Mel - sorry that you still feel down but one thing is certain in all this - your mood swing wil pass and you will good again, I promise. And I would like to tell you how impressed I am for you holding it together and not yelling at DH - honestly I have really lost it with my DH over the last few months - it's a horrible feeling.

Thanks for your bets ladies - lining of 10 - that's what I'm aiming for. Estrogen tabs are making my face itch and giving me tiny pimples - other than that so far so good.

Sassy - you're right - let's refrain from the list. I am even denying that I am cycling right now. See - look no ticker this time! I am not counting down the days for anything this time - time is just going to wash over me and carry me along. (How poetic that just sounded (or pathetic - one or the other!) Enjoy your trip and we'll hear from you next time you stumble on a remote internet cafe!

[jenn]

Angie- I agree, I had a ticker this time, but I really tried to not think about anything. I just went with the cycel and celebrated the victories and tried not to think about the negatives. I didn't freak out until the very end last week. My first cycle I looked at every little thing and I thought WAY too much about it! I drove myself insane! THis time I tried to let it go because it was out of my hands.

PS- the estrogen tabs have broken me out too! Not pretty. I haven't had a pimple in years. I keep putting medicine on my face and more appear. Oh well!

Great to hear from you Sassy!

Have a great day ladies! More shopping for me. I have 3 wedding gifts to buy, and one shower gift. I better get going!

[meg12]

Jenn--Welcome to Acne City. Hate to tell you this, but my zits have been horrid since pretty much the first day I found out I was pregnant. Just one of the fun side effects! You totally get used to it after the first 5 months or so

[Melissa112]

WOW! I am so tired! Like 2 hours of sleep tired! ACK! And its all my fault, after I told you guys I was convinced I was ready to start again, I called my sister and cried to her for a while, and I think it's definately time for a break- So I went to my meeting, and put on a happy face, and then DH came home a slight bit sloppy, totally not the right time to talk aobut anything serious, it was after 11PM, I was watching The Starter Wife, and he comes home, we were joking and laughing and I as casual as "Gosh those are cute shoes" say "I'm not doing the Clomid this month" - that was the stooooopidest thing I could have said... DH was crushed upset, hurt, whatever... it was dumb... so this conversation... (just a conversation, not a fight or anything...) lasted until 2AM!!! I don't even remember what we talked about... I didn't - we didn't even fall asleep until 3... then I was up at 6AM, then DH wanted some make up sex... even though we weren't fighting, I guess to him it felt like it, me too, but this AM in the shower he said, you know I love you even though you are a Dork right? (he's so goofy sometimes!)... my eyes are so tired, I even had Starbucks this AM and a bagel, and some pastry... and I am still exhausted...........


It doesn't help that I started this email at 9:50AM and it is not 12:10...


Okay so.... I guess the point of the story is that I am not starting the clomid this but we are getting a puppy.

Yes, I am aware this makes no sense. Don't judge me.

Ange - 10/10 lining is my goal for you! Your lining is strong you can do it!!! Sorry about your itchy pimply face, Estrogen sucks huh! Darn those hormones!

Sassy - SO excited you had intermintent internet access! Whoot!!! Love the blog! I know this emotional stuff stinks, and honestly, there is SO much more to my story with my DH that I am almost embarressed to talk about- but regardless, we are waiting just a few more months... I think I just need to gather up my strength again and start putting back together my rope and I'll be all better. That's the plan anyway.

Jenn- I am still So happy for you, I just cant' stand it!!!

Okay, so I should get to work!

Love you guys, sorry for this emotional breakdown, it's SO not me!!!



But AF arrived today, don't you just love her!

[jenn]

Oh Mel- I could never judge you- you're as crazy as me. It would be like judging myself! What kind of puppy? I have had my sister's puppy with me this week while she is in Disney. It is making me want another! If you are happy with your decision- that is all that matters. We are here for you no matter what!

[Angie65]

Hi Mel - I feel for you - those stressful nights of worry. Been there, done that and I'm sure there's more on the way for me.

Tell us all about your puppy plans and we also want photos! Me and DH may be getting one too when we move into new house (won't be for a couple of months though) - we have a dilemma - a puppy or kitten or both. We have never had pets so it's SOOO exciting.

Sassy - your photos of Iceland are amazing - looks like you and DH are having an amazing time.

[FionaA]

Hey girls, feeling a tad under the weather today, have a mild flu that I just can't seem to shake...

Oh, well bring on the weekend I say.

Now I'm pretty excited about the dildo/scans all happening tomorrow, very exiting times. I'm thinking i'll even crack open the blue sparkly and do my nails (not that I'll take my shoes off) but I'll know how excellent they look and that't the main thing. By the way my feet have grown and I can't fit into my blue stillettoes! Devastating, hope they shrink back!

Angie, I'm liking your new calm approach to this cycle, It's hard not to get overwrought by the process and I applaud you for being zen about it. As far as your lining goes, I can see it now. Dr D will barely be able to control his excitement. His eyes may even get a bit moist. His hands may get a bit shaky (unfortunatley for you) It's the best damned lining he's ever seen in his many years of looking at ladies nether regions. He gives you an eleven. Yes, it goes up to eleven. As far as how many wombats to thaw, I don't envy the decision, I wouldn't have a clue what to do in your shoes, seems the pros and cons are pretty evenly balanced...Good luck with dildo date tomorrow.

Jenn congrats on your beta, looks like the betting is it's twins??? when will we know? huh? huh?

Vicky, I will try to post a scan of Noggin but I am very technologically incompetent, I will do my best! good luck on your date with dildo as well. I have no doubt that your innards will be looking impeccable and that you will be stimming like nobodies business asap!

Mel, you poor thing, you are obviously struggling with a heap of stuff. You are quite entitled to have multiple meltdowns until you get it out of your system. And as for this weeding the lawn in the middle of the night thing that you've got going on....stop it and stop it now! That is far too much hard work. My lawn has not been mowed in over six months. Hasn't had much water either...it is the disgrace of the street. Am anxiously awaiting your bum results, I'm sure you will do good. As far as the office love fest is going my secretary has arranged for another all night bonking session tonight. She is a bit upset though because she has not had any emails from the bloke all day. So insensitive. Plus he is involved with an online dating agency and we know he checks his profile every day. My poor secretary is pissed that he is still looking for someone when he's getting the goods from her.

Sass! Fantastic pics on your blog, you sound like you have already done so much. Hope you are keeping your mind off IF and firmly on having a blast....

Hi to all the other sisters, I have to rush I can hear the managing partner coming up the stairs, he is overweight and a bit unco-ordinated and has a heavy and distinctive footstep.

Fee

[Angie65]

Oh Fee - I do hope Dr D doesn't get shaky hands while manouvering the you know whatsie - that's a very disturbing thought indeed!

Speak tomorrow ladies !

[vicky77]

Hi Sistas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mel.......as I told you before, we are all here for you girl, please vent and rant all you want, don't feel sorry for it, that is what we are here for!!!!

Fee......please try by all means to post a picture of Noggin, maybe you can ask someone in your office to help you and tell them it is to send it to your cyber sistas (but I guess I wouldn't do it if you want to keep your job ), good luck with your scan tomorrow!!!!!

Ange.....how's the new house going??, I would love to have my new home already, but we still haven't even sold ours yet, and I know which one I want already, but unless we sell ours we cannot buy the other one, it's killing me!!!!!. Good luck with dildocam encounter to you too!!!!

Jenn.....are you still celebrating??, I would if I were you . When is your next beta/scan?

Sassy.....I haven't had time to re-check your blog again, I will definitely check it tonight!!!! I'm sure it has fabulous stories and pics!!!

Wanna....where are you???????????????????????, did the twins eat you? , hope you are doing ok!!

Meg....how are you doing girl?, how is the baby treating you this days?

Patie.....we miss you girl, come back!!!!

Well, as far as me, I am getting ready for dildocam appt tomorrow, as I was telling Mel before, I am getting ready to be Mother Hen, since with all the eggies inside of me that is how I feel when I am stimming .......so let's call it Operation Mother Hen!!! (thank you Mel, loved it!! ), looking for lots of eggies/follies. Will update you tomorrow!!

[jenn]

Hey girls-

Vicky- good luck tomorrow with Operation Mother Hen!! Hope you have tons of eggs!

Sassy I'm going to look at the pics later, I'm sure they are great! Hope you are having a blast! When do you return?

I had more blood taken today. They said levels rose beautifully. First ultrasound is Tuesday! She said all we will see are little black dots, but I figure they are MY black dots and i'll be proud of them anyway!

[sassynlv]

A big howdoyoudo to the sistas.

Lots of dildocam action today... I am expecting everyone to report!

Jenn: your levels rose "beautifully", huh? Right on! And I am all for black dot(s)!

Vicky: let Operation Mother Hen begin! I feel like we should christen something... maybe with a bottle of sparkling apple cider instead of wine (a nod to your next 9 month sans alcohol ). Hoping your rendezvous with the dildocam leaves you satisfied

Fee: If I remember right, Noggin has an anatomy check today, no? I am hoping Noggin is on best behavior so all the bits can be seen. See, as for the office lovefest... I just knew this would be a total soap opera! As my mom used to say... why should he buy the cow when he gets the milk for free. What did she think, that he really cared about her? Is she still going for the "all night lovemaking" without any email foreplay???? Do tell!

Angie: I am hoping for you: a fab lining, a zen calmness, and a non-shaky meeting with the dildocam. Will be anxious to hear... Also...you have inspired me and I will be following your example. No ticker for my next cycle (anyway, I am becoming a bit superstitious... for all I know THAT is why I haven't gotten preg on the other cycles ).

mel: oh you know, clomid... puppy... in the end, go with whatever works! Make up sex from non-fights are sometimes the best kind. So hang in there and give yourself some time.

Meg: when is your next us?

Acne. Oh girls. Did I tell you (or more rightly complain to you) about this before I left? I think with all the black widow craziness I totally forgot. I have always had problems with acne, and been on and off different meds for it. OK, so as you all know, since last June, I have either been on bcp or stims. And my acne wasn't really horrible... not pretty, but when i thought I was going to get preg, I was willing to deal. Until March. I went off everything in March. And by the beginning of May, I had acne eruptions all over my upper back, chest and neck (I'm sure the hormone fluctuations sent my body into the equivalent of endocrinologic seizures!). Most were not the nasty deep red ones, just these small, fine, annoying ones. So i trudged back into my Dermatologist friend. As I see it... I have borne enough indignities over the last year, and will over the next 4 months or so... why should I also deal with the acne... especially as I won't be having a transfer until January, and will either be on bcps or stimming until then.

So sitting in his office I realized. It has been a year since I was there in his office telling him I need to go off everything that wouldn't be ok in pregnancy (I wasn't on anything really bad in pregnancy... just stuff that I creams that I should stop if I ended up preg). That I was getting ready to do IVF and needed to be ready to be preg right away. Yeah, right. Wow how things have changed! But, a few weeks later... and my acne is getting better... YEAH!!!!!

[meg12]

Hey there everyone!

Mel--I think getting a puppy is great. So much fun. Any idea on what breed? Or are you more of a mutt gal? Definitely have to get pics....

Ang--Hope that your scan goes well today. Or I suppose went well as it must be past that time in Australia. You know, sometimes I really have to think that you all are so far away from me. Doesn't seem possible. Anyway, hope your uterus was beautiful and that things are on track.

Jenn--You def. should take pride in your dot. And who knows, maybe it will be two dots!

Fee--I'm sooooooooo jealous that you get to see Noggin. Man, I miss that! Are you feeling movement? Have you started telling people at the office or are you still waiting? And I'm so jealous of your office gossip--mine is so boring. Nobody sleeps with each other. How sad.

Sassy--Hope Iceland is going well. Sorry about the acne. It sucks. Glad to hear that it is clearing up so fast. And yeah, time does go so fast doesn't it? I know sometimes when we're in the moment it seems like it's going to last forever but the next thing you know you blink and it's a year later. Oh, and I don't get any more scans unless there's a problem. So either I pray for something bad (that seems wrong) make up something bad (I'm really not a good liar though) or just wait for 16 more weeks for the live show. It really is hard to go from weekly us to none, but I suppose that's a good thing.

Vicky--Mother Hen is great! I'm thinking about you!

We're going to my parent's house tomorrow for the weekend. It's about 2 and 1/2 hours away. They are moving into the house across the street (don't even ask!) so we get to help them move. Anyway, my computer acess may be limited depending on when there's gets moved so it might be a few days before I'm back. I'll be anxious to hear about all of your scans!

[meg12]

OMG! I totally forgot to tell you guys...I had a patient come in today for an eye exam--he's been coming to our office for years so I sort of recognize him. You know, one of those people you see once a year but you both remember each others names. Anyway, I was really hot so I asked him if he was. He said it did seem a little hot in the office. I said "oh, I'm glad you think so. I didn't know if it was just because I was pregnant or if I should go fiddle with the air conditioning." He then replied (wait for it................) "I wondered if you were pregnant or if you had just gotten fat."

I swear. He said that. I about died! Anyway, that's my people are dumb and rude story for the day!

[Angie65]

Oh Meg how rude - you should have poked his eyes accidentally after a comment like that!

Just a quickie update from me. Seem to be on track for FET next week. Lining 6.5 - 7mm according to Dr D "that's good for you"....??!! More Progynova for me and another scan on Tues - so he was as composed usual and definitely no shaky hands!

Meanwhile - I have to start contacting people in US and Canada to organise my work trip - crazy really but that's what I am going to do. Not putting my life on hold for this anymore. My theory is as soon as I book and confirm all the flights, I will get BFP.

Well done Jen - beautiful numbers is what we want and I bet you're looking forward to the black dots.

Fee - have you had yours yet. How is Noggin - was he waving at the camera?

Good luck Vicky too. We get keys to the house next week but won't be moving in for a while - going to get the work on the kitchen and bathroom done first. So hopefully we'll be able to line up the "tradies"(trades people - another aussieism for you all) soon.

Have great weekends girls.