March/April cycle buddies??

[Neffi211]

Hi Ladies--


CT Michele-- I'm sorry to hear that your POAS isnt going according to plan. I totally agree with you on how horrible it is that $ makes these life decisions for us! I think if the financial part of IVF would go away there would probably be more BFPs since everyones stress level would be lower! I hope this is a late inplanter like Ella was, but if not, hopefully you will be able to find the $ for another FET!

hwj-- Im sorry to hear of the tough time you are having with your BFN...I have been there, it sucks! But know that even though you did everything right, there is still only a 50% chance of a BFP for most people. Just like for people that conceive naturally...I think theres only a 30-40% chance of conceiving each month! Don't give up hope! You will get your baby!

AFM-- SInce I had to push back this cycle for my eval of uterus, now my bw is showing very high E2 levels so I might have to cancel this cycle....I have another bw and u/s tomorrow and should know more by then. I have a lot more follicles this time, so I dont know whats going on. I have always had a very smooth stimming time. So this is all new to me. Ill let you guys know whats going on tomorrow. COngrats to those who just had ET PUPO!!!!!

[Neffi211]

Hello Ladies--

Where is everyone??

CT Michele-- I think that since we havent heard from you this morning that your HPT was still neg??? I hope it turns positive by the afternoon...is your beta tomorrow?

AFM-- well of my 27 follies only about 12 are growing...which is more the number I usually have. I am waiting to hear about the bw. Im think that ER will be wed-fri?? So I am happy with that as long as my e2 levels arent crazy today. DH and I found out today that we are going to be on Cobra until at least the end of the year! This is great news for us....if this cycle doesnt work we dont have to jump back into another. We plan on an August and October cycle if tis one doesnt work out...although for some reason I think Im going to get a BFP this time!

[amfmbaby]

Wow the board has been quiet where did everyone go?

Ct any lines yet?

Neffi I love your pma about this one being it
If this is it are you hoping jack has little brother or sister?

Hjw thank you for all of your positive vibes I wish I had the right words to say to help ease the pain you and dh are going through I can say I know how you feel but it is truely unique for everyone I can only say stay strong for one another and keep going your time is coming have faith.

AFM I took trigger shot last night ER is at 8am and my expectations are low guess it's a built cushion for just in case last time I had expected all of my eggs to be fertlized and retrieved but only 2 and only 1 fertlized and of coarse the bfn that followed wow what a let down now I know better then to get hopes that high well I'm off to play hookie from work and sneak newphews out to zoo what are aunts for what's one missed day of school

[Sari]

Hello everyone:

Congratulations to all the BFP's, the journey is just begining. So stay positive and enjoy this time of your life.

To those with BFN, don't loose faith, it wasn't the moment. I know how much I hated those words, but it's going to happen, just keep fighting and PMA all the time. Just look the meaning of the word faith, is just to be sure of something you can't see. Take your time to relax and make a new plan.

Michelle - Don't loose your PMA, you know better than anyone here, no one knows for sure until beta. Baby dust for you. I am crossing my fingers for you. You were a big help for me and truly wish the very best for you. Keep us posted.

PUPO girls, enjoy it and pamper yourself.

Hugs for everyone,

Sary

[estrellita]

Hi everyone!
Michele How is your hpt marathon? Hope this cycle works for you and you don't have to do another one, just keep your faith until the last minute, you've been witness of a few miracles here. Wish you the best.
amfmbaby Good Luck on your ER

AFM From 14 fertilised eggs, 10 were very good yesterday and 4 were growing too slow. So I'll have a 5 days transfer tomorrow. Thanks everyone for the good wishes

[CT_Michele]

thank you girls for all of the support...

neffi, you are right, I have not been posting because my results have not changed yet and it is definitely getting to me. I blew through all of my online bulk order of hpts, and had dh go and get more today, and still bfn's. I have 2 tests left and I am not sure that will even be enough at this point, I want to use one every time I pee, since I know a few hours at this point can make the difference.

I really am trying to stay positive but it is so hard right now, all I want to do is cry. My beta is at 8 am tomorrow, I will probably have results by 2. I know there is still hope, but honestly, at this point, if it is positive, I expect the number to be super low since I am not having luck with the hpt's. Maybe they will change later. I am going to try and save one for tonight and one for the morning.

I wish I felt like doing the personals right now, but I just can't, I have been so depressed, my house is a mess and all I want to do is sleep. I knew if I got a negative I would feel this way, and it will probably take a couple days to get out of this funk. Thank you again for all your support, and if I see that second line...I will definitely let you know!

[dys24]

Hi Ladies, its been a while since i signed on here had a crazy-busy weekend and work is v. busy too.

I wanted to check on my girl Michele, I'm so sorry about your - hpts , I know exactly how you feel its nothing worst then to see those stupid hpts come back negative. I hope tomorrow will be different and that you will get a + on your Beta. Will be thinking about you

estrellita- GL on your transfer tomorrow!! 10 embies on day5 is awesome!

amfmbaby- GL on your ER! I hope you will get lots of good eggies!

Neffi211- great news on your insurance, and 12 follies sounds great!


AFM nothing really happening much no real symptoms of pregnancy except little nauseous sometimes but nothing major, but I do go to sleep at 6pm everyday lol I'm anxious about my u/s on fri, thank god these 2 weeks I've been super busy so time passed by quickly... ok g2g back to work

[estrellita]

Michele Sorry about your hpts. You still have until tomorrow. It's hard but you have to try to be positive and thankful that you have frost embies and most of all that you have your gorgeous Ella. Good Luck tomorrow, I'll try to sign in to check on you and wish you the best.

[statsgoddess]

estrellita and amfmbaby - good luck on your upcoming ET and ER!

ct_michele - really sorry to hear about your hpts - I hope your beta proves them wrong tomorrow. I looked at your pics of Ella today and she's adorable! Be glad you'll be coming home to her hugs tomorrow either way - you are already really blessed!

[sbr]

I'm still "lurking" on this board even though it's been weeks since my BFN. Congrats to those with BFPs.

CT Michele: I'm so sorry that your HPTs are negative. I know exactly how you feel. Depressed, freaking out about money, etc. I also know that you had great hope because you got pregnant the first try with Ella as I did with Jack. I had a false hope that since I got pregnant the first time with Jack that it would happen with a second. Nope. Now I'm part of the BFN club and I can understand others better. IF this is your fate too, I'm confident that you'll bounce back as I did and brush off and hope back on the saddle again. We don't have the money either, but I refuse to let $ to be the reason why we don't try another FET. So, credit card debt, here we come! I'll check in again tomorrow...

Hazel: I'm so sad that you didn't get the BFP that we all want so badly. The BFN club is not a fun one to be in, BUT I assure you with a little time, you'll feel ready to face the rollercoaster again. Keep your chin up!

AFM, I finally get to start Lupron again. It actually hasn't been that long since my BFN (4-12), but it's seemed like ages! My FET will be June 11th! Wish me luck!

~Sarah

[Neffi211]

Sarah-- glad to see you can do your FET so soon! Good Luck....this will be your time!

AFM-- just got my call-- I trigger tomorrow! ER 8 am Thursday morning. So my babies will be sitting in the REs office for Mothers Day, but at least they will be here! ET scheduled for Tuesday next week. This is my time, I can feel it. Oh and my e2 was normal, but I have bw tomorrow again, I guess they are just watching it more closely...it was over 800 today

[Neffi211]

Sarah-- glad to see you can do your FET so soon! Good Luck....this will be your time!

AFM-- just got my call-- I trigger tomorrow! ER 8 am Thursday morning. So my babies will be sitting in the REs office for Mothers Day, but at least they will be here! ET scheduled for Tuesday next week. This is my time, I can feel it. Oh and my e2 was normal, but I have bw tomorrow again, I guess they are just watching it more closely...it was over 800 today

[trx0424]

Michelle. My prayers are yours. God is in control.

[trx0424]

God has a plan for everyone of us. He doesn't forget, all He wants is for us to be happy and just to trust Him always. God is never late..He is always ON TIME. His time is perfect and different from us.

God bless everyone and continues to strengthen us on this journey that we have.

[CT_Michele]

I should know in just another 4-5 torturous hours. I just got back from blood work, and I was a wreck. I took my last hpt before I left and it was still negative. I sobbed most of the 30 min. drive to the clinic and then tried to gain some composure before going in. I did okay until the nurses called me in, and as soon as I sat in the blood draw chair, I apologized to them and started crying. They immediately asked if I had gotten my period and when I said no, they said not to worry yet. They reminded me that every pregnancy is different and I could certainly be pregnant with numbers too low for an hpt. I told them I know that but just know it is a slim chance and that I am just not very optimistic at this point. I also told them that if my beta is positive then I swear I will never take another home test again! I will let you all know as soon as I hear anything.

Sarah- I felt the same as you...false hope that since it worked the first time it would this time too. I just thought maybe I had a little advantage since my RE already knew what worked with me, but I guess I was wrong to think that. I am sure I will be joining you soon in the mountain of debt, I just hate the thoughts of it since I have worked so hard keeping me and dh out of debt.

I am surprised at how hard I am taking this possible negative. I thought the blow would be softened since I am blessed with my Ella, and don't get me wrong, I am so grateful, but I think part of why this is so hard is b/c I know what I am missing this time. Last time, I had no idea what would come if I got pregnant and I knew I had another try with insurance. This time I know what beautiful thing would have come in 9 months, and it was my last try with coverage, so I feel like those things make it extra hard.

Oh god please let me be surprised today! I think i will fall over if they call and say I am pregnant!