Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[fvrogers]

We - Thank God! There is still hope. That is what matters. All is not lost. Take it easy, rest and stay in prayer. He did see a sac and that give us hope. I am constantly praying for you and your DH. Have you had anymore bleeding or cramps?

Felicia

[blessed143]

I am so behind. \

WE-I am so sorry that you are going through this. THere is still hope . DOnt get down. Did he think maybe you had two and lost one? I know that this is so hard and stressful for you. Please know that you are on all our minds. I am thinking of you! I am going to keep you in my prayers and I pray that the numbers from your beta come back good. I am thinking of you! Take care and I know that you are going to have this on your mind but try to relax a little. I am so sorry... Dont give up!!!!!!!!!

[Lauren319]

We - I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's all going to be ok. Please rest today, hun, and tell us how youre feeling later. Thinking of you.

[tuffy4u]

We- wow, some good news, glad to hear there is a sac! I hope that the numbers come back positive today. Will you get them still today or will you have to wait? I wish there was something I could do to make this a little easier for you.

Kat

[WeHaveHope]

I just woke up after a very heavy sleep. DH says I feel asleep on the couch for about two hours. Before falling asleep my RE called me. He is not on-call this weekend and was at a conference in Orlando today but my IVF nurse sent him a text to let him know what had happened and he wanted to speak with me. Lord, bless my RE. He is absolutely the most wonderful doctor on this planet.

My RE essentially told me the same thing that the RE told me today. There I just something about heating it from him because he knows me so well. He is also holding out some hope. He said that my Betas have been so wonderful even more so than last cycle. He also said that that this time we made it a little further in that we were able to confirm the pregnancy with the presence of the gestational sack. He's hoping that maybe there were two and that the one that is left will thrive. Or that despite the bleeding the one will thrive. He was very sorry because he knows that DH and I are going to be on pins and kneedles for several days but there is really nothing anyone can do. We will have to wait until Tuesday an see if the Beta goes up or drops?

My heart breaks not just for what I'm feeling but for DH. He asked me today if this doesn't work if we could just not try again? Not because he doesn't want a baby from the two of us but because emotionally this has all been so much. We are both hurting so much. I told him that I love him and that I will respect whatever he wants to do. He really did not like that answer and pressed me for what I really wanted. He says he does not want me to regret any decision ever. So I told him that what I really wish else would do is try the two more times we have because that is how many embryos we have left to try. Two embryos for each of the two transfers. I told him that I would hate to wonder later in life what would have happened and if in fact any of the four embryos left would have given us our baby. Buy at the same time that I completely understood and respected his feelings. So he said that the decision was made, that we would try again bit wanted to maybe give it a break and not try until January or February. My heart and soul thanks gym so much for trying to give me what obeant so much but I dont want to continue this and hurt him anymore than he has been hurt. I love him so much and I see what this has done to him. I don't know, we will have to talk about it some more Nd pray about it. For now, we still have a gestational sack that I don't know what is going onnor what is eventually going to happen. There are so many scenarios one can go crazy thinking about it.

I know I have to trust in God despite the outcome but it's not easy. I pray that God gives me the strength to deal with this. I pray that he gives DH and I peace I our hearts. Maybe, the family I have is the family I am supposed to have. Maybe I am searching for something that I already have. God has blessed me with one son and two step children and a wonderful husband. Maybe that's all that is written for me. I don't know. I just really yearned for a little miracle that was a piece of me and a piece of DH. Something deep withing want and looks for this.

I don't think I'm having anymore active bleeding but I really don't know. I just webt to the bathroom and had some bright red bleed but i think it may have beenthe blood that the RE saw on the ultrasound this morning because that had not been expelled yet. My RE said not to be surprised if there was a large amount of blood tomorrow morning because it would be an accumulation of 8 or so hours. Physically I guess I'm feeling a bit better. Not having the cramping I had last night but I don't know that this means anything at all.

I can't possibly ever repay you guys for what you have all given me.

[bodie1011]

WE - hang in there honey. The fact that he saw the sac is good news. I'm not giving up!

AFM - beta came back as 248. I also will be on pins and needles until Tuesday to see if it rising appropriately.

[akdelp]

We- What an awesome RE you have! I really pray that everything will be good. I just cry when I read your posts. This week is the week we lost ours last time and I just keep thinking we need to get past that point, and you know, then we still aren't safe. I know this may seem weird to most but I was like your DH. Not sure I really could do this again and my DH was the one to tell me he didn't want to regret leaving our embies frozen and never knowing...and like you, I love him dearly and respect him enough to kepp trying. I honestly pray that this will work itself out for you. You are such and inspiration to all of us.

[kala0704]

Bodie: Congrats on the darker line and on your nice beta!

Tuffy: TWINS!!! how exciting...i hope they keep growing beautiful...nice friend you have there

Lauren-hahaha....way to vent girlfriend! you made me laugh...when it rains it poors! That was me a few days ago...I just couldnt get a grip! Remember all of us IVFers are fat. Everyone around me knew I was doing IVF so no one said anything about my weight gain and if they did I would tell them they should try shooting themselves up full of hormones! I hope your day got better and your lego cake turned out.

We: what a emotional roller coaster. I hope you are getting some well needed rest and lets see how things go. I went from tears to smiles while reading your posts. WE HAVE HOPE for you! I agree about giving your embies a chance. I was talking to my dad about going through the FET and he said you dont want to go through all that stress again and I looked at DD and said but it was all soooo worth it. All these trails and tribulations makes it that much sweeter in the end. Im praying that the little bean in your tummy is still hanging on and growing! Are you cheering it on and talking to it?

AFM: Someone asked why I go to Serbia. DH is from there. We found an amazing clinic in Belgrade and the whole IVF process inculding meds whas $4500. We were able to find viable sperm here in Denver but had to bring with us. We brought it in a liquid nitrogen tank that looked like a bomb and could not be x-rayed. Try explaining that story to TSA, flight attendants, and security! When we were ready to ICSI, all the sperm died. The dr then used a needle three times to get something from DH, he used the biggest size they had. Poor DH. The sperm was barely moving so the used a solution to wake them up. We had 9 sperm...that was it! and fertilzed 7 eggs. Well, here we go again...at least we dont have to travel with a "bomb" this time.
Also, AF came on Friday! Horaay! Thanks for all those rockin AF dance ladies. Now I have to email my RE and find out what is next on the agenda.

[Gina1976]

We- I'm glad it has gone up! Hope it will continue to increase. I know this is a very hard time for you and your Dh. Glad you've agree'd on something if this doesn't work. Again, what a great RE you have.

Prayers will continue! Lots of hugs!!

[Ninde]

We: it sounds like your dh and yourself have an amazing relationship and im really glad about that. Myself and my dh have been through our difficulties with the strain that his ms has put on us both. That's why we cant have children without ivf - both because of low sperm count and because also it hit his erectile functioning and for 11 years he has had no interest in any sort of a sexual relationship with me. That's been really tough I can tell you. Strangely since the miscarriage we have become alot closer. And so im praying for all of you and im so glad that you have each other.

Ninde

[dogzrule]

We, I have to believe that what you may have lost was a multiple and that the one that was seen is just fine! On this pregnancy, I had bright red bleeding and cramping at 5 weeks. It lasted for a few hours, and my RE was unconcerned. Turned out that all really was fine, and we think it was probably the loss of one of the two that had been transferred. Also, on my first pregnancy, my betas plateaued, and we were told we were most likely miscarrying. They were wrong, and my daughter is upstairs right now taking her afternoon nap. You have a lot of people believing for you and standing in the gap. God knows the outcome, but I know full well what you are going through right now. My husband and I grieved what we believed was the miscarriage of our daughter yet found out 3 days later that God was bigger than the doctors and the betas and our grief. He turned our mourning into dancing, and I am believing that for you.

[LYD10]

We-you poor thing, I can't believe you are being taken on a beta roller coaster ride again. How terrible. Please hang in there - I have a really good feeling for you. I think you started with two and now it's down to one and that's why you have the beta roller coaster and some bleeding. There is lots of success cases where beta doesn't doubly exactly right because of a second sac not making it and bleeding is so common. I really thing you have a great chance of it growing nicely again on Tuesday. Just hang in till Tuesday please. I think it's so unlikely that you would have two miscarriages like this in a row. In my experience It's always something different the next time. I think this time you are just being taken on a beta ride. Because you started with two. I am keeping you in my thoughts. It's all going to be ok on Tuesday. And you wanted one - maybe this is universes way of giving you exactly what you want. One healthy baby.

Kala, your story is amazing!. They got 9 sperm and you have a DD now. How amazing! That's sounds like a very good clinic. I am sure you'll get success there again.

[fvrogers]

WeHaveHope - I am continuing to hold you close in prayer until Tuesday. I just know that our God is an awesome God and he is right by your side. You are also blessed to have a great DH by your side. His support is awesome. I can understand how emotionally draining this is for you both but it is great that despite it all he is willing to keep going. But in my heart I believe you will have your little one in your arms next summer. I PMd you a prayer that I find very comforting, I hope it bring you the same comfort and peace. Stay strong hun and know that we are all here praying and supporting you!

Kala - I am glad that AF finally came around!!! I am very impressed with your clinic in Serbia. Now who does your monitoring while you stim? Or do you stim there? How soon after the transfer do your return to the US? DH and I considered a clinic in Europe but decided against it because I was not too sure how much time I would have been able to get off from work. Especially since it has taken multiple cycles for me to get my BFP. But it is amazing how much cheaper the IVF process is in some countries!

Bodie - Congrats on that awesome beta!!! I will pray for your next beta to rise and that little one to snuggle in for a healthy and happy nine months!

[WeHaveHope]

UPDATED 10-16-11 @ 8:50pm EST. Please let me know if I have missed anyone or if I'm missing any updates. Sending you lots of xoxoxo.







UPDATE NEEDED
Melinda72-ER 9-12-11
Kendra_n_Michael-estimated ER 9-20-11


Becca-u/s 10-21 FET 10-28-11
Amanda1979-FET Oct/2011
Kerribell FET Nov/2011
Blessed143-FET scheduled for November 3rd
Tess69-FET Nov/2011
Kala0704-FET Dec/2011


Tamera-11/2011
Kiminsh-Fall/2011
Alwaysangel-Fall/2011
Sunshine1576-Fall/2011
Lyd10-Fall/2011
Anton-Fall/2011
Fruit-Fall/2011
Krrice28-IVF 10/2011
Jasmin-Fall/2011
Cheri76-Fall IVF
LauraN-Nov/2011
Neffi211-ET scheduled for 11-2-11
Bebesperanza-Fall/2011
Catdempsey-Fall/2011 ER end of October
Greekchick Fall/2011
Kerri_789 IVF Fall/2011
Sky7371-ER scheduled on 10-24-11
Gina1976-will schedule appt w/RE in several months for 1st IVF




Kerpupples-on BCP for cycle Fall/2011
JenMink55-Start BCP on 9-14-11 for Fall IVF
Leorira-On BCP for FET 11/2011.
Rosie84-On BCP for IVF Oct/Nov 2011
Outlaw927-started BCP on 10-7 for 1st IVF attempt Fall/2011



Lauren319-Fall/2011
SamanthaRae21-Fall/2011




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Furmomma-PUPO in the 2WW.
Blueeyedreamer-PUPO on 19-13(2 hatching blasts). Beta 10-26.
Jen8675309-PUPO on 10-14(2 embies). Beta 10-27.

RESULTS

Fvrogers-PUPO on 9-22-11 (2 blasts). BFP 9-30 Beta=57, 10-3=290
Akdelp-PUPO on 9-22-11 (1 expanded blast) BFP 10-3 Beta=205, Beta 10-5=575
Tuffy4u-PUPO on 9-24-11 (2 blasts). BFP 10-3 Beta=205, Beta 10-5=519, early u/s twins
K8ielovett-PUPO 9-19-11. BFP 10-3 Beta=953, Beta 10-6=3403
Toniaa-PUPO 9-24-11(2 blasts). 10-6 +HPT, No Beta waiting for u/s
WeHaveHope-PUPO 9-30-11(2 Blasts).10-4 +HPT, 10-10 BFP Beta=656, 10-12 Beta=1,644, 10-14 Beta=3,249, 10-16 Beta=4,236
Counsel13-PUPO(4 embies). BFP 16dpo=470, 18dpo=2060
Bodie1011-PUPO 10-7(2 embies). 10-14 +HPT, 10-16 Beta=248


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Indigofire
Kamina


Ninde
Sunshineandstars

[moorebaby]

WeHaveHope- Oh sweetie...I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm really hoping that 1 of the 2 embies miscarried as painful as that is too. I'm really hoping the other embie is a strong, little guy & will continue to grow & develop. Please know that I'm thinking of you & DH. (((HUGS)))