JAN/FEB/MAR 2009 Ladies!!! :arrow:

to_have_fun08 · Post by **to_have_fun08** » Tue Mar 10, 2009 2:41 pm

Molly - You must be thinking of someone else. I am currently stimming again. Boy do I wish I could have a beta tomorrow and be past all this crap.

I feel like am going to explode. I have been on stims for 14 days and I feel like there is a watermelon in each of my ovaries. UUUGGHHH. I wish my 44mm one would disappear, I know that it why I am having all these pains in my right side. I can't even sit comfortably. I have to suffer for a few more days. OH YEAHH!!!!

Chris

Molly23 · Post by **Molly23** » Tue Mar 10, 2009 3:32 pm

To Have Fun so so sorry. I for some weird reason always mix your name up with Lady J in my head.

tabatha1975 · Post by **tabatha1975** » Tue Mar 10, 2009 6:16 pm

It feels like all I do is cry this lupron is making me crazy, my husband is the most selfish person he doesn't hug me or touch me at all this is all taking it's toll and now with having no support from him I'm even more depressed it is making me wonder if I should even do this and on top of everything else at still hasn't come I'm usually like clockwork every 28 days now 4 days late we only had sex on valentines day and after 4 years of trying what are the odds I wouldve become pregnant right before doing ivf? You all ate my only support what do I do? I'm so sad is it the lupron)

Hopeful_VA · Post by **Hopeful_VA** » Tue Mar 10, 2009 7:27 pm

tabatha1975 -- I am so sorry to hear how tough of a time you are having right now. Going through this process was/is the most emotional thing I have ever dealt with. You need to tell yourself that in the end it will all be worth it. I am sure the fact that your "firend" is taking her sweet time showing up is the root of the emotional rollercoaster at this point and unfortunatley the more stressed you are the more likely you are to delay her from showing her face. Sounds like you need a relaxing spa day to take your mind off everything.

As for your DH being so selfish, maybe you should have a serious heart to heart with him because right now you need his love and support because with it the process will be even harder.

Wondercat · Post by **Wondercat** » Tue Mar 10, 2009 9:18 pm

I got my second beta results today - up from 136 to 314! So they're not super high, but are progressing properly. I'm scheduled for my first u/s next Wednesday 3/18, which gives me a new testing date to sit around and worry about. Personally I don't want to tell anybody until after the u/s, but we'll see if I can restrain my husband for that long.

Question: This is my first BFP. Can anyone else out there who has had a successful cycle tell me approximately how much longer I will be taking the progesterone shots for? They're really starting to lose their novelty...

Oh, also I have had a pounding headache off and on for the past few days. Any thoughts on if this could be from the shots, or the pregnancy? (Or I suppose could be the crappy weather - the weekend was 60 degrees and sunny, yesterday was 38 and raining/snowing!)

nursegator · Post by **nursegator** » Tue Mar 10, 2009 9:24 pm

Wondercat: Congrats on a great 2nd Beta! This is my first BFP, and I'm so excited I told everyone! I know in my head that it's not a good idea to blab so early on, but I just couldn't help it! I have read that some women stay on progesterone through the entire first trimester! Have you asked about switching to progesterone vaginal suppositories instead of PIO?

Lady_J · Post by **Lady_J** » Tue Mar 10, 2009 11:37 pm

hello Ladies... Well, I had to stay in today from work. Once again, I was such an emotional wreck this morning. My DH felt bad and told me to stay home with him and we could cuddle all day. So I did, how can I pass that up

so we laid in bed and cuddled ad fell asleep and then cuddled some more. Made me feel really good. So now he has left for work and here I am again feeling down. I havent POAS again, I am too scared to. I am going to stick it out till Thursday. So 2 more days and I will get my official results.

CA.... Hun, did you get your Beta Results yet hun? Good Luck, I hope it is good news. Thinking of u.

Wondercat... Congrats on those Beta numbers. I hope u get to see your little bean next week.

Tabatha... My emotional girl, I feel you. Hun, do u have any HPTs, u may want to do one JIC or have your RE do a blood test, especially if u were so regular. Cause one time is all u need. And yes, women have gotten so lucky and gotten PG while on Lupron. There was a forum a couple months back about a girl that got PG while on Lupron. So hun, defo u may ant to take an hpt cuz if u r PG, then u want to Stop Lurpon right away. I hope u r PG and like that u wont have to go thru the drama that goes on in a cycle.As for your DH... defo tell him how u feel. Cuz, my DH is so supportive thru this cycle and last, but I still need some extra loving and if I dont get it, one of the reasons I am an emotional wreck. So tell him how u feel but first go do an HPT just to clear your mind. Good Luck.

Chris... So when is your next US... any idea if u r going to get to do ER this cycle? So far so good???

Molly... So how u feeling besides the back ache? Any MS yet? Good luck tomorrow at your first OB apptment.

Rosario.,... I am sorry that you are still going thru this ordeal. It is obvious that he isnt making an effort to show he is sorry and things are not going to get any better. First of all, it is NOT your fault... if anything maybe things are happening like this for a reason as far as you not being able to giv him a child. Maybe GOD is taking control of your life right now and he doesnt feel it is the right moment for YOU. Hun... God can heal your pain, but you have to allow him to. And if you keep yourself in the situation that isnt making you happy, then GOD can only guide you thru the pain. I hope I made sense. Whatever you decide for yourself hun, I wish you the best of luck... and if it means going back to NY to start your life again, then let it be... everything will fall into place. Good Luck hun.

tabatha1975 · Post by **tabatha1975** » Wed Mar 11, 2009 3:15 am

ladyj, i poas it was bfn i wish i would start already, if dh does'nt become alittle more supportive i'm cancelling because if he is like this now how will he be if we have a baby? i never new how much of an a** he was until now.

CAFirstInvitro · Post by **CAFirstInvitro** » Wed Mar 11, 2009 5:49 am

bfn thats all i can say. my dh and i are hearbroken. we don't know where to pick up the pieces. i just can't feel anymore.

Hopeful_VA · Post by **Hopeful_VA** » Wed Mar 11, 2009 11:53 am

Wondercat --- I was told that I would be on the progesterone shots until week 10. They told me that I could switch to the vaginal inserts however since everything is going fine I didn't want to change anything. My DH has gotten so good with the shots that I barely feel anything and I don't even numb the area anymore! The trick is to have him insert the needle as quickly as possible.

babyluv · Post by **babyluv** » Wed Mar 11, 2009 12:34 pm

CAFirst, I am so very sorry about your BFN. I know how hard it is. Don't pressure yourself to figure out what's next, just let yourself be sad.

Tabitha, some men just really don't know how to handle stuff like this, but you have to be comfortable with everything before proceeding. If you don't think he'll be a good dad, hold off for awhile. If it's just that he is scared too, try opening up communication. I know it's hard, but this is one of the most important decisions of your life...it's worth the awkwardness to figure out what page you both are on. Best of luck.

Lady-J, good luck on your beta tomorrow. I'm rooting for you!

Wondercat · Post by **Wondercat** » Wed Mar 11, 2009 1:46 pm

So we ended up telling my parents last night. My sister is in the hospital right now and my mom is in VA taking care of her kids. It's been 25 years since she has had children that young on a day-to-day basis and she sounded like she needed a pick-me-up! And of course, we couldn't tell her and not my dad. But they must have already had a feeling this one went right because my my dad's response was, "I thought we knew that already." I suspect it was when I had to abruptly stop eating my hot dog and leave the table when I was visiting them last week...

nursegator - I AM finding it hard not to tell everybody, but for right now we are not telling my in-laws. My MIL is not mentally stable (bi-polar w/paranoid delusions) and I don't want to get her all excited about having her first grandchild until I see my "little bean" on the ultrasound. Pretty good timing, though, her birthday is next week so if all looks good we're going to give her a birthday card to Grandma.

Hopeful_VA - Oh, my, five more weeks of shots. My husband is very good at giving the shots; I usually don't feel a thing at the time. It's afterward that's the problem. I have a very lean flank that doesn't make things easier in this regard. (Chalk up another downside to being genetically thin, in addition to the fact that strangers at Chamber of Commerce mixers think that it's socially OK to call me a "skinny *****" to my face.) My hips are completely bruised and sore, right down to the bones. We made the switch yesterday from 1.5 to 1 inch needles, so hopefully that will work out better.

CAFirstInvitro - I'm so sorry this time around didn't work out for you. Don't worry about picking up the pieces yet. Just give yourselves time to mourn and emotionally heal at your own pace. I'm not sure if this will really make you feel better, but I was your age when I first started. And it took a few tries and a few years but we got there. You don't want it to take that long, because we want it NOW - but given the changes that have happened in our lives since then (moved across the state, new jobs, new house) I have to say that some higher power knew what was up and it has happened now at the right time.

Tabatha1975 - I don't know your husband so I can't speak directly to his state of assholery, but I would say that we have all felt like that about our guys at some point during this. Most men just don't know what to do half the time to be "supportive" without specific instructions, and not knowing what to do makes them feel desperate and then act like jerks. I know I have DEFINITELY felt that way about my husband - and this is the guy who has been walking our dogs, cleaning the litterboxes, drugging our one stupid cat that needs anti-anxiety meds (don't ask), doing all the laundry, half the food shopping, half the dinner cooking, and paying somebody to clean our house. But again, don't let that resume fool you because there have also been times when I was crying and calling him an a**hole.

Lady_J · Post by **Lady_J** » Wed Mar 11, 2009 1:50 pm

CA... I am so sorry for your BFN! I don't know what to say, just that I understand the feeling and you go ahead and cry your ass off. Cry to your DH, cry to us, just cry. And when you are done crying hun, just know that we will be here to support you again and again. I hope you pick up the peices and when you decide to start a new cycle, things will work out better this time and you get your well deserved BFP. Look at this as your Trial Cycle... now the RE knows how he can improve your cycle and maybe set a new protocol for you, and with that u will get your BFP. Hun, we were supposed to get our BFPs together

, now tomorrow I get my results, even though I know in my gut, it is going to be a BFN as well. So take your time healing and when u come back, maybe we will be cycling together again. Good Luck hun.

Babyluv... TY hun. What I need is a miracle for tomorrow.

to_have_fun08 · Post by **to_have_fun08** » Wed Mar 11, 2009 2:19 pm

CA - So sorry about your BFN. Take some time off, try not to worry about IVF. Let your body get back to normal and then try and decide our next step.

Lady_J - I am keeping my fingers crossed for your BFP tomorrow. I know you feel that it didn't work but you never know. Are you going to POAS tomorrow.

Tabitha - I agree with the other ladies. I think you just need to have a good talk with DH. Maybe he doesn't realize what he is doing is making you crazy. He might also have some issues with you and that is why he is acting this way. You never know until you try and communicate. Wishing you the best of luck.

Rosario - How are you doing?

AFM - I now have 8 measurable follies. They range from 12 - 19.5. I should stim for another day or two. Will probably have ER on Sat or Sun. My big 44mm follie is still there and I also have 2 other follies growing in that ovary so now I have this constant pain in my right ovary. Oh well, I can endure the pain. Just hoping that I get some good eggs.

Chris

tabatha1975 · Post by **tabatha1975** » Wed Mar 11, 2009 2:33 pm

Thanks to everyone, af finally came, I'm on the way to re office to get b/ a and u/s maybe get to start stims soon, dh is alittle better

JAN/FEB/MAR 2009 Ladies!!! :arrow:

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