August Frozen Transfer

[Melo_P]

Its my turn: yaaay!!! Thats fab news!!!! You must be totally thrilled! Now you can keep testing - lots and lots to see those double lines reappear! That HTP needs to be vaccum sealed and framed! Well done - keep up the faith and post us on progress (i.e. every repeat HTP you take until beta!!)

Yarnista: Welcome - yes this is indeed the place to vent anxiety and clock watch until beta!

Jersey Jane: 3.26am!!! Okay we're all now officially self confessed thread freaks - but you get the prize this week for most avid checking!! Seriously though - best of luck for tomorrow!! It will go great. We have absolutely 100% faith and surety that the blasts will be defrost perfectly, yay soon you'll be joining the PUPO club. Good luck, good luck!

(hmm - yes that timing is tricky - don't worry - you won't need to take any time off! Its going to be BFP. You don't have to take any decisions on testing for another week or so - you can percolate!

Blair: Not long for you either. And we all think blow by blow accounts of med use and nail filing until US date ARE riveting. There is nothing boring about any of it! I didn't realise how long the medicated FETS are. How long do you actually medicate for before transfer?

Kizmet: Wow what a wonderful couple you make!!! You'll make a wonderful yummy mummy - and quite frankly I wouldn't be giving a hoop about family wars if the 20 and 18 year old can't handle father wanting to find happiness and being happy for you both having a family of your own. It's your turn now. You both deserve it. Every inch of it. They will be happy for you - and if not over indulged teenage angst shouldn't take away the happiness of it for you when it happens - in a few days time!!

What a lovely idea to put faces to names. I'd jump right to it - however I'll have to trawl first through albums and find a rare and well hidden (perhaps slightly touched up) example of moi where I am not in track pants with a double chin Lee and I haven't taken a picture together since i was . . . oh in my early 20's - but maybe I shouldn't have let on. If it has DH in it - you'll know its over 10 years old!!

Melmar: are you going to POAS before you have your beta? You only have a few days right?

Amaut: Whats happening in your corner of the world?

AFM: Nothing to report. No further imaginary implantation tweaks! Plenty of time wasting at work. I am up and down right now. Really want to hold onto the last 6 days (actually thats 5 days and approx. 8 hours) where there is still the chance of hope - but also think I should start really planning and figuring out how I will handle the BFN. Feel like I really need to start advance planning either A) some suitably distracting alternative big life changes (new job? no job? moving to a remote island ... or B) planning an extensive number of garage sales to start funding another cycle. . . .I really can't face this being the end. Upto now I've always known I'd just find a way to keep going - but financially after self funding 3 cycles we are completely screwed and hugely indebted to banks ... with maxed out credit cards . . .

[blairwh58]

itsmyturn- CONGRATS!!!! Keep POAS and you will start to actually believe what it says. Then when you go Saturday to get the great news you can actually be relieved. So exciting for you!!!

yarnista- Sounds like you transferred some great embryos. Best of luck in the 2ww and welcome. This is a great place to vent with others going through the same struggles.

Jersey- Get some sleep!! Sometimes I know exactly how you feel and my mind is bouncing all over the place when I lay down for bed. Normally I just lay there all night because I know if I get out of bed there is no hope of me going back to sleep. My alarm goes off at 5:05a anyway so there have been nights I saw every hour. Things will go great tomorrow so dont stress. I would agree that you should test before you start work. Its going to be a BFP so no worries on that either. And yes I am getting nervous/anxious for my appt friday. They called and pushed it up 2 hours which is a plus. The only downside is if they end up having to push back the transfer because of the lining I would have to wait until next month since the embryologist is only there certain weeks.

melo- Try and stay positive. You will get your BFP soon too and wont have to worry about a new job, or a garage sale for financing. I know what you mean about the credit cards though. Our clinic has a separate "Reproductive Center" where they do all the labwork, transfers, and retrievals...and even though the office is covered by my insurance, that section is not. So we have had to pay cash for all that stuff too. Even though this is only our 2nd IVF we still have a maxed out credit card to show for it. Hoping to pay it off before we start acuring interest though. For this frozen cycle i started BCP July 18, stopped it 8/3 and started estrogen and lupron on 8/6 i think. This is a much longer cycle than my fresh one though.

kizmet- Not too much longer. Im sure its Bean causing all the issues so stay positive. I would def be up for sharing a pic, but right now I am actually at work (hah)...so I have to wait until I get home tonight. Luckily since DH is on call at hospital again I will have all night to play on the computer looking for the perfect picture of us.

AFM- Anxious and stressing about my appointment Friday. Hoping that the lining is perfect and they can transfer my embryos on Tuesday!!

[melmar]

Congratulations itsMyTurn!! You have to be soooo excited!! That is exactly what we needed around here-a BFP to keep the rest of us going.

Jane-you and I could hang out since I am always up in the middle of the night. It is easier for us since we are off from school and do not have to get up at the crack of dawn and if the day is perfect can maybe take a nap. I understand your nervousness and trepidation about tomorrow, that is just how I felt...but I just feel like this thread will have a lot of BFP-so just hang in there and try to relax:)

Blair-you are getting so close! Hopefully it will go perfectly and they will schedule you for the 24th (I just love that number!!)

Welcome Yarnista-you have come to the right place...wishing you lots of baby dust!!

Kizmet-how are ya doing?? I am sure all those "twinges" you are getting is your little one already saying hello!

AFM-POAS this morning-that makes it 7dp3dt..BFN...again-I figured it would be. I will try again on Friday and then on Sunday morning-one day before I go for beta. If it is negative on Sunday-I am going to do a spin class at the gym! I have decided that my life will go on from here. Already started giving away some of my baby stuff to get it out of the house (remember I have two of everything from the twins-so we still will have one set here)...But have definetly decided that whatever the outcome (although hopefully it will be a suprising miracle!!) this is it for me on this journey.

[itsmyturn]

Melo, i sure ll keep them all to frame!!! i did a second test 6 hours later, and it was slightly darker.
I pray for your BFP!!!i think you are the next one to test! do you feel any different?

jersey jane, have a good night sleep to be at your best tomorow. Everything is gonna be just fine.

Kizmet, don t worry, they are really on age to understand!!this would have been more complicated if they were younger. My husband got a 12 years old daughter and on my last BFP(chemical one), we told her directly, hoping she would be please, but she wasn t! she said to her dad, that now it would have no time for her. But my husband remind her that his love for her would never change and that she will always be his little princess. It s a little adaptation for everyone, but i am sure that your husband s children gonna melt when they gonna a see their little brother or sister. You don t have to worry about that, you got already enough on your plate. Concentrate on your happiness. xxxxxx

Melmar, 7dp3dt is far too early!!!! i had a very very faint on 9dp3dt, if i would have done it one day before, it would have been BFN. So keep faith, i would pray for you xxx

[yarnista]

Thanks for all the welcoming I appreciate it! I'm finding it hard to deal with to tell or not to tell others around me. I'm the sort of person who is pretty open but also get my feelings hurt easily. I've only told our close friends are relatives. So what are the rest of you doing to pass the time? I go back to work next week so that will help keep my mind occupied!

[Jerseyjane]

Yarnista - Are you a teacher? I am and I go back to work in 2 weeks, that's why I ask.

Itsmyturn - Congratulations again, you must be so relieved that the lines are getting darker. I think I might be a coward since I have never "cheated" during the 2ww. That's what they call it at my clinic when you use an HPT before the beta.

Melmar - I used to be a horrible insomniac then I learn to cut out caffeine after 10 am and my sleep improved greatly. Lately, I guess because at my clinic fet's have a much lower success rate I just feel so anxious. I do so hope you get your BFP next week, hang in there.

Blair - Thanks for the vote of confidence with the BFP. From your mouth to God's ears you know. Friday is nearly here, I am sure your lining will be perfect.

Melo - Thanks for the luck, I am starting to get that nervous but excited feeling at the same time. I have already cleaned my entire house including doing the hardwood floors, changed the sheets, changed my daughter's crib sheet, did 4 loads of laundry and went food shopping so that DH can't complain that there is too much to do these 2 weeks.

AFM - How many of you ladies ate the core of the pineapple. I have read, not in medical journals but from other's who have posted this that they ate the core of the pineapple, drank grape juice and raspberry tea to help with implantation? When I got pregnant with my daughter I did none of that because I never looked at forums back then. Even with the other two pregnancies that resulted in miscarriage I didn't, but now I starting to wonder why not?

[kizmet]

Melo - Stay positive! These still no reason to think that this might not be the one for you! That and WE ARE ALL GETTING BFPs on this thread! What are these implantation tweaks - I've heard talk of them, but not sure what exactly I'd be looking out for?

JerseyJane - no pineapple for me! I didn't think of it til a couple of days post transfer...

Blair - Good Luck! I hope your lining is perfect!

Itsmyturn - I agree with Melo - keep us posted on those POAS updates! LOL

Yarnista - I'm like you, usually pretty open and it's been hard not to tell everyone what we are going through. I've only told one person at work (basically so I wouldn't burst but also since I work in labs, I needed someone who could do any radiation or other dangerous work and he's been an absolute rock for me). I've told one of my best friends who now seems completely uninterested in my updates, so I've stopped telling her and another friend who had also tried IVf as I thought she would understand, but she's been nothing but negative, so I've told her we're not doing anything for another 12 months.

Melmar - It's hard not to POAS isn't it! I did it Tuesday (so 4dp5dt) and of course WAY too early! I can't decide if I should do one on Saturday 8dp5dt or wait until Tuesday when I get the beta results. I'm going to be at work and can't avoid it (big day in the lab) so maybe I need to POAS before work or ask the clinic if they could ring after 5pm but not sure if I trust them to actually ring.

AFM - Hmmm, nothing. Still feel hot and kinda weak at the knees. Don't know what to think of that still.

PS> Come on ladies, where are the pics? Maybe if we're not keen on pics, perhaps if we could all post something like a few details on our jobs, hobbies, pets, etc?

[blairwh58]

kizmet- It stinks that your friends are being negative. I think it was a good plan to just tell them you are waiting 12 months. I am sure you are feeling wierd because Bean implanted. Cant wait to hear about your BFP.

Jersey- Never heard of the pineapple core...but it obviously counted hurt anything. If you want to try it then just go for it. cant wait to hear how things go for you tomorrow!! Try and get some sleep tonight.

Yarnista- I know what you mean about not telling many people. We actually havent told anyone but one of my friends who did IVF 6 times before she ended up pregnant. Now shes expecting in October. Just stay busy...run errands, clean, watch movies- I did whatever I could to distract myself.

itsmyturn- So exciting to hear that the lines are getting even darker. So glad you could start us off with the BFP!!!

melmar- stay positive, like the others said it is still early. Dont let the negative tests get you down. Keep testing and you will end up with the BFP soon.

AFM- I have tried to figure out how to include my picture but I guess the computer has outsmarted me. I saw where you can add it to your avatar? but mine says that function is disabled. I read on the FAQ page and it said you have to ask the administrator for access. Is there an easier way to go about adding my picture? Other than that nothing exciting for me. Made dinner and am about to finish my movie (I always rent chick flicks when DH is on call since he doesnt like to watch them). Let me know if anyone has advice on the picture- I promise I will post mine.

A little about me- JOB- I work at Humana Inc (oh the irony of working for the insurance company that doesnt pay for any of your Infertility) as a Pharmacy Analyst. Basically I help manage the drugs that are on the formulary, and manage all the edits that go along with them (i.e. Prior Authorizations, Step Therapy, Age/Gender Edits). Nothing too exciting really. I am starting my Masters in Public Health on Sept 7- I have been waiting to go back to school while DH was finishing med school.

[yarnista]

Yes! I am a teacher, physical ed.teach. Us teachers are so spoiled with having the summers off! I would love to post a pic of us but can't seem to figure out how to do it. Anyone know is the fact that we had a 6 cell and a 8 cell put back really good for our chances? I was also wondering if we try again, since we have frozen embies if my age really matters, thanks!

[kizmet]

Yarnista and Blair - you need to upload the pic to a host first - I use picturetrail.com because that's the one I use to host all of the photos on our web page. (http://www.shambalapaintstud.com if anyone's interested). You then copy the URL click on the Img button above the box you reply on the forum with and insert the URL in between the two img things. OR, if you email the pics to me, I'll do it for you (since my explanation above was terrible!!!) kizmet_zing@yahoo.com.au

[blairwh58]

kizmet- I tried what you said but apparently its not working out. When I look at my signature it shows image with a red x by it. I may have to end up emailing you the picture. Am I doing it wrong again?

[Melo_P]

Hi Ladies
I love how this place is a hive of activity! Every day theres a whole bunch of new posts! It's now entrenched as my daily fix!

Jersey - hope the transfer went well, little beans are all now tucked up as snug as bugs and your starting the PUPO stretch off positively! (Note to self to try and do the same!). Pineapples have something called Bromelein (??) in them, an enzme that supposedly helps . . .however - as I discovered in my foray before I went pineapple shopping - you have to eat about 325 of them . . . all in one go . . .in rapid succession - for it to make any difference

Yarnista - yes a perfectly great chance! Re your frozen back up (thats even better if you have more in storage!!) - it's the age you are when they harvest the embryos that matters more (if they are your own and not dontated) age doesn't impact on implantation. Is this your first spin on the merry-go-round? Hope your enjoying so far! And glad you joined fellow roller coaster-ers!

Itsmyturn: wooooohooooohoooo!! With bells and whistles! I am imagining doing a crazy kind of cowboy whoop and swinging a baby dust lasoo around with that wee outbreak! Fantastic. Test away and collect a whole pile of those little sticks of goodness!

Blair: Tomorrow's almost here - am sure your lining will be great. Wow - your going to have busy lives with study . . . and nappies!

Melmar:It is great you do have a game plan and are reconciled to working with whichever way the wind blows - I do wish you luck and baby dust in a swan sang miracle to add to your brood!!

Kizmet: 'Implantation tweaks' are any kind of hypothetical twinge/ache/cramp/stabs/pins and needles/gas/too tight knicker type feelings occuring anywhere between your knees and chest that could possibly in desperation be attributed to the moment when wee beanie digs on in and attaches itself to you. Ahem. Or ... between day 7 and day 10 (DPO) is when the embryo attaches itself to uterine wall and things start looking pretty damn good. Often women feel a twinge or get a bit of spotting. Once it's implanted is when the HCG level (prego hormone) starts rising. Later implantation will mean a later BFP on a POAS . Those weak knees can surely be attributed to this!


Hope I didn't miss anyone.

AFM and life snippets #1. Nothing is happening. Just waiting around. Agonizing over imaginary symptoms. My boobs went from feeling sore to more normal (not good sign), but I if I thought long and hard maybe I could detect faint nausea (good sign), one little stomach stabbing as I rushed to work (good sign?) but starting to get that heavy heavy bloaty AFM feeling (very bad sign ). I've lived in NZ for 12 years (but am english) - followed the boy that I met in Japan. Work in CBD in Wellington as product/market manager for educational publishing company in the international bit of business. Not sure if photo is up - but literally cannot find ANY photo of the three of us with eyes open or all looking at a camera!

[Melo_P]

. . .attempt at photo upload kaput. too big? not proper hosting site? Sorry kizmet - I'll send to you! It will be kind of neat to see everyone!
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[melmar]

Good Morning Everyone!

Good Luck today Jane!! BabyDust...BabyDust...BabyDust!!

I love when there are a bunch of posts around here!! Melo, I loved your "implantation tweaks" description! I always forget that it takes that little bean a couple of days to implant...gives me a little hope anyway.

Kizmet-gonna try and upload a photo..do not know if it will work...

[itsmyturn]

hello girls,

Today i am not feeling very good, poas this morning and the line was slightly lighter as yesterday. I am all paranoid now!!!
i feel like it s gonna be another chemical. I am so devastated!!! what s wrong with me? has anyone experienced that before? can t go through this again!! I had one in march with my first ivf, and one in may with 1st fet!!!
Hope you are all holding good!! big xxx